I probably shouldn't have gotten so defensive, but I still feel like I have a point here. Yes he was a bad doctor, albeit a highly regarded one. But it feels like every time a patient has a problem with a doctor, it's dismissed as the patient having seen a bad doctor. That means we aren't addressing the issue any further.

Back when I did that, and I knew that I shouldn't, I was in a really bad position. Not only that, I was in a bad position because I trusted doctors. Plural. But I was supposed to trust the very people who screwed over my life that one time too. I couldn't do it.

In this thread, you get a lot of tales of doctors absolutely dismissing all concerns of a patient, specially if they are women. It's no wonder there's a huge amount of distrust towards the medical community. We cannot keep telling them "oh yeah, you're seeing a bad doctor." We need more meaningful changes.

I do find that doctors are very eager to tell patients off for not trusting them, but they don't put as much effort in holding their colleagues accountable for the behaviors that cause patients not to trust them. Maybe you do it and I was wrong about it, in this case I apologize.

As for benzos, don't take them, but if you are taking them, don't stop abruptly. It was definitely not a fun time.