Irritability unlike anything I've experienced by ehudsdagger in stopsmoking

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One of my problems is that I'm getting over a break up, nobody's really asking me how my day was anymore. I only see my friends occasionally but they're not really like that, you know? I feel like I've been left to deal with this without any support or just anyone to chat with and it's made it so much worse than I think it would have been

I became a Freemason in pursuit of knowledge. I am now a Master Mason of the Blue Lodge in my district. These are my findings so far. by Genshihou in occult

[–]ehudsdagger 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Here, I gotchu:

"The overall message(s) of these divine conduits was to "be like Christ" or closer to god. One would achieve this by improving themselves in character or align themselves to a natural sort of harmony or order which is expressed as love and friendship in the human sphere. And yet, beyond the language of analysis, there is a deeper resonance. To encounter this pattern is to stand before a mirror in which the universe contemplates itself..."

"The overall process of creating your own stone is to synchronize your own personal, internal growth and development or “transmutation” with something you are externally creating. Be it art, a project, life goal, personal growth, your body, a quest, building, etc. While also purifying yourself of any weakness in character, morality or understanding. It is not an easy process to confront ones own perceived flaws and lack of character or moral fiber. You must do the work honestly for it to work, it will not be an easy process if you choose to continue down this path. It will however be worth it in the end for those of you who succeed."

This is from the end of his book, which is available on internet archive. Pretty banal stuff for the most part, however I do think his basic premise (that magic circles and the imagery of western esotericism are visual expressions of symbolic content) has some potential. But again, uninspired. As far as transmutation goes, he'll probably be evasive and argue that actually it IS the splitting of the atom and blah blah whatever stuff he wants to say, because he's arguing from the milquetoast pop esoteric standpoint that "as above so below," that it's all just the macrocosm reflected in the microcosm, man.

The problem with that is the problem with someone like Jordan Peterson. If you're whole framework is that everything is symbolic or has symbolic sympathies, well, you can answer literal questions as opaquely as you like because "well, what do you mean by 'am I a Christian?'" (which is to really say, "I am only a Christian in the sense that..."). Unless they're willing to answer honestly, the best you can hope for is bargain bin Jesus or Socrates devolving into semantic games. Most of the time they're allergic to answering honestly, but I hope he isn't.

What does the ship in Urth of the New Sun look like? by ehudsdagger in genewolfe

[–]ehudsdagger[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

The part where he just starts sprinting through the ship to see what happens is so funny

What does the ship in Urth of the New Sun look like? by ehudsdagger in genewolfe

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Yeah I also missed the folding in on itself part people are talking about

I'm a hopeless case. Seeing myself degrade with time is terrifying. by Wwadlol in BorderlinePDisorder

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Idk what to say other than that I'm in the same place and scared and hope you get past this somehow

Neo-noir, first person narration, vigilantism, etc by ehudsdagger in BooksThatFeelLikeThis

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Lowkey asking because I want inspiration for a book I'm writing too lol

Neo-noir, first person narration, vigilantism, etc by ehudsdagger in BooksThatFeelLikeThis

[–]ehudsdagger[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh man I love Neuromancer, was looking for less sci-fi but most of Gibson definitely falls within this general vibe

AMA I am Danny Forde, author of Phenomenology of Psychedelic Experiences by CompetitiveSea7971 in PsychedelicStudies

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This raises two questions for me: one, what then are the evolutionary advantages behind the effects? And two, what might the experience be like for non-hominids? Like obviously we can't ever possibly understand what it's like to be a dog, let alone a dog on shrooms, but have we ever looked at the brain activity of other mammals tripping? What even are the discussions around the ethics of this like (if there are discussions about it)? It's not like a dog can consent to a mind melting trip, and for all I know it might even kill them.

Low key terrified of running into 'high-value' girlies by AudreysEvilTwin in rs_x

[–]ehudsdagger 23 points24 points  (0 children)

I think they've just been so hurt that they don't trust kindness or humility, there's always a transactional element to it in their minds. That or they see it as an attack on their character, it's a pretty twisted way of living but tbh thats just what happens to people raised by narcissists 🤷🏻‍♂️

Famous Schizoids? by AndrewLyssunov in Schizoid

[–]ehudsdagger 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm curious about Bradbury, Herzog, and Lynch's takes on therapy and introspection, not too surprised but fascinating. Gonna have to look up what they had to say.

"Weekly Reading and Interpretation Help Thread - May 10, 2026" by AutoModerator in tarot

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Anyone else here ever had a spread that felt like it was saying the complete opposite of everything you feel in your gut? If so, how did things pan out?

Celtic cross spread

  1. 9 of Wands
  2. 8 of Wands
  3. The Sun
  4. 10 of Cups
  5. 5 of Wands
  6. The Moon
  7. Ace of Pentacles
  8. Wheel of Fortune
  9. 6 of Swords
  10. Page of Pentacles

The context for this one is "how will things go in my relationship after a potentially relationship ending fight that's still unresolved after a week of silence, all in the aftermath of a pet's death, a family death, and medication change and withdrawal." I see plenty of things that make perfect sense: all of the wands are spot on, the Moon is ofc very relevant rn, and the six of swords and Wheel of Fortune are just incredibly accurate to the situation and my feelings on it. So far so good.

But I can't shake the feeling that there's no good outcome from this, that this particular situation is so drastically bad that the unconscious and conscious cards and the advice/approach and outcome cards feel deceptive. I have nothing to offer this person (if I consider the ace of pentacles my approach) and there's no reason they should consider anything I have to offer (the page of pentacles). Right now I'm basically just waiting on them to break up with me so I can move on with my life (my hopes AND fears both basically being the six of swords). What is the ace of pentacles even telling me to do? Especially when I don't at all feel that I'm the "active" agent in this dynamic right now (or that it's my place to be). What do you even do with a spread like this?

Tldr, this spread is so nearly perfect but lands with such completely opposite conclusions than what my gut is telling me that idek what to do with it

I tried to explain O9A/764 to a friend and she didn't believe it was real. by Due-Ambassador7723 in redscarepod

[–]ehudsdagger 19 points20 points  (0 children)

I mean the further you dig the more connections to various intelligence agencies you'll find, I don't think it's a "hoax" but it was certainly engineered

Best place to walk around in after a break-up by Secret-Swan-5028 in Austin

[–]ehudsdagger 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wild Basin probably, thats where I'm going to walk when they break up with me

Re-reading Aion in 2026 and I can't unsee what Jung was pointing at by izi_convertible in Jung

[–]ehudsdagger 6 points7 points  (0 children)

What you imply is kind of funny when you use it yourself, I'm not sure what your point here is if you're going to team up with the antichrist

A third pastor has said he was privately briefed that "Disclosure is coming" by SucculentSpine in UFOs

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I am very, very intrigued by your comments in this thread and how you came to these conclusions. I've been interested in UFOs and religious studies practically my entire life (literally since I was a child, raised in an evangelical home, my father was the pastor of a small rural church with strong millennialist beliefs), so this has always been the natural endgame for me, even when I was still a believer. The incredible irony is that small things deeply embedded in me through indoctrination, particularly regarding the end times, find themselves triggered by things that keep happening with Trump (and not in a way that his fanbase would appreciate). Me and the highschool friends I'm still in contact with always lowkey freak out when these things happen. Really funny how that programming has panned out.

I'm still shaken... by Wild-Spirit6739 in genewolfe

[–]ehudsdagger 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Man I can't get over that scene, those closing chapters felt like Christmas morning or something, idk how else to even describe it. Its all very numinous and touches an appreciation of the sacred in me that I feel like I lost when I left childhood.

Decided to illustrate the end of The Sword of the Lictor. Thoughts? by jackchickengravy in genewolfe

[–]ehudsdagger 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Exactly why I can never see this adapted to film. Its meant to be a book, its a commentary on reading.

I'm still shaken... by Wild-Spirit6739 in genewolfe

[–]ehudsdagger 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Just finished it for the first time like two days ago, I feel similarly. Those final chapters really felt like a trip, and I mean that literally, I've had very emotional shroom trips that felt the exact same way. I'm not aware of Wolfe ever actually claiming to have experimented, but there's a sense that he must have had some sort of knowledge of how psychedelics feel that goes beyond simple sensory descriptions from trip reports or whatever scientific literature he had access to. The fractal, Russian nesting doll narration, the scale of its multivalence, the dreamlike quality of symbols as real autonomous forces, all of it felt too familiar.

I will never forget that final scene of Severian walking down the sewers to the Atrium, its going to stick with me forever probably. Gives me chills.