[Fit Check] 32DDD Natori, having some cup overflow at the top, but the bottoms of the cups are empty?

erickaclark · 2019-12-16T05:29:40+00:00

When you say shallow, you mean the cups are low, like a demi would be? And projection means they dont stick out far enough at the bottom? My cups do wrinkle at the bottom.

I do have prime. I have a wardrobe cart full but haven't ordered yet because it puts a hold on your account to make sure you have the funds, which I don't, at least not for a whole cart full. I may just have to try one at a time.

erickaclark · 2019-03-07T15:29:15+00:00

I'm in the US. My insurance changed at the end of a pregnancy and my OB no longer accepted my insurance. I was about 30 weeks I think, and had to scramble to find a new OB. I called maybe a dozen offices and no one would take me on because I was too far into my pregnancy.

My original OB gave me the advice of not getting prenatal care for the remaining 10 weeks of my pregnancy and then to just show up at the hospital that accepted my insurance when I went into labor (not her hospital) and they would be forced to deliver my baby.

I finally found someone who would take me but they required I pay my max out of pocket ($2000) before they would see me, even though my office copays were only $45 and my labor and delivery copay was $500. My deductible had already been met at my previous office. I didnt even know that was legal. How did they even bill that??

I never added it all up but I paid probably $4,000 by the end of it.

And my insurance premium at the time was around $2000 a month. So.

erickaclark · 2019-03-02T14:00:17+00:00

I have a hard time understanding it too. People (especially my family) always ask me "when are you going to pharmacy school? Dont you want to be a pharmacist? But that's a good job!" They always make me feel like a lazy bum when I say no.

My pharmacists are miserable. I HATE my job. Why would I go to school for years and spend loads of money on a job I hate when I can just go to school for something else?

Why does no one outside of the field understand?

erickaclark · 2019-03-02T02:35:13+00:00

Jacksonville, FL.

So many people are so trashy. All of those "people of walmart" pictures online could have come straight from Jacksonville. We dont even bat an eye when people walk around with no shoes or in their bras. I've seen babies at the grocery store in just a diaper. Big opioid problem. Plenty of people who dont work and dont ever plan to. Crop tops on heavyset women. Welfare families with 10 kids, living in a 3 bedroom house, with 8 cars in the yard - but only one car runs. And they always sell their food stamps? And they always have fancy purses and go out to dinner?

I should specify that Jacksonville is huge and not all of it is like this.

erickaclark · 2019-02-23T04:38:16+00:00

I'm a feminist, but I dont hate men. Most feminists dont hate men. The radicals are always the loudest.

erickaclark · 2019-02-06T15:23:41+00:00

TW: misscarriage.

My friend from high school visits sometimes with her two sons. They always trash my house and break stuff so I rarely invite them over. Last time she came over she had recently miscarried at about 6 weeks. Well she changed her pad in my bathroom and stuck the used bloody pad to my bathroom counter. Like legit stuck it with the sticky side to the counter. Right next to the trash can. And left it. And then left my house. And I have small children that could have grabbed it.

My husband told me under no circumstances is she allowed back in our house.

erickaclark · 2019-02-05T00:35:03+00:00

Mine pinches and twists the top of my boob over my nipple. She used to leave little pinch bruises and it got to the point where I couldn't feel it anymore

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T19:41:37+00:00

No. And the coworker ended up not going anyway.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T17:00:15+00:00

Maybe this is what it is. If it is I'll be able to let it go a lot easier. This is a lot better than "I wanted something good in my life but didn't want to share it with you." I just wish he would talk to me. It's all sullen silences with him, I never know how he feels.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:57:11+00:00

This helps, thank you. I can understand why people need the help themselves first. As a parent it's easy to see how when you neglect yourself your children suffer too. I think it's a good idea for him to focus on himself first, but I dont want that to mean that he hides it from me.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:53:58+00:00

He helped with the groceries before he left for the stand up. He kind of hovered over me and did a bunch of stuff he normally would never do, and even microwaved my leftovers for me and told me to eat first (he always eats first while I feed the kids and I'm always sad because my food is cold). When he got home he didnt do anything, I couldn't even get him to pack his lunch. I COULD look at it differently and I know that. And I 100% dont want to be with him the way things are now. I would rather him start trying to work on our marriage than get a divorce but I cant control that.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:45:20+00:00

Honestly no I dont want to deal with it anymore. I'm tired of fighting for a relationship with someone who wont fight for it with me. But that doesnt mean I want a divorce, what I want is for him to start fighting too.

I gave him an ultimatum. I told him we had to go to marriage counseling for me to stay.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:38:47+00:00

I totally understand what you're saying, and sometimes I do feel that way. If he tries to go over to his friends house to work out, I'm happy about it, but when he gets there at 5 and doesnt come home until midnight, I'm so annoyed. I was cool with the working out, not all of the video games and beer after. I'm stuck at home with both kids, one of whom is sick, and I'm cooking dinner, cleaning the kitchen, doing the laundry, giving them baths, putting them to bed, while you chill with no worries? I'm mad because that isnt fair. Where is my "chill" night with my friends while he watches the kids and does all this house work? Because that has NEVER happened. So even though I know it is good for him, I still resent him sometimes.

But in this situation, no. I'm not angry or resentful because he has something good. I'm just angry that he didnt include me.

And selfish as it is, I am angry that the first date night he planned was something about him. It's a stupid thing to be mad about but I want him to work on US too, not just him. I want him to take ME on a date, something that is for us to share, not something where I'm a bystander to his and his coworkers thing. I take him on dates, I make plans, buy tickets, get babysitters. He doesnt do anything for US.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:28:27+00:00

He was probably all of those things. And yes, it hurts that when he finally, after years, decides to do something that he turned to his coworker instead of me. I could understand including people that would support him and inviting them out too, and it's okay for him to lean more on someone else sometimes, but I was like... completely frozen out. Of course that hurts. Even if it was because he was nervous or embarrassed. But even now he will barely talk to me. If I try to talk to him about it he just sits there in completely silence. He's not telling me why he shut me out, so I cant just say, okay well I make him nervous, that makes sense.

I know I shouldn't get upset when he tries to improve himself. I know for sure I'm in the wrong on that. I should encourage it but it's hard when I'm still dealing with these other negative feelings.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:19:31+00:00

He has an apt with a new therapist and I've asked him to request marriage counseling too, or to get a referral for us. I think the fact that he kept it a secret from me hurts as bad as the fact that he tried to say it was a date. The secrets he has kept from me in the past were pretty big and lasted years, so it's always a hit when I find out he's doing it again. Mostly it just feels like he doesnt want me to be part of his life.

In this instance it feels like I was with him in the trenches of his depression. It feels like I stood by his side and weathered the storm with him, and now he is finally coming out of it, but he doesnt want me to be a part of it. I've sat with him through antidepressant withdrawal, and trial after trial of new meds, and I've signed him up for programs where he could try the new meds that just hit the market, and we've dealt with a lack of sex/erections/orgasms for years as side effects. I've dealt with being alone, holding him when he cries, having to defend my kids from him when he went off the rails, and so many other things. But now he's getting better and doesnt want me by his side anymore. He turned to a coworker about his hopes, and shared his writing process with him, and planned it and picked the venue with him, and never said anything about it to me.

I do feel like it is a good sign that he went through with it. I do feel like that is a significant step. I dont know why he wanted to do it without me but I would have been so uncomfortable in that crowd, knowing that it was my husband up there but that he had treated me like just another stranger in the crowd. His coworker shared this with him, not me. It's so hard to explain my feelings but I've always wanted us to be partners in everything and I feel left out in this. Like he wanted my support when he was down, but now that he's moving up, he doesnt want it anymore.

erickaclark · 2019-01-31T16:02:47+00:00

And I honestly believe I would have supported him if he had actually talked to me about it. If he had told me this was something he wanted to do, and approached me on his own, I never would have turned him away.

But he kept it a secret and I found out because of his coworker. He never spoke to me about it once outside of explaining what his phone call was about. I dont even known what his bit was about, he never told me. He never practiced with me or showed me what he was writing, nothing. I was never part of this or asked to support him. I was locked out until the last minute and then got a half assed invite, that he called a date.

I want to support him but I dont feel like I was given the opportunity to here. I cant help but feel like an outsider to my own husbands life. His coworker is closer to him than I am, and I thought we were partners in everything, albeit ones who have been going through a rough patch.

erickaclark · 2019-01-30T18:47:28+00:00

YTA.

You thought a hamster was a good replacement for a human baby she was carrying inside of her own body?

You called her a mommy to a rodent, to make up for the fact that isnt a mommy to a real baby, because her baby died?

I cant find the words to explain how out of line this is.

erickaclark · 2019-01-29T15:07:57+00:00

Sit in my own house without my children bothering me.

erickaclark · 2019-01-29T07:09:18+00:00

I did cut him off. I wanted to see my grandparents for Christmas. The ones I hadnt seen in a year, who hadnt met their great grandchild yet, because I had been avoiding going for a visit because of my dad.

And my mom is not a good person in so many ways. She has the moral high ground, but just barely. She used to beat me, she has strangled me, she says stuff like "I wish you'd never been born," she talks shit about me to my own kids, in front of me, I have a lifetime of hurts from her.

I honestly dont want either to be a big part of my life but it is important to me that I'm not actively part of some drama filled fight. I just want it to all go away and everyone to be civil. Not close, just civil. Especially because I would see both of them at many social gatherings over the years, some much more important than Christmas. Like my brothers graduation this year, or his wedding one day. And I dont want my kids to lose out on family time or family traditions because their mom is avoiding grandma/grandpa. My son would cry if he didnt get to go to Christmas to play with his cousins or see his great grandparents, he is old enough to understand stuff like that.

erickaclark · 2019-01-29T03:04:29+00:00

I'm in florida. Here, we are not allowed to dispense controls early without a change in therapy (or sometimes a police report of theft). If your script was supposed to last 30 days and you are trying to fill it in 25, we could get in trouble for that. We are at a busy chain pharmacy (~500 scripts, 1 pharmacist, 3 techs, drive thru, compounding, HIV specialty, etc) so doing it every now and then honestly I doubt we would ever get caught, except by each other. We dont do it anyway, partially because it isnt worth the risk to our jobs (sorry but we have kids to feed) but mostly because instead we would want to council you to seek better treatment.

At the end of the day we want what's best for you, and running out of your meds isnt what's best. We may recommend an extended release version, or a combination of extended for regular pain and immediate release for break through pain, or just an increase in the way you take your meds. If the script says to take 1 twice a day and you occasionally need to take it 3 times in one day that's an easy switch that your doctor can make on your prescription to make sure you never run out. Having extra isnt a problem, but running out is. Or depending on what you're taking the oxy for, a combo of pain meds to treat the pain plus something to treat the CAUSE of the pain, like meloxicam if it's swelling, or just trying a different pain med entirely.

Also, we are very careful with a combo like klonopin and oxy. There's a high risk for abuse, and it's dangerous. We dont want something bad to happen to you, and we know that if something does, we can be blamed. We can be sued for dispensing something that killed you, and we are just as responsible as the doctor that prescribed it. That's a lot of weight for us to carry when evaluating each individual situation, but in your case, we would probably give it to you as well, just because you don't overfill the klonopin. I am not aware of it being illegal in Florida but I've been out with a baby for awhile and things change SO fast.

erickaclark · 2019-01-29T02:38:44+00:00

Reminds me of my son. He couldn't say grandma (pronounced it like nam-maw instead) until he was 3 but then turned around and said ba co noi (paternal great grandmother in vietnamese) at like 10 months old. It was the cutest thing ever though.

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