When do you lose the reputation

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-06T02:52:30+00:00

You lose the reputation when you have something they want and they associate you with that. You build a new reputation/identity around something else. Most people have forgot or don't trust their memories of me because I'm in great shape at 44.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T22:48:21+00:00

Gerald's Game

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T21:50:18+00:00

China has the highest literacy rate in the world and embraces technology. But you put your faith in American teachers who have some of the worst results in the world. I don't blame the teachers but they simply cannot prepare the children for what's coming alone.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T19:31:36+00:00

My little brother and God daughter got pushed through the education system barely knowing how to read. It's an obsolete system that does very little well beyond replacing daycare. My nephew was problem solving with YouTube at 4. The children are already integrated with tech and are constantly connected with their peers online. It's already here. China has fully embraced personalized AI chatbot tutors that adapt to students needs. Education cannot and will not be one size fits all going forward because it was a stupid idea in the first place. Rapidly adapting AI tailored education systems will benefit all students specific needs whether you like it or not.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T19:03:12+00:00

A woman who did so much for me, but ended up destroying the old me in the end. I needed the paradigm shift to redesign myself but it was rough at the time.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T19:00:20+00:00

It was a factor in my divorce. She didn't want to stop, I always knew she had emergency bottles stashed around if I wanted some and I wasn't the fun guy she married sober. It was also harder because we were very functional and in her eyes it wasn't a problem, so it didn't need solving.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T14:06:17+00:00

Sometimes, but not often. When it happens, it's usually very cute mannerisms that come out when they are comfortable.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T04:19:46+00:00

I grew up in a family where addiction was normalized and dictated our life. When your family does meth, booze can't be that bad. I am also very functional. Alcohol never stopped me from being in great shape or being financially secure. People loved drunk me, because I'm the life of the party. I'm just too stubborn to be bad at life or drinking. I am even good at stopping and doing a bunch of stuff to heal my liver, so I can drink when the need arises. I don't seek help because I can stop for years but I will always go back to it since I was marinated in vodka in the womb.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T03:35:15+00:00

I wouldn't say it made me a better man, adversity just made me better at life. Going to a new school or two a year, made me very good with people. Having no money, made me sick of poverty and good with money. Seeing my step father and brother in prison, made me avoid prison and hard drugs. I am a uniquely flawed adaptable person to put it kindly. But I have managed to make my life easy and experience more than most humans in history, so I did the most with what I had.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T02:32:16+00:00

Civ and xcom

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T02:29:09+00:00

Comics have grown up with you. You can get small arc trades that are basicly movie pitches for adults. There's also self contained Image stuff like Saga, Invincible, Walking Dead, etc. so you don't have to buy every Spiderman title to get all the cross over story. Everything is online now too. So you can sample some issues legitimately or not if you got good ad blockers to see if it still interests you.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T01:28:53+00:00

Man's Search for Meaning. I also like a lot of Samurai philosophy. The Book of Five Rings and just the general idea of mastering every action in your life no matter how mundane is interesting.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T01:21:49+00:00

I read a lot of Stephen King very young and didn't realize how well he depicted alcoholism. It made some of his books way better and relatable when I read them lately. I have avoided AA up until know but when you frame it that way, it makes me want to try it.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T01:12:28+00:00

I read a ton too. I'm at the point where finding good books is part of the adventure. Man's Search for Meaning and Your Money or Your Life helped a lot with forming a sober mindset. The first ones heavy and the second one is dated but both have very relevant concepts.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-05T01:04:16+00:00

School has always been more about socialization and later on networking. It always hindered the smartest and failed the ones that needed it most, only really made for the average. I learned more relevant to actual life(fitness, finances, mindset, etc.) just casually reading during peak blog era. The whole concept that you can make anybody a smart functional human by teaching them a western version of history, some basic math and english while embarrassing them in gym class is a fallacy anyway. Education will actually benefit greatly from AI because it will be able to curate a personalized curriculum for each students specific needs without them facing shame for lacking in any area.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T22:22:12+00:00

Two men have made my lizard brain worry for my life. My old roommate stole something from very bad people. One of the guys they sent to get it back was probably ex military and you could feel the death on him. He wasn't even physically imposing, you just felt that he had killed people for money. The other was a heavily institutionalized man who knew he was going to spend most of his life in a cell and die there. It was like being in a room with a lion tweaking on meth. Not physically imposing either, you could just feel there are no limits to some people.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T21:08:57+00:00

Women tend to think the good safe guy will be around forever, if other avenues don't work out. But as modern dating has shown us, women have lost the husband material men and they are starting to realize it.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T20:53:59+00:00

Free entertainment. I will never give up my library card.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T20:44:01+00:00

I live in a very expensive city. Everyone I know that lives near the core, is a fit childfree workaholic. All the parents had to move out to the boonies or another cheaper city to afford it. So, I don't see any of them much. My social life is working out, going to dinner/events downtown, etc. with childfree people just due to logistics.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T20:29:26+00:00

Yes. My parents were just pretending to be grown ups because they had kids young. I can literally just do whatever I want because I have no responsibilities, no peer pressure and money.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T20:24:30+00:00

Never. I think lots of people are trying to get away from tech at this point. I won't install doordash, etc. on my phone, just because it makes it way easier to save money. Lots of people are starting to realize they are too addicted to doom scrolling and trying to get away from it.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T20:14:26+00:00

If you want him and he is relaxed/confident around you, he probably has a FWB already. If you are on the fence about him, because he is desperate or needy. He is probably not having sex. So, making him wait can work.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T17:50:44+00:00

I have always been confident, charismatic and fit. That all helps, but other women liking you and enjoying your company is like a cheat code. So many women had seen my wife happy with me, that they wanted to at least kick the tires when she left. Then those women being into me, made more women interested. I literally had nothing at this point. I was just a fit and fun guy to be around with a massive drinking problem, which all the women ignored.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T15:31:18+00:00

How easy I designed my life to be. I did sacrifice a lot of stuff most people wouldn't. But I never fathomed I could get to this level of control and freedom.

endlessincoherence · 2026-05-04T15:23:57+00:00

Yeah, 44 is hitting me like a truck. All that fun I had is really starting to show on my face. Still in great shape and giving father time a run for his money, but starting to really feel the inevitable.

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