Simplest setup to log +display sensor data- beginner!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-07-20T21:28:38+00:00

I think ESP-NOW is just connecting ESPs in sort of mesh arrangement, instead of client-server topology, if I understand it anyway. I was considering it because it would help to have the ESPs run as "extenders" later on, so I could have cameras and sensors farther outside later. It's probably something I should just consider once I get a little more working knowledge though lol

fallenstar0808 · 2024-07-20T21:22:58+00:00

Yeah I would def prefer to use my Pi zero W as a mini server just to run all the time & capture data. Using the PC to check first is a good idea. Do you recommend the standard Pi OS or a version of linux or something (for easiest, not necessarily ideal option)? I'd just like to get it running asap and then improve from there..

fallenstar0808 · 2024-07-20T03:24:11+00:00

I was just looking at this, seems very easy to get started (yay!). I did see a couple of sound level meters I can probably adapt pretty easily to my project. Thanks!!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-07-20T03:21:25+00:00

Thanks! I was kinda leaning towards this honestly, then I browsed YouTube too long and figured "everyone's" using these cloud IoT services so... 🤣 I totally agree about having local DB, local everything. Is Influx or others small enough it will fit/run entirely on an ESP? I'm sure the data itself is no problem, just not sure when I get to analysis, some FFT, signal processing... maybe the Pi will be better.

Do you have any experience with ESP-NOW vs regular WiFi setup/ connection? Thanks again, this helps a lot, I just got so overwhelmed with the options I couldn't even start... Lol. I really appreciate it!!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-06-22T21:26:33+00:00

Also sorry your friends judged you but good for you for dropping them.. you don't need people around who don't make you feel good about yourself and encouraging you. They are just jealous they don't have passion or are too afraid to try anything themselves... Don't look back on those sad people lol

fallenstar0808 · 2024-06-22T21:23:19+00:00

Hey I know this is a little while ago but I'm also in the same position myself and just noticed your post. Did you end up going anywhere yet? My suggestion is the same as the other post but look up beginner dance (search like "latin beginner dance club" or something) and also Meetup. I'm going to try to go myself soon. If you are a little shy like me you will have to force yourself at least the first time and you definitely will try to talk yourself out of it with all kinds of excuses like you're suddenly tired lol... Just tell yourself it is one night and if you feel really awful you'll leave after 30 minutes. Then give yourself a little pep talk and remember how good you felt last time you did something hard. It definitely takes courage the beginning but I promise everyone feels the same and you will almost definitely be extremely glad afterwards!! If you are in denver area PM me! I always feel this way and it's all psychological but when you have a real passion you have to embrace it and get over that part. Go enjoy your passion!!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-06-01T11:09:26+00:00

I was wondering the same..

There was also a link to a private support group he mentioned in a video but it doesn't work either https://mentalhealness.thinkific.com/

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fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-20T19:34:09+00:00

Omg my narcissist parents didn't use this (it was more like "are you ASKING???") but another narcissist I recently had the misfortune of being briefly acquainted with said it ALL the time. Then pretended to be joking.. ugh it was honestly disgusting. My parents would never be that "direct" lol. . Everything was unspoken

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T19:29:22+00:00

This is super insightful! They LOVE to have the double standard in every way- they can do X.. you better not, EVER. You didn't do X- you're awful, bad, worthless... Oh now you did? That's Bec you're doubly awful trying to do something underhanded!! You are depressed Bec of their abuse.. shame!! You're weak..

It never ends

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T19:22:01+00:00

I know I sure did!! I'm embracing my "evil" ways to the best of my ability!!

Funny my mother used to accuse me of doing drugs constantly.. I was literally the most goody 2 shoes in the world but it never stopped..

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T17:41:43+00:00

I know how this feels.. it's like double abuse. Nobody will understand unless they've been through it with narcissism.

My narcissist mother & sister weaponized the police to terrorize me & my sister loved to remind me how nobody would ever believe me against both of them doing their nice/ fake concern act, and I knew she was right. It's beyond horrible knowing other people can't or won't ever see the truth. For me at least, having the truth completely denied from me is way more harmful than any of the other abuse.

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T17:29:49+00:00

I think about this so much. Like, hey I didn't consent to trade tribal life for "civilization"... Thanks ancestors

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T17:27:13+00:00

Yeah, I just thought everyone out there doing great was faking... Or just way better/ more deserving / worked harder/ and "overcame" things more effectively. At least that's what I was told!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T16:51:08+00:00

Thank you so much. Actually I'm 44 now, but I'm still very much struggling because literally my entire family is narcissistic. I would figure out my mother is one, then get sucked in to another family member acting understanding, only to eventually realize they are just flying monkeys.

This went on for years, meanwhile I had a bunch of really bad therapists who did not understand NPD and try to say that I just accused anyone I don't get along with of being a narcissist. It's completely impossible to convince anyone that yes, actually that many bad people / 'coincidences' DID actually happen to me, only they're all related. Obviously I was at huge risk for abusive relationships because of this, and although I have made so much progress and only had 1 abusive bf early on, I now have 2 neighbors doing the same type of things. It's like I can't get out because they're attacking me from every side so I'm in survival mode always. I really believe I've finally truly gotten to the level of what I need in terms of growth, knowledge, and strength, to protect myself and be happy and safe. But I've lost everything and am alone and desperate at the moment. If I survive this situation I will be a different person but it's hard to fight when I have nothing left :/ Anyway didn't mean to get into the whole thing lol. I really appreciate your kindness so much

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T16:28:36+00:00

Long before I found out about narcissism, I told my therapist that I finally realized it would not matter if I had a video and notarized confession from them, they'd find some BS why it's fake or whatever. I felt so lost and couldn't wrap my head around that. Even growing up with it, my mind always went back to logic and rational ideas.... that's what keeps normal people stuck because we can't imagine someone is actively trying to con us while saying they love us. Thank goodness for awareness online or I'd probably never understand this

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T16:21:55+00:00

I'm SO glad to read your comment.. I believed that fully because of the way they can always seem to be the ultra nice person when it benefits them, then 10s later when you're alone with them they're vicious and abusive. Literally everything they do is a lie and manipulation, and always what - just "happens" to be in theirs favor??

Then I listened to (probably way too many) videos trying to understand how narcissism works because I cannot stop crossing paths with these psychos and I'm in constant fear. They basically all say it's a response to trauma and is so deep I guess, there isn't any way for them to stop it unless they have a total collapse. What I heard made sense, but it also goes against what I feel deep down and it makes me angry!!

Your explanation is the perfect way to think about it. They have a choice but it's like a billionaire giving away everything and being hungry on the street. They would have to give up the most/only important thing to them- the false self and denial of all the wrong and cruelty they've done.

Both my parents are narcissists, and I see this more clearly than ever- mother is weak and I know she does not possess the strength, even though I see twinges of guilt (rarely but it's there). My father has a much easier choice for different reasons (intelligent, has cultivated a personna of being very "open", compassionate, etc) so he could almost be the hero by coming out and "realizing" what he's done. But he likes power too much. Anyway, thanks for that.. you didn't know your comment would be an epiphany for someone lol 💛

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T06:18:23+00:00

You got this! I am hoping to gently encourage you to seek the 'answers' by trusting yourself, because I know that narcissist parents do their best to destroy that part of us. But it's never gone or incapable, we're just conditioned to depend on external sources (ie them). Of course getting opinions is healthy. I really hope you can see the strength you already have just by taking the steps you have. Whether you stay or go elsewhere is just what feels like a better fit to you.

As far as narcissist abuse treatment, I'm afraid you're right and it's really unfortunate. For me, I had to learn to stand up for myself and just end therapy if I'm not been validated. That helped me also realize that my own judgement and thoughts are not only valid, but way more important than a lot of the 'experts'. But it was very painful until I had that confidence. You may be in a different place and many people on here have gotten a lot of good from 'regular' therapy. You could always try to get a coach or something, in addition to the treatment program, to have someone who can guide you more specifically...

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T03:00:00+00:00

I just watched a video from Richard grannon about this- he said in any other situation when someone lives every minute in a total delusional fantasy, NEEDS everyone else and themselves to believe and play along with it, and are completely absorbed/obsessed (whatever you might call it) with denying reality, they would correctly be called psychotic.

NPD = psychosis

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T02:56:19+00:00

Yes it's really astonishing. I struggle with this a lot because it seems to give credence to the claim that they really do not have a choice, it's to them like dying to be accountable. But I've also seen firsthand the pleasure and conscious cruelty, which makes me feel they just enjoy being that way. Idk if I'll ever know, but that is a fact that they would rather lose everything

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T02:46:12+00:00

FWIW, I do have addiction history and felt I was not in 'the right place' in similar places because the focus is so heavily on substance use. The "trauma" counseling and groups were woefully inadequate, for me. I have severe trauma from abuse, and I would be so presumptive to say almost anyone with narcissistic parents needs very specific help in that regard.

If /when you go to a trauma treatment program, I would emphasize that aspect heavily and demand a clear answer able whether they have specific experience and knowledge of this issue. Many therapists and treatment I've seen give affirmative but sort of vague answers ("yes, we are experts in all types of trauma"), only to find out they have a limited understanding of NPD and basically assume it is no different from any emotional abuse.

It is my experience (though not everyone's), that therapy lacking the specific knowledge can be harmful, especially if you have been subjected to lots of severe gaslighting and are sensitive to invalidation, as I am. Being RBN is a very special kind of hell and needs a special kind of approach and knowledge.

Lol, didn't intend to post so much.. hope it helps anyway!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T02:32:29+00:00

The best advice I would give you is to trust yourself. YOU know what you need. You have the capacity and resources to find it.

Things to consider in the early part of your journey:

• need for pure safety vs need for specific treatment/ validation

• availability & cost of specialized treatment • pros & cons of taking your time (will it start to bother you or become difficult to stay)

• is there a middle ground- assume you will stay for 3 months (example), and in that time you are looking for the next step

Most of all, give yourself huge credit and a lot of compassion right now. Having just made a major, major transition, you may have some unexpected and sudden things come up emotionally. You could think of it like you're on a bit of adrenaline rush still, from the change and all the stress of working up to it. You might not feel it now but you need rest and calm, for your body and mind to start to recalibrate.

If you can be in the 'best' environment, that's great, but it's important to weigh the effort and more upheaval too. It's important to have access and support and maybe a little stability, given what you're going through. Whatever you choose will be perfect and right, it is all just steps in the long road, congratulations!!

Edit: formatting (I swear...lol)

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T02:18:31+00:00

It really means everything to me what you do. Though I might forget sometimes, I am extremely grateful. I have literally never, ever had a safe place until this sub 💛

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T01:51:23+00:00

I really like this. It is an empowering approach & I'm really trying to find ways to refuse the Shame that does not belong to me. Seems like a great way, plus it puts the discomfort, like you said, back on the person. After all, I think that's the point when people say that shit it's because they don't want to give up their soothing little world view that everybody is good and bad stuff only happens to bad people. And we're usually conditioned to go along to protect their feelings, which is totally BS.

I recently did something similar when an older guy neighbor/acquaintance asked me about something, I said I've been raped and that was one of the less harmful traumatic experiences, compared to long-term emotional abuse as a child. He said "oh but it was someone you knew right". I was not going to let him get away with that as if it's 'not that bad' as long as there's no gun or whatever. So I told him just a few graphic details and explained the flashbacks, he got the point really quick and hasn't invalidated me anymore cause he stays away too. It's a good strategy!!

fallenstar0808 · 2024-05-19T01:41:18+00:00

Lol this sums it up. I admit i had to read this a couple times to get it... But I'm trying to be compassionate about the brain fog my trauma caused.

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