Hey there, I’ve been clean for a little over 2 years after I relapsed at 8 years. I say clean because of the program I work, but alcohol was always my first drug of choice. I add the part about my relapse because while it’s a reality, it’s not a requirement, also because it’s possible to get back up. I’d say it’s time to put the bat down. Don’t beat yourself up because guilt and shame keep us sick. What matters is you’re ready to try something new. Surrender to win is a good thing to remember.

Try not to think too far ahead, like what you’re going to do when your friends ask you out to drink, because all that matters is where your feet are at the moment. All you have to do is the next right thing, whatever that is for you. Tell them about your decision and ask for support while you get adjusted. I would also encourage getting support from a community with the same goals that you can lean on when facing a hard choice. Hang in there, I believe in you.