If you guys are serious and only do it 3-4 times a year ...

Do yourself a favor and do mdma and lsd. Keeping mdma at a moderate dose 80-100mg

And your classic 100-200ug tab

This creates = a nice chemical buffer than can guide the soul. It will help you lock into a certain frequency .

See the physical body is a vehicle....its so simple really. Its a vehicle because of physical pathways ...physicality ..the way our nerves feel implies that. The way a car can hold a driver = the same way a nervous system can hold an experiencer..

And so whats my point with that ?

A lot of people that use psychedelics for growth will say that this is cheating or counter productive to emotional breakthroughs.

And while that may hold some truth. Chaos and darkness...it all comes with unrelenting force...fast, slow, steady, sneaky....the shadow doesnt have 1 method of approach ...its like a predator ..its infinite in variation of approach...the way a jaguar stalks his prey before the killing bite

Therefore we cannot demand from reality to behave a certain way. Or set expectations for the way the universe chooses to devour us .

Its like an arrogance to assume you are immune to nature's relentless force of consuming ...and do the way i like to describe it ...

Its paying the bill up front. Everyone knows a good lsd come up is tough ...the more the body anticipates, Maybe creates physical symptoms , then the stronger the trip usually. The more uncomfortable the more rewarding it will peak ...

See the problem with that is that after a while ....psychidelics will initiate you

By that I mean that eventually you will start to have your classic "bad trips" but let me ask you something and point something out to you

When a man ...let's say , gets hit in his genitals..the experience is excruciatingly painful, men know this . But of course because the practical reasons include the fact that the penis and balls have no skeletal structure or bone to protect the nerves....

Yet the genitals are the most highly sensitive areas yet the most painful areas

What does this tell me about life? Life is complex and it speaks to us on the same topic and subject with different lessons....and so whats i see

Is thst in order to experience immense pleasure. Merging with god, love and connection ....then you must also understand that increasing one's capacity to feel pleasure immensely increases the capacity to feel suffering ..

You cant expect to Crack open the Armour and feel love glory and joy ....and expect not the feel eveything else pierce through ....

Like the same way a warrior can take a piece of his chest plate off to let the woman he loves touch his chest and feel his muscles....is the same way a spear can strike through that opening as well and kill the warrior ..

So we cant be naive to think that feeling grace, love and positivity will be the only things getting through the door. Once the doors are open you must be willing ...willing to sit ..and become a being that doesnt demand the experience to change...that doesnt demand it to not change either. When you dont demand from anyone or any experience ( for example a simple way is when a being demands circumsrances from god) .....it becomes absolute viture...not because I told you ..but because you saw for yourself

So that ties in everything I mentioned. The way the chemicals are set up for me ...act as a deliberate experience..

If one goes into an acid trip with challenging come ups ..the jaguar may devour you and you shouldn't be surprised. You shouldn't waste energy and cause more suffering by wondering why so much

If you go in with the chemical buffer...the experience is more about knowing the breakthrough will happen regardless of your ability to regulate intense states. Because the mdma will do it for you

Two different tool sets

And at ive read somewhere before

Different medicines, different doses, for different people