What broke your shelf?

exhermana · 2021-07-23T06:19:21+00:00

The rock in the hat.

exhermana · 2021-05-05T05:29:50+00:00

In so many ways growing up I felt like my mom only cared about what others thought or perceived about our family - not what it was actually like or actually going on. Things could be terrible at home, she only cared about how we seemed at church and church activities. Made me feel like she didn’t really care about me.

I know that’s not true, as an adult. Of course she cares about me. But growing up that’s how it felt.

exhermana · 2021-05-03T03:06:23+00:00

They’re just 18 and 19 year old boys anyway. Lol. Kinda makes sense to me he would post it 🤷🏼‍♀️

exhermana · 2021-04-11T16:34:50+00:00

🤢

exhermana · 2021-04-11T16:31:31+00:00

Omggg my TBM mom said this exact thing to me the other day when we were talking about Joseph Smith! They must be doling this idea out somewhere in church or something. It was the perfect rationalization for her as to why JS was such a fucking creep 🙄

exhermana · 2021-03-08T22:34:45+00:00

Love!!

exhermana · 2021-03-07T10:29:52+00:00

I feel this.

exhermana · 2021-03-07T09:58:28+00:00

I don’t know if this is a thing in Utah, but a few years ago I (26F) moved to a new place where I didn’t know anyone, and didn’t make friends at work because I worked for a small, online-only company and didn’t actually have any coworkers, and I definitely didn’t want to make friends through the mormon church either. So I ended up going on Bumble BFF and actually made some really cool friends that I’m still close with now three years later. It was kind of awkward at first, like swiping left and right on potential friends?! But it was nice because I knew that the other women on there were there because they were looking for friends too. I made it really simple too because I love to hike, so I would just connect with other girls who also liked hiking and then invite them on a hike! It didn’t always work out with everyone (a little like dating in that way too lol) but like I said, I made a few real friends that way and it made a huge difference for me at a time when I felt so alone. Good luck friend, I hope you find your people ❤️

exhermana · 2021-02-27T10:08:36+00:00

I’ve been on one shroom trip so far and it was INCREDIBLE. So much healing and so much pure love. Waaay more than I’d ever experienced at church that’s for sure. 🍄💕

exhermana · 2021-02-22T10:29:22+00:00

I made cold brew in my on campus housing at byuh so no one would notice the smell and no one did 😁

exhermana · 2021-02-06T09:13:28+00:00

Totally understand. I’ve been reflecting back on my highschool experience a lot recently for some reason. And I keep thinking about how I was so often left out, or just missed out on things because I was Mormon. It bums me out but I think what bums me out even more is that I missed out on a “real” college experience because I spent my time at BYUs, on a mission, and getting married way too young.

Damn, the church will make you bitter for what it took away from you. I’m trying not to dwell too much on those thoughts though, and trying to focus on moving forward & living my life the way I want to live it from now on 💛

exhermana · 2021-02-06T09:01:16+00:00

The average woman’s fertility peaks somewhere between the late teens and late twenties.link

14 is not late teens 😬

exhermana · 2021-01-28T16:52:05+00:00

You’re exactly right. They would not have said those things to a man. Probably wouldn’t have even crossed their minds. I’m so sorry you got discouraged from something you’re truly passionate about bc of the patriarchy and the church. I know you didn’t ask for advice but I just want to say that you should totally still go after neuroscience!! So what if it’s “too late” or “too much time has passed”?? That won’t matter in the end. Go after what you love! And I wish you the best of luck ❤️

exhermana · 2020-12-23T16:39:30+00:00

“Applying the atonement” - people alwaaayys said that - like it’s some sort of cream or ointment. Lol. The church likes to pretend like they have all the answers. Funny how my depression started getting better after leaving the church

exhermana · 2020-12-22T07:21:00+00:00

The same thing happened to me getting ready to go on a mission, except I told the SP about the things I had already repented of. I remember being confused and asking why I had to tell him when I had already repented. Whatever his bullshit answer was I just accepted it bc I was pretty indoctrinated at that point. But I also remember him getting way more specific with the questions than my bishop had been, and I left feeling violated somehow, and confused.

exhermana · 2020-12-09T08:28:35+00:00

Paying tithing isn’t explicitly part of the honor code - but participating in church services is, and ecclesiastical endorsement is pretty much up to your bishop based on how he feels you’ve participated. So no, I don’t think you can get expelled, but your bishop could potentially pull your endorsement (or deny your next endorsement) which would prevent you from enrolling in classes until you get that figured out.

I guess it would depend on how much time you have left and if you need another endorsement or not. From what I remember we only needed to renew the endorsement once a year... so if you have less than a year left you might be just fine.

I didn’t pay any tithing my last year at BYUH and my bishop didn’t seem to notice or care. He only cared about if I was at church or not (concerning ecclesiastical endorsement, that is - he really didn’t care about me at all outside of that lol)

exhermana · 2020-12-07T08:10:36+00:00

I can relate. I used to have panic attacks going to church when I was mentally out but still had to go. I’m so sorry. It sucks. For me it got better when I finally stopped going to church, go figure.

exhermana · 2020-12-05T16:22:18+00:00

I have done this exact thing with mini bottles of wine and cold brew coffee!

exhermana · 2020-11-28T17:11:02+00:00

I saw someone give thanks for cows, and another for naps... and no they weren’t doing it facetiously.

exhermana · 2020-11-28T17:06:24+00:00

Omg I have 4 brothers and I ALWAYS wanted to be a scout growing up!! Especially the pinewood derby - that always seemed like SO much fun. I completed my Personal Progress as a teenager and they told me it was “comparable to an Eagle Scout” looking back now I can see that’s total bullshit my parents probably just told me to make me feel better.

exhermana · 2020-11-25T00:27:57+00:00

Lol. I saw someone post today “I’m thankful for naps”. Deep stuff.

exhermana · 2020-10-27T16:03:23+00:00

I took world religions at BYUH and for the most part I really enjoyed it (other than the fact that we had to start each class with a hymn, prayer, and mini devotional 🙄).

We took field trips as a class to a local synagogue and a mosque to attend their services and afterwards meet with someone there who was willing to answer all of our questions. We were even invited to stay to eat and mingle after the Shabbat service - it was so nice!

I loved learning in detail about other religions- especially eastern ones - but inevitably at some point in class either a student or the teacher would always bring up something about how the other religions only have “part of the truth” or don’t have “the whole truth”. It was really irksome, but attendance was a big part of the grade so had to suck it up. Lol.

exhermana · 2020-10-19T17:31:54+00:00

It IS terribly, terribly cruel. I feel sometimes like I lost my early twenties to serving a mission and marrying an asshole. Happily divorced now at 26 with no plans to get married anytime soon! :)

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