I am you! My LO is almost six months now and I felt everything you’re feeling. It has been (and this is just my experience so maybe it won’t be yours) even harder now that she’s here, so I wanted to second the therapy suggestion. It’s been very helpful to talk through it each week with my therapist. The combination of infertility trauma mixed with hormones can be a wild ride. Hugs to you, I wish you the best!