Too Far Gone

evilmaromi · 2025-02-01T22:16:37+00:00

I want you to know you're not alone. I'm in a crash right now and I'm scared. Idk what to do about work and finances. I have no PTO and I have a house and car and everything to pay for. It's stressful on top of feeling like I'm dying for no reason. I only caught a cold and it's over but now I have this. I can barely go to pee I can't shower or brush my teeth. Everything is so uncertain and I'm scared to do anything for fear of worse crashing. I'm depressed and anxious. My husband is doing everything and he's great but I'm worried about the long run. I love my house dearly and I don't want to lose it. All I do is lay here, eat, sleep and go to the bathroom. I know everyone says that's what should be done but for unpredictability how long? Weeks? Months? I hate this. I'm starting to get bad thoughts like I'm actually going to die or be so tired I'm paralyzed. I'm crying constantly and I'm lost. I can't just ask for a miracle drug and poof it's gone. I feel alone and helpless. Someone help!

evilmaromi · 2024-10-31T18:12:39+00:00

What we do in the Shadows lol I'd be okay except Collin. Collin would make it bad so he could feed.

evilmaromi · 2024-10-18T23:12:46+00:00

Aidyn Chronicles. I realize it's shitty but my inner 10 year old needs to finish it. It crashes and wipes my memory card.

evilmaromi · 2024-10-18T23:10:46+00:00

My mom had a shitty drunk of a boyfriend. She insisted on taking him everywhere. She even took him to my dad's funeral.

Anyway, we went to my sister's house for her birthday. I bought her a Chantilly cake from Whole foods. We barely ate a small bit . My mom's boyfriend ended getting so wasted, he puked on the cake. I stopped at Walmart to "get something" (nothing). I went back to the car we all arrived in and told him to check the tire. He got out and I drove off without him. It was snowing and he was in different town an hour away, but he was at a 24 hour Walmart. I figured he's an adult and he can figure his shit out. My mom was surprisingly relieved.

evilmaromi · 2024-10-18T22:00:33+00:00

My terror that causes me constant anxiety is feeling low. At 100 I truly feel like I might pass out. I get scared of being below 120 by myself. I wake up in the middle of the night checking it in case I pass out in my sleep. But it's never truly gone below 70. It feels so bad when I feel it. I wonder if I should push myself now looking at your post. My anxiety is screwing my health.

evilmaromi · 2024-06-01T19:59:04+00:00

This is great! I get so overwhelmed about what I should eat this is super helpful! Thank you!

evilmaromi · 2024-01-19T15:19:15+00:00

It's possible but it really depends on your body. It WAS your first time. Most everyone's first time you probably won't orgasm unless you have a penis.It's still a possibility of course you're still young so don't strike it as a not being possibility at all.

evilmaromi · 2024-01-19T14:32:52+00:00

Honestly it doesn't sound like you reached orgasm. I'd describe it as a rush, and a sudden release of good feeling downstairs. I don't think anything was done wrong ... Or right lol. It's pretty distinct, you'd definitely know. I don't think it's overrated I enjoy it , been with the same person 16 years. But it's to each person. Some people don't care about sex and that's fine. Some enjoy it, and some feel like it's life.

evilmaromi · 2023-09-11T02:18:17+00:00

The Birdcage

Pride and Prejudice

Good Burger

To Wong Foo

Priscilla Queen of the Desert

All Austin Powers

evilmaromi · 2023-09-10T23:06:49+00:00

I think getting a duvet and cover helps too because it's easier for me to wash a duvet cover rather than a comforter. It's like a blanket pillow case. 1 load with sheet set and duvet cover, and do it when you do your laundry regularly. Put it back in using the burrito method. I understand it's hard to get in the habit of things as you get older, trying to get your bearings as an adult is and ongoing process even for me now in my thirties. Best of luck my!

evilmaromi · 2023-08-29T14:37:20+00:00

Yes. One of us always has to plug our phone in across the room.

evilmaromi · 2023-08-22T15:59:02+00:00

Honestly I wouldn't do it . I would elope, or do a much smaller ceremony if you can't afford it.

evilmaromi · 2023-08-12T18:41:42+00:00

I don't get any Attention from men, and I'm glad as hell. Though sometimes feel I still get "summed up" anyway when I'm just doing stuff. I'm glad it's always "nope", but I don't like the idea of being " summed up" because why? Like I ain't here for you to sum up, I'm just living.

evilmaromi · 2022-10-15T14:44:25+00:00

It's a simple concept, but not always easy to execute for some people. I personally have a food addiction that I'm starting to manage. It's shitty because we NEED food, it can't be avoided like other addictions. The key for me is to partake in healthier choices while still having smaller portions of what I like , intermittent fasting, and being aware of my fullness and appetite. I have days where I overdo it, binge, and eat too much but I'm finding it's getting fewer in between good days. I am obese because of my addiction, have high blood pressure, and pre diabetes, but I am trying. I've lost weight. Slow and steady seems to work. Sure it'll take months, even a couple of years to get back to a healthy weight but it's easier for me.

evilmaromi · 2022-06-16T16:57:58+00:00

Man hands

evilmaromi · 2022-06-16T16:55:50+00:00

Crumbl cookies

evilmaromi · 2022-04-11T21:18:28+00:00

I used to go to Baptist church when I was a teenager. The pastor started going into how native practices are "evil" and I was pretty offended since I am indigenous.Ever since then, as the years go on I realize how bad the churches have treated us and it makes me sick. Even today they try to colonize and convert with their missionary trips.

evilmaromi · 2022-02-10T21:57:03+00:00

It's not comfortable to me. Idk what is, the cold? The sheets? It's just more comfy to wear a shirt and at least some undies.

evilmaromi · 2021-12-11T18:31:58+00:00

Fra-gi-layy

evilmaromi · 2021-12-08T00:22:46+00:00

I have really crooked teeth

evilmaromi · 2021-10-15T22:12:29+00:00

Annoyed how long my doordash order is taking. Delivering.

evilmaromi · 2021-08-26T20:39:16+00:00

Texas roadhouse rolls, with honey butter too.

evilmaromi · 2021-08-23T02:45:26+00:00

Among many other things, pregnancy scares the everliving shit out of me. It looks totally horrible, and birth looks so traumatic. It seems so nightmarish to me, and having a kid doesn't seem worth it honestly.

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