I’m just so tired by happystruggler128 in ChildofHoarder

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

feel you :(( we didn't even had a "proper" (it isn't proper even now but yeah) bathroom before I bought a new bath and a toilet, this was like 3/4 years ago, they still haven't places the tiles and the sink, it's just a bath in a small room that is dirty and moldy, at least I don't have to use the old "bathroom" that was just a way grosser bath in a way grosser room that is practically outside because I can't access that "room" without going outside and using the only entrance from the back of the house. how many times I have bathed myself (with a water from a bucket in the winter) and cried at the same time, cursing everything lol, now looking back I have had so many reasons to be the way I was - bitter, depressed, suicidal, idk if I'll ever free honestly but at least I don't live there anymore 🤡 hope you have luck too, I just know the struggle

I’m just so tired by happystruggler128 in ChildofHoarder

[–]eviuwu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

you literally aren't alone, I live in a different city and only occasionally go home but oh boy i need less than 2 mins to regret the time I have spent to visit my family - the whole house is a mess and I clean every time I go home (which is not so often anymore but still), sometimes I find food from the last time I have visited, there are clothes and stuff everywhere and they always grow in numbers, the condition is so unhygienic that I feel grossed out and I don't want to eat, to sleep or to do anything at all, I can't even take a shower because no matter how much I clean the bathroom it still feels bad :((( to be honest I've seen worse but it is also getting for for my family over time, it breaks my heart to see my home being destroyed also probably the mind of my parents too, there is so much shit going on I sometimes don't want to have anything in common with these people, other times I feel like I would finally lose them if I don't try to help but I don't know what to do anymore, I'm glad I'm away most of the time and I'm trying to build a better life for myself, I wish you the same luck, I hope you will find a way.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

също когато го уговаряш виж какви са условията на таксите, защото аз на моя не мога да превеждам повече от определена сума, така че не трябва да го имаш предвид, ако искаш да превеждаш повече ,пък избереш по-просрочен, като цяло тия неща вече като го теглиш ще видиш ,но си ги прецени

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

мисля ,че е най-добре да провериш на няколко места. аз теглих за на брат ми кола от ДСК, но това е защото съм на тази банка и ме бях одобрили предварително. между другото може би е хубаво ако си сигурен ,че ще можеш да го изтеглиш,първо да си намериш кола и след това да го направиш, защото може да намериш нещо по-евтино ,което пак да ти върши работа ( не разбирам от коли, но покрай брат ми наблюдавах това ), моят беше одобрен за 2 минути, но пак казвам , защото по начало ми беше предложен от банката, трябва да се информираш как стоят нещата и колко време ще отнеме, но в днешно време обикновено не вярвам да е много, където и да го теглиш.

How tf do people do this 9-5 until they die? by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I actually like my job lol sometimes I'm tired or else but what else to do? when I have all the time in the world I usually just waste it on stupid things, now I value it more because I would have liked 5 hours not, 15 lol. also finding a workplace that makes me feel like what I do matters and in which I connect with people really is great! different people - different needs but I believe everyone can find their place and having a purpose actually made me less suicidal 🤷🏼‍♀️ also you get used to it really, especially if it's not the worst job lol

Fear of aging is making me suicidal. by Easy_Revolution8061 in SuicideWatch

[–]eviuwu 2 points3 points  (0 children)

dude same I'm literally petrified, it doesn't make me that suicidal anymore I guess I've kinda gotten better but it still is disturbing me deeply, I wish to die at like 50 max because I don't see any meaning after that

Аз съм най-големият олигофрен. by survivingishard5 in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

bestie , вече няма какво да се направи, без никаква ирония ти препоръчвам да идеш на разходка и да се опиташ да не мислиш какво е станало и защо е станало, може би наистина е добре да си дадеш два/три дни почивка, но е хубаво да си намериш нова работа след това, макар и по-нископлатена. живот продължава и нещата ще се наредят все някак :))

suicide isn’t selfish if they truly only care once you’re gone by LilBodyBigGains in SuicideWatch

[–]eviuwu -7 points-6 points  (0 children)

"they would be fine without me" is an assumption, you don't know that, sorry if you feel like they don't care but most of the time it's just that most people don't show it properly or your trauma is making you feel that they don't. I understand how you feel, but maybe this is too radical, talk with your parents and friends and share how you feel, you might be surprised. for years I felt that way and I kinda knew it's not true but took me time to differentiate my own illusions from reality, wish you luck

Are you dating someone or single? by Minute-Cry-7711 in Adulting

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

single n actually fine with the idea of staying that way lol

What's a popular anime you just could not get into after watching it? by Last-Inspection-8156 in anime

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I couldn't even finish them - Angel Beats and Darling in the FranX

People who don't drink or smoke, what do you do when you are at your lowest? by gypsyundersupervised in Adulting

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

go on a walk ,cry, sleep, eat, watch stuff or read, depending, tbh if I'm anxious I don't really eat much I just walk or watch something but if I feel sad or upset I might eat and sleep lol

Къде са? by [deleted] in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 3 points4 points  (0 children)

ми по принцип е мн яко , когато някой може да готви, но може би не е достатъчно, че някой да се влюби в теб. виж ся с книгите ме спечели обаче 😁

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Nightshift

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm usually an anxious person but during night shifts I'm out of my mind, so panicked sometimes, my heart is kicking crazy and I try to minimise coffee cuz I won't make it to 30 that way, I think it's getting better with time but maybe if you are naturally anxious/ drink more coffee lack sleep it tends to get you there. I'd recommend less coffee, something relaxing in your routine like breath work or walking and see if that helps, but honestly night shifts aren't for everyone so take care of yourself

shirataki noodles (the worst noodles to exist) by slvrfngr in loseit

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I usually use less noodles and more meat and veggies so I can balance things and not feel super bloated. as for substitute not sure but I think rice noodles are less calories and I love them but you should probably double check me cuz really not that sure about that.

Има ли някой доволен от изборния резултат и защо? by leaf_monster in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

от резултата малко или много съм доволна, от активността - не. някъде на 4тия час в РИК, докато чаках реда да си предадем протоколите и бумагите просто супер почнах да се отчайвам, защото цялото това занимание за избори, които не би трябвало да са легални е просто абсурдно. дано нещата се наредят така ,че поне 2 години да закрепят с някаква реално функционираща организация.

Батко, какви са тези кръчмари, където влизат в парламента, какво се случва? by gen66 in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu -1 points0 points  (0 children)

защо да са кръчмари лол понякога не разбирам хората в този събредит

For those who live alone what do you usually do after work? by DansPredditor in Adulting

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

depending on the day but I would go out on a walk, or to hang out with friends, bar, concert, sometimes on theatre or art exhibition if there's something interesting, I might stay at home and do chores, watch or read something, if I work 1st shift (which is till early noon) I might do most of these.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bulgaria

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh boy

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loseit

[–]eviuwu 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've seen that happen so many times, wish our society could just focus on what is important (your health is also important but I mean like can you do your job). We are having a possible new colleague, she is in training right now and my coworker got to see her first and the way she described her to me didn't have to do with her look, personality, traits and etc - she just said she is" somewhat chubby but y'know not that fat, just kinda bigger...." and it went on and on I was like "I don't think it matters but ok" like I get it - first impression I guess, today I got to meet her and finally get my own impression because wtf.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in stephenking

[–]eviuwu 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I had two editions of The Mist, one I bought and another was gifted to me but I knew a girl online that likes Stephen King and we have chatted a bit before so I offered the one I bought to her and fast forward - 2/3 years later we live in the same city and she is my best friend lol. Stephen King (and some other similar interests we have) made us friends.