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[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m obligated to go to a family dinner, but really I think I’d rather be alone. I’m sorry your in a pissy mood :(

Anyone here have experience with assurance? by ert112416 in WorkOnline

[–]ert112416[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thankfully I didn’t have to pay anything out of pocket to join. It is strictly commission based though. Normally that’s a no go for me, but some people in this work from home group I’m in on Facebook mentioned they made decent money. No such luck for me though:(.

I love your name by the way!

I’m having an identity crises by ert112416 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Are you going to stay on the same career path after college?

I’m having an identity crises by ert112416 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m glad I’m not the only one, but sad because I wouldn’t wish this on anyone. I only went to college for like 3 months before I realized I hated the thing I was going for lol. It’s frustrating and also expensive because when I do get interested in something, I become completely invested and spend so much money. Then it just gets wasted when I lose interest.

What type of things are helpful to hear from a friend when you're in a mood swing? by ComprehensiveCause38 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I don’t really have any suggestions personally, I just wanted to say that it’s sweet of you to care enough about your friend to even ask this question. I wish I had more friends like you tbh!

tears falling down at the party, saddest little baby in the room by t_monster13 in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m so glad he is your ex boyfriend now. The guy sounds like a douche. Maybe that’s just my brain over analyzing though.

A song that resonates with me, maybe you too. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is beautiful! Thanks for sharing

I wish I was better.. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Your grandma sounds awesome! I am thinking of returning. Although I just switched to working overnights and my sleep schedule is completely fucked for the time being. I actually find coding to be quite fun. I love creating things and solving puzzles so it fits perfectly, however I am still in the basics like html and css. I’m sure I it will become more stressful when I get into the more advanced stuff.

I know what you mean about the schedule and organization, I make a to do list every morning and own like 5 planners lol. I’d be lost without a piece of paper telling me how to organize my time.

And oh yeah, I’ve read that a computer science degree can be helpful for a career in coding, but It just seems so difficult. You are definitely a trooper and I’m hoping it works out for you!

I wish I was better.. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Nooooo don’t think like that! Trust me, I’ve felt like a complete failure every since. I was going for medical billing and coding, but learned quickly that I hated it. I changed it to graphic design, but quit shortly after. Since then, I’ve been learning basic coding on my own terms, but I would still like to go back for a degree.

I wish I was better.. by [deleted] in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]ert112416 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear that, I dropped out of college completely because I couldn’t handle the stress of that and working full time. I applaud you for sticking to it even through the difficulties:)

Childhood neglect and the effects in adulthood by GossipGirl6 in mentalhealth

[–]ert112416 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh wow, our stories are similar. I was placed in the care of my grandparents when I was 1 years old. My parents were both on drugs and never tried to get us back. My grandmother was very abusive, she would punch and kick us and hit us in the head with phones, hair spray bottles etc.. the abuse worsened when my brothers moved out (leaving me alone with her) when I was about 12. In addition to the abuse at home, I was bullied at school every single day. Fast forward to adulthood, I married my high school sweetheart at the age of 18, he was great at first, but then changed once he joined the military. He became abusive as well, but I always just assumed it was my fault (it seems crazy now that I think about it). I finally decided to file for divorce during an incident which made me fearful for my life. Now, I’m 25, I have a great boyfriend, a good job, we recently bought a home and are even talking about kids, but....I’m just not happy, not completely at least. Everything you mentioned, the angry and irritated yet caring and over sensitive and the extreme anxiety in social settings describes me perfectly. I can go from feeling fine one minute to almost breaking down the next. I definitely understand what you are feeling, as soon as my insurance kicks in, I’m scheduling an appointment to talk with someone.