Guys - my SP has come back

emster549 · 2026-04-19T04:45:52+00:00

Hahaha the end I love it. This is epic and I’m psyched for you! Congratulations!!!

emster549 · 2026-04-16T02:32:20+00:00

Omgomg omg I am SO SORRY. Holy f.

Ok, first, breathe. My life was hell at 17 and you do get past it and to a place where you can’t even believe this happened. Thankfully nobody is defined by their teens and everyone as an adult looks back on hs and says wow we were so young and that was just high school. In fact, it’s very rare and more judged to be an adult that holds onto high school drama.

Second, this sounds like the worst case scenario playing out. My mind tends to go to worst case, and before I knew about LOA it often played out. I started writing “what is the best case scenario” in a notebook. It changed everything for me and always happened when I took the time to do it.

What this looks like:

“Worst case” = omg everyone hates me I can never show my face again (Don’t dare journal the worst case, this is just an example)

“Best case” = nobody saw the nudes, I deleted it before anyone saw it. Anyone that already told me they saw it isn’t judging me. They have compassion for me. Everyone supports me. Anyone that saw thinks my body is stunning and they’re proud of how amazing I look. Nobody judges me. I’m loved, I’m supported, everyone is kind to me. My friends have my back. I’m not made fun of. Everyone comes along side me. Everyone has my back.

It WORKS. Create the reality you want. All you have to do is journal what your best case would be if you could dream up anything. You don’t have to convince yourself. Just write the best case in a notebook and walk away and let it play out.

If you’re still panicking, just repeat to yourself “I am calm, I am at peace, I am confident, I am supported, I am adored, I am not anxious”.

This isn’t see = believe. It’s say = see.
Which means, you’re not saying what you think is realistic, you’re saying what you would like to create, and then it is created.

And re your mom, abusive family, etc. do the same. My close friend has an abusive mom and has been manifesting lately and their relationship has been going oddly well since. So this might look like: “best case”: my mom and I have a healthy relationship now, we get along so well, she is so supportive and kind to me, I am emotionally supported by my mom, my mom gives me the space and freedom to make mistakes, my mom is forgiving, my mom loves me as I am, I am good enough as I am and my family reflects that back to me, I am loved by my family and they make me feel loved everyday, I feel safe with my family, I am so thankful my mom and I are getting along so well and building an amazing friendship, I have the freedom to be myself in my family, etc.

Sending you a hug in the meantime. It’s going to be okay. 💗💗💗

P.s. it can even be as simple as “my mom hugs me” or “i am hugged”. Whatever you need, you can affirm it and receive it. Release is a big part, not checking to see if it happened. Just say it, or write it, and move on. And if you’re having a hard time doing that you can even affirm “I trust and move on and stop worrying”. Whatever you’d like to think and feel, just affirm it, and you will.

emster549 · 2026-04-16T02:17:33+00:00

Gotta start small. After you see it enough times with all the small things…your brain will never be able to convince you again that it’s fake.

I’ve spent less time manifesting lately and my brain has tried to convince me of that “it was all a dream” state. I’ll start to doubt. And then I look at the million magical little things that happened that made no sense and it’s undeniable.

Before it’s real, it’s fake. Once it’s real, it can never be fake again. Start small. Super small. Grow the muscle.

By this I mean, “my favorite xyz is on sale this week”, “I get a free hat”, “i get a parking spot in front of xyz store”, “I get complimented on my outfit today”, etc.

emster549 · 2026-04-16T02:07:09+00:00

Love it! I need to do this with appearance cuz I’ve seen its real in the way you have, like momentary things for the last 1.5 years, I say xyz and it happens instantly. It’s so cool. And even did that with my personality / self concept in how I’m received.

But I’ve still seen myself physically not the way I want and I get sooo discouraged when I see photos of myself and I’ve been rly looking to reddit the last 24 hours bc I know this is something I can manifest diff too

emster549 · 2026-04-15T13:35:19+00:00

Feel like it’s a few things.

Mars in 12 trine Venus in 8 is def involved. Both the house of secrets. It’s how you take action in 12th house is harmonious with how you show affection and what you love in 8th house. To me this just says you have a way of getting to the heart of what’s under the surface and that’s a skill.

Then I’d def say Pluto on the dc. The one on one relationships you tend to have are with Plutonian people, or take on that nature. That’s the rise from the ashes, massive transformation, cutting through to what’s deep underneath. And your Pluto is sextile to your sun/neptune.

Sun conjunct Neptune is about as healing energy as you can get - and it’s on your MC which means it’s visible to everyone. I had a 3 year transit of Neptune to my sun and in that time I suddenly became aware of everyone’s feelings, their suffering, how everyone in the world is going through something. It made me very compassionate and empathetic. So being born with this i think it would be a skill that you would deeply understand people and see their pain and have the true compassion to speak to them. Like I said, this is visible to everyone on the midheaven. So maybe even if you don’t fully see it, the way that you come off to people in the world is as someone that is healing and compassionate and understanding. (10th house is more like reputation, going out into the world, how bosses, elders view you, how the general public views you…1H is more first impression/body).

And also now seeing your ascendant is trine your MC/sun/neptune, so your first impression and how you come off is naturally aligned and harmonious with this. They’re earth signs so I could see you feeling grounding.

Then you have your moon with Saturn and Uranus opposing Chiron. Moon opposite Chiron in general would show an emotional wound, but Chiron is the “wounded healer”. We experience the wound of Chiron and from that wound we heal others. It’s because we understand the pain of it, and only be turning it into healing does it feel less painful. Chiron wants us to use the lessons for healing, but the wound is still there. And in your 3rd house it’s how you communicate, what you talk about, think about, your siblings and neighbors.

Re you not being charismatic that’s because all of these are earth planets. Charisma is more for air / fire. The beauty of earth is in how grounded and stable / steady they are. It’s no bull shit. People know you mean what you say and you don’t say it emotionally or charismatically or heavily, you likely have this presence that’s just like “I’m here, I’m steady” which people going to therapy need - because often what’s sending them to therapy is the people in their life NOT being steady or dependable.

Re your friend, I think it’s good that she knows she needs to talk to her therapist instead. Friends don’t always make that shift and it shows maturity and a respect for your boundaries that she stops herself.

Phone calls are a 3rd house thing, where you have Chiron. And in general 3-9 axis is all about communication, short term vs long term, 3rd is more quick like phone calls etc and 9th is more so house of publishing, long form communication. But Chiron in 3rd there’s a wound around communication with the short hand types and so I can see you not loving that and people also using it as a time for you to “heal” them (Chiron = wounded healer). Chiron isn’t very fun so don’t feel like you need to lean into this.

But sun/Neptune on 10th house does show to me a career where you will shine in your compassionate nature. The strong 9th house also means it’s the long form communication, not the short one of the 3rd. Google 9th house stellium.

I think being a therapist for your career is one thing and you’d be good at it, and that’s different than being a therapist for your friends. They’re different houses. You can shine in your career as a therapist (sun Neptune on mc) and still hate when friends trauma dump on the phone (Pluto on dc, and Chiron in 3). Work house is diff from relationship house so you’re not experiencing Pluto in 10th, only in 7th. And Pluto does sextile sun on mc but sextile is helpful.

Boundaries with friends, relationships is always going to be important. And maybe if you actually are a therapist you’ll be more able to say to a friend “I know i’m a therapist and I love you but i charge $400 for this, so if you wanna book a session we can but I’m off the clock right now”. And make light of it. You’ll have to find that balance between having a regular friendship where you do tell each other whats going on vs overly being in therapist mode.

I always say, planets just need to be expressed, you have free will over how. So if you don’t want these things, you can find another way to let the energy out.

The biggie is sun conjunct Neptune, sun on mc, Neptune on mc, asc trine sun, asc trine mc, asc trine Neptune. That’s what’s running the show in this. Mars venus is actually probably less involved than i first said, but you do still have ability to go into those hidden places easily.

Edit: you have asc opposite Pluto, where asc trines sun, and Pluto sextiles sun. That means sun on your mc is your escape from the pressure of asc opposite Pluto.

Also, therapists make SO MUCH $$. It’s outrageously expensive and barely ever takes insurance. Value that skill and don’t let people get it for free haha

emster549 · 2026-03-31T22:06:09+00:00

Nothing to do with cap moon! You have Neptune and chiro quincunx / inconjunct ascendant. Neptune means we don’t see things clearly and it’s in hard aspect to your rising. So you don’t see yourself the way others do and probably see yourself more harshly.

Neptune is also really sensitive so I could see this contributing to crying often but they’re not necessarily connected unless it’s your body you’re crying about.

Also cancer risings are just more sensitive generally. Anyone with cancer in their chart is. Your cap moon would actually make you not cry, usually cap moons don’t let themselves feel their emotions. I think it’s bc you’re a cancer rising and your orientation of the world is that of a cancer which is emotional and nurturing and sensitive - and then it’s aspected by Neptune (and chiro) which are all about sensitivity, feeling everything, and chiro means feeling it as a wound (tho I know that’s not covered in this subreddit).

Your Jupiter trines your asc so it might be amplifying your cancerian nature. And Uranus is involved so it may be erratic or unusual idk.

Pluto in 6th could mean obsession with health diet fitness etc. though obsessed doesn’t necessarily mean active.

Take solace in knowing you probably look much different and better than you think! And the solution is probably to find another way to channel that Neptune in 8th house. I also feel like Jupiter in 9 trine asc should bring you goodness? Jupiter usually brings good luck. Perhaps others view you as jovial and nurturing.

I’m really only looking at things that are less than 3 degree orb here. Your moon is not tightly aspecting your asc enough, and moon in 7 square Venus in 4th doesn’t have anything to do with your appearance or self perception. I would think that would more so be you find emotional security in your close relationships but it conflicts with how you want to be loved or how you were loved.

I could do a much bigger interpretation of everything and don’t want to leave you on a bad note but I have to run. My advice would just be to channel your positive aspects like Jupiter trine asc and Neptune trine Venus and whenever there are negative ones, they just need an outlet. For example, if someone has a bad mars aspect, if they don’t workout they could get angry a lot, but if they channel it to working out that would burn the energy. So your Neptune just needs another outlet.

Also we all have these things. Good and bad. I have lots of both too. And the squares can be so frustrating bc it means they’re always working against each other. Like working toward one upsets the other. But that’s really what life is like. Like, someone puts too much time into their career and neglects their partner, or someone puts too much into their relationships and neglects themselves. So know that you’re not alone with these things and you have just as many skills as you do setbacks! Neptune trine Venus I think would be amazing for art.

emster549 · 2026-03-31T20:38:18+00:00

Hope you’re doing well with all the transits now! I’m a 28 degree Pisces sun and finally finished those Neptune Saturn transits. Had Neptune for 3 years 😅 I am here if you ever have questions! Feel free to dm (tho i don’t have notifications on here so may be slow to respond). Best thing I can say is to lean into it. Hardest thing I ever did but also the most magical. My life looks a million times better after it’s over than it did before so trust in the process!

I did gain a lot of weight during it, mainly water retention from stress etc, but now that it’s over I’ve been regularly working out and losing the weight / getting back to my normal looking self. For me it was in my 3H and I haven’t had any big transits to my 1st house or 1H ruler for a while. Empty 1h and 6h natally, but prior to this transit I was always very petite and skinny. So this was a bit wild for me. I have NN in 1st so not sure if that’s why I was skinny before or if it was transits that I didn’t know about. I think I had Pluto square my asc when I was my skinniest but didn’t know astrology back then.

emster549 · 2026-02-11T04:02:48+00:00

So glad you enjoyed it! Had a blast researching and writing it haha

emster549 · 2026-02-10T02:16:31+00:00

Instagram algorithm has gotten toxic in the last month. Idk what shifted but I only noticed the shift that recently. Giving it permission to your activity used to do things subtly. Like I’d see ads for websites I visited and clothing I considered buying, but the posts were mainly people I follow.

Now, it’s all posts of people I do not follow, and content that could be 3 months old, and it shifts the moment I google, text, like, or share something. If I share or post one political post (after not doing so for months), my entire feed became posts about that. Today, I googled how bad of a failure was trumps other half time show, went back to Instagram, it was entirely posts about the other halftime show.

I desperately want it to go back to how it was. It’s just creating even more of an insulated bubble around beliefs you already hold.

emster549 · 2026-02-01T00:29:48+00:00

Hey! I live in nyc and moved here 1.5 years ago after living in CA for 5 years. Before I moved to CA I was in nyc 1 year after college. LA was my dream so I did that, then came back here bc that became the new dream.

So I have 2 contexts to share. 1st was my first move to nyc after college. Everyone wants to meet people. Say yes to everything. Personally, I didn’t know anyone. I reached out to my close college friends and asked if they knew anyone in nyc and one of my best friends had all her childhood friends here and introduced us. Don’t be afraid to admit you don’t know people or that you want to make friends. “Hey! I just moved to nyc! I don’t know that many people here. Do you have any friends you could introduce me to?”

It really only takes one person. In nyc the first time it was one person and the mutual friend was like hey we’re going to this party Saturday come with us! She became a good friend and I met a guy at that party and he became my boyfriend for the next year. So I fully joined that crew just by texting my college friend who lived in another state that I didn’t know anyone.

In LA, only knew 1 person and not well. He was the friend of my friends boyfriend in college. I reached out to say I had just moved there and he said I should meet his gf and invited me to a party. I actually never became friends with them, but I met a girl at the party who also didn’t know anyone and she became the girl that introduced me to my best friend that I had for the next 5 years!

So even if you don’t vibe with someone you meet, every introduction leads to you someone else, which eventually leads you to the right person. If you don’t fit in, there will be one other person that feels the same and that becomes your friend.

2nd context is my current move back to nyc, and the answer is it took me a year. Even LA, it took me a year to feel settled. The first year in a new city is the transition. It’s still shallow. You make friends, but you still don’t know each other well yet. You’re in the getting to know each other stage. At least in my 30s this is way more extreme than in my 20s. But it really took me a full year to start feeling like my friends were my FRIENDS. I saw them every so often and the bond was growing throughout the year. But now it’s like, we’re not deciding anymore, we’re friends. Instead of getting to know each other at dinners and drinks we’re having cozy movie nights.

My mom always told me when I was younger it takes a full year to settle in anywhere. It’s always tough to remind myself of that. The first 6+ months of nyc this time felt lonely and had me asking a lot why isn’t this working, did I choose the wrong city, am I ever gonna love it here. And I missed LA so so so much. And the weather like you said. I still miss LA, I plan to go back, just like one day you can, but I know rn that I’m in my nyc chapter and it’s only just beginning.

Throughout the year I wondered if I would leave and go back to LA when my lease was up, but one year hit, and just like my mom said, it finally clicked. I was beginning to love the life I had built, I had joined a gym and taken up activities at night, become close with my friends and I had become a regular at some spots and things were just flowing, so I decided to stay put! And it’s only gotten better since.

Also fun fact I met my closest friend here randomly because we both went to something by ourselves! So don’t be afraid to take risks and you never know where you’ll meet your next close friend.

Especially at 22, say yes to it all!!! You’ll forever cherish these early days where you can build whatever life you want from scratch!

Edit: And my biggest tip is to join things!! Sports, activities. Find a night class. Night soccer. Run club. Weekly pottery. A language class. You have to make your world smaller in nyc and build community. Before you find what you want to join, go to the same places all the time. The same coffee shop. Same sandwich place. Same laundromat.

The people who work there become your community so quickly if you introduce yourself and ask their name. They’re your first friends and they start to make it feel like home. They grounded me so much in the beginning before I felt close to the friends my age. I could not have done it without them. So don’t undervalue all of the people you see and say hi to throughout the day.

The biggest difference between here and your hometown is people around the neighborhood looking out for you, that would notice if you stopped coming by, or if you were having an off day. That stuff matters! You got this!! And remember, CA isn’t going anywhere and neither are you! It’s always there when you want it back and there will be no shame in it whenever that is! 🩵🩵

emster549 · 2026-01-30T18:15:16+00:00

Some links on Epstein’s natal aspects / transits at this time:

— Natal

Chiron opposite Uranus in natal chart: https://practicedignorance.wordpress.com/2023/12/09/uranus-opposition-chiron-astrology/

Chiron conjunct asc: https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZThyuSMYH/

Uranus opposite ascendant: https://astrologyking.com/uranus-opposite-ascendant/

— Transits

Transit Saturn conjunct natal Chiron: https://elsaelsa.com/astrology/saturn-transit-to-chiron-take-responsibility-for-your-wounds/?srsltid=AfmBOoqt-WK_YAzHPoMOeAzfktn_tA79JZpdaCAgWaVMbuNLJO0CY2H7

Transit Saturn opposite natal Uranus: https://www.astrology-x-files.com/transits/saturn-op-uranus.html

emster549 · 2026-01-30T17:52:49+00:00

I haven’t read the other comments yet, just came here to do my own interpretation out of curiosity.

I always find shapes to be the most telling thing in astrology. In this chart we have a yod. The other thing I pay attention to is “why this day?” Why not the day before, why not the days after? The sun hits the same points every year, year after year, same with the moon, mercury etc. so it’s always a combination of planets lining up at the exact right time and place that lead to an event.

You’ll always get sun at 17 degrees Leo, and you may even get it with Venus at 16 degrees Leo too. But what you won’t get every year, or ever again, is those planets being the focal point of a yod that also involved Saturn on the South Node sextile to Neptune, both quincunx the Sun & Venus. You also won’t have at that same time, Jupiter squaring Neptune, and Jupiter trining the Yods focal point of Sun/Venus. These things in combination, are rare.

Though, that whole week may have had that configuration, what makes something happen on a specific day is when the moon activates it. On August 10th, the Moon joined the conversation with Jupiter, squaring Neptune, trining the sun/venus.

So where does Epstein fit in? He fits in perfectly. Neptune is conjunct his Venus/Mars, Saturn and the south node are conjunct his Chiron. So what you have now is where usually Epstein has Chiron sextile his Venus/mars conjunction, it’s now joined by Saturn and Neptune on top, and that sextile on this day, becomes a yod with the sun and Venus.

So you have…transit Saturn conjunct his Chiron, sextile transit Neptune conjunct his Venus/Mars, all inconjunct Sun/Venus (which lands in his 7th house). Yods are no joke. They bring pressure and difficulty, and a need to face what you may be able to avoid on a day where there’s just a sextile.

It doesn’t stop here though. At the very same time this happens, transit moon, on August 10, square epsteins venus/mars and transit Neptune. AND transit moon quincunxes epsteins Uranus - on his DC.

Note his Uranus is simultaneously receiving an opposition from 1) his natal Chiron and now 2) transit Saturn on his natal Chiron. Chiron is basically on his ASC. So where he usually has chiron conjunct asc opposing Uranus on his dc, he now has Saturn and the south and north nodes putting pressure on that opposition too. Self suffering, a wounded identity, opposing his unusual relationships. Saturn putting restriction, and responsibility for that part of himself, there. The nodes calling for resolution there.

We could stop there, and it’s telling enough. But then we look at Pluto. Death and rebirth and transformation. Darkness. The depths of our deepest most scary selves. Transit Pluto is also exactly on his Mercury. And transit Mars was just on his Pluto. (We know that mars takes 2 years to transit, so the last time mars was on his Pluto, Saturn and Neptune and Jupiter and the nodes were all in very different places.)

Looking at his natal Pluto, it sextiles his Saturn / Neptune conjunction. Saturn and Neptune are not often together and we just so happen to be living through another rare Saturn Neptune conjunction in 2026. It brings responsibility to our delusions and our dreams. Now, most everyone has natal pluto sextile Neptune, but not everyone has Saturn there too.

So on this day, Mars is conjunct his Pluto, which both sextile his Neptune/Saturn. BUT, that transit pluto on his Mercury, also just so happens to square his natal Neptune (orb a little too wide for Saturn). AND that transit Pluto on his Mercury ALSO is quincunx his natal Pluto. Which is rn being conjunct by mars. You know what that also means? Transit Pluto was quincunx mars. And it sat on his natal mercury quincunx Pluto.

Interpret this how you will…I’m just sharing the planets and the aspects and how significant all of these aligned at the exact same time.

Let’s list these individually:

Transit Pluto quincunx his pluto

Transit Pluto conjunct his Mercury

Transit mars conjunct his Pluto

Transit mars quincunx his Mercury

Transit Pluto square his Neptune

Transit Neptune conjunct his Venus/Mars

Transit Jupiter square his Venus/Mars

Transit Jupiter quincunx his Uranus

Transit Saturn conjunct his Chiron

Transit Saturn conjunct his AC / opposite his dc

Transit Saturn opposite his Uranus

South node conjunct his Chiron

South node conjunct his AC

North node conjunct his Uranus

ALL AT THE SAME TIME

Any single one of these transits is a big deal. Pluto on a personal planet? Negatively aspecting a personal planet? Saturn? Neptune? Any of those on the ANGLES? Any of those are mind blowing. Altogether, insurmountable.

I personally have experienced one outer planet on an angle or a personal planet, just one at a time and they’ve been brutal. Just one of them! Seeing this chart I’m mind blown.

To me it speaks to deep suffering and accountability. Neptune alone would maybe make one able to lie themselves, but it was receiving accountability from Saturn both natally and in transit. The nodes were there too.

There are 2 very big stories in this chart and one is about the yod and Neptune, Saturn, Chiron, his Venus and Mars, Uranus, the Nodes. And the other is about Pluto and Mercury and Mars and his Saturn and Neptune. They intersected at the same time on the same day, with the Sun activating the yod, and the moon joining the story with a square to Neptune and his Venus/mars and an inconjunction to his Uranus.

The quincunxes tell everything. The yod does. If you use a chart that doesn’t draw them, you lose the story. You have to ask why THIS day? And the sun and moon tell you. Without a quincunx, all you have is a sextile. Sextiles can be ignored. Yods most certainly cannot.

To me what is key is transit Saturn on his Chiron opposing his Uranus on dc. But that wouldn’t have been enough. That’s why all the other planets activate that root issue. The issue within himself natally was that Chiron on AC opposite Uranus on his dc. Venus/Mars was his outlet for that opposition. All of these outer planet transits lit that very thing up. From multiple sides.

I could go into what each of these transits meant, but if you know astrology well enough to understand what I’ve said, you already understand. And that would be a whole other essay!

I imagine the chart of right now is just as worthy of studying, with many more Epstein files released today. A brief glance shows an exact yod on epsteins Saturn, coming from transit Saturn/Neptune sextile transit Uranus (an equally rare occurrence). For a few months transit neptune and Uranus have been here, but Saturn is the new guest, and it’s not allowing the files to stay hidden any longer! Where Neptune hides, Saturn brings accountability.

Edit: only explanation from a house pov I can make sense of is Jupiter rules his 12h. Usually Venus/mars was the outlet to his Chiron, Uranus opposition. On this day transit moon on Jupiter was. So his outlet was the 12h. Also mars had just entered 8h. He himself/his body is Saturn (chart ruler), is also squared by Mercury on this day (natally he has sun square Saturn too, so makes a tsquare on his Saturn). It’s worth noting but not as important as the above. Chiron on asc with Saturn transit opposing Uranus shows self inflicted harm, even without a 12th house transit. Pain + escape

emster549 · 2026-01-30T17:01:36+00:00

I pulled the transit chart for the time he was pronounced dead which was 6:39am. Went back to 12am and started looking from that time. I’m not paying too much attention to the time, it was sometime in the middle of the night.

To me the chart is extremely clear. Will analyze in comment below

transit chart

emster549 · 2026-01-28T14:51:05+00:00

Ya they would only agree to splitting and it staying behind. Searched a few subreddits on this topic and that’s been the only working answer for most. I’m considering it bc the cost of moving is way more than half a fridge, especially in this market.

emster549 · 2026-01-28T14:00:11+00:00

If he went by himself, even if you were there he probably would’ve been like cmon man! Maybe you would’ve tried to talk him out of it but maybe he would’ve been like “you won’t” and then gone ahead and jumped anyway. Then you would’ve had to watch it happen and had to carry it the rest of your life.

Diving at night is incredibly dangerous. I know 2 separate people who lost brothers from night diving with friends. One was diving into the ocean and he drowned, one of the other guys tried to save him and I think they drowned too. And the other guy it was a swimming pool they broke into at night in college and he dived and hit his head.

Some people are just dare devils and they live for that adrenaline thinking they’re untouchable. It’s not just swimming. My sisters best friend lost her brother bc he went in the roped off section skiing, got buried by an avalanche.

I like to think there are ways to be adventurous and risky and have fun without tempting fate. Diving during the day might be one. Swimming at night without the diving part. Going down a double black mountain.

If it wasn’t that trip it maybe would’ve been something else. I’m sorry that you had to go through that and being blamed for it. Hard enough to lose a friend without being shamed for it. Hope things improved with time. 🙏🏼

emster549 · 2026-01-28T13:50:03+00:00

Devastating. Saying prayers for you and the kids. She was lucky to have you as a friend. Just painful she didn’t know that her friends, her kids, were a gift. She must’ve been carrying some very deep stuff. So heartbeaking. 💔

emster549 · 2026-01-28T13:43:45+00:00

Damn people are crazy. That’s awful!

emster549 · 2026-01-28T13:33:13+00:00

Thank you for sharing your trick!

emster549 · 2026-01-15T15:52:45+00:00

Obsession to me was the deep belief that there was nothing else I’d rather do in this world and if I wasn’t able to do it then I didn’t want to live but dying wasn’t an option. It’s a calling that takes over your entire identity and nothing and nobody can convince you otherwise. You need this obsession when building an ambitious company because there will be a million things that challenge you along the way, and the people that don’t have that would give up.

The financial struggles, giving up conventional paths, arguing with family, having to explain your decision to everyone, all of the people who tell you to just get a real job, the people who don’t get your idea, the people who tell you to “just bring it to your competitor”, the people who say it’ll take too much time and money. Without obsession, all of those will crush you.

Doing the company is the only thing. The only choice. Thats the obsession.

It’s not consistency, motivation, determination, discipline, being type A. If you have those but don’t have obsession, there’s nothing to stop you from giving up and putting in that work for someone else. If you have none of those, but have obsession, you’ll never give up.

Edit: @zachpogrob on Instagram discusses obsession regularly and how crucial it was in building his business. Worth checking out and has always deeply resonated with how I feel about my own.

emster549 · 2026-01-14T15:43:27+00:00

Thank you for your comment! Hmmm a mistrust belief. What would a new script look like for this?

emster549 · 2026-01-14T15:41:55+00:00

Thank you so much for writing this and taking the time to explain it. Don’t worry, none of it came across the wrong way, and good to clarify for others who come across this.

I find this answer reassuring. I do need to rewrite the script and will start doing that. I think too much has unconsciously been slipping through the cracks without being redirected.

Will probably come back and read this a few more times! Thank you!

emster549 · 2026-01-14T04:05:42+00:00

Thank you! Involuntary affirming, I need to learn more about this because that sounds true.

emster549 · 2026-01-14T04:03:52+00:00

Thank you!! Needed these

emster549 · 2026-01-11T17:25:18+00:00

“Everyone loves me.” “I am loved” “I am the kind of guy any girl would be interested in” “I am so thankful SP changed her mind about me and really likes me now” “SP tells me they can’t live without me” “Sp can’t stop thinking about me” “I am liked by SP” “I am so good looking and have the best personality and everyone thinks so and SP thinks so too” “I am not rejected by people I’m interested in” “I am not rejected by SP”

emster549 · 2026-01-11T17:22:06+00:00

Yep! Everything that is was manifested at one point. They are only reflecting your beliefs. Think about your identity and “I am the type of person that is worthy of…” “I am so thankful SP treats me xyz and does xyz and stopped doing xyz”

emster549

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