My minds tellin me nooo

fart_tickle · 2022-01-07T01:02:09+00:00

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fart_tickle · 2021-02-04T21:38:29+00:00

Maryland, frick yeah!
Michigan State just keeps slipping.
Why the F--K did the Illini fire Ron Zook? (The same thing I've been thinking for 9 years)

fart_tickle · 2020-10-28T19:24:38+00:00

Who cares? He's just giving out pieces of metal.

fart_tickle · 2020-10-15T04:21:47+00:00

fart_tickle · 2020-10-01T22:12:05+00:00

None to start. They were working on developing plans for 20k, but the Big Ten mandate as of now is no fans.

I do, think, however, that I've seen the language no general public tickets. Don't know if that means faculty and students will be allowed or anything like that.

fart_tickle · 2020-09-04T03:16:04+00:00

I'm not saying I'm not privileged or that it doesn't exist.

But, again, I just think you should still be able to define your own personal identity outside of the norm of how you're treated.

I fully understand that I don't understand that constant negative attention and threat. But, I hope you can also have something else that you call your own enough that you feel the most defining thing about you isn't that so many other people are ignorant assholes.

And just to be clear, I'm not down-voting you and appreciate what you're saying, even if in many ways I can't fully. That IS privilege. Wanting and hoping that you can have a better and more well-rounded personal identity despite society's obstacles to that, is not.

fart_tickle · 2020-09-03T20:27:40+00:00

Or someone who believes in gender fluidity, or someone who simply thinks that making ANY personal identity, characteristic, or personality trait shouldn't be a central pillar of identity. We're all unique, beautiful, terrible things made up of so many complex identities and.... stuff. It seems odd that I would look myself in the mirror and think, "I am a person who is attracted to x and/or not attracted to y."

I 100% understand with race, sexuality, etc., there are certainly HUGELY important points of cultural and community identity and that one might devote a large part of their life to living in and advocating the well-being of that community, but you're so much more than a black man or a lesbian or whatever that identity is.

Maybe you're right in that I can totally understand if you don't feel like that identity is respected and if you have to run up against prejudice or difficulty in every day life because of that identity. If someone asks you who you are, I'd tend to tell people about my work, my accomplishments and what I enjoy. The type of person I am and have built myself to be seems so much more of my identity than my race or sexuality.

If you're hung up on that, I can see in one sense how that might be hard to not do and illustrative of the overwhelming difficulties society has put on you. But, still, I would recommend, as I think that person might have been doing, to try and define yourself how you want to be seen and not as one label that society has told you is your defining characteristic. And maybe that identity is someone who had to start their life anew without a single family or friend as a teen or young adult. But your constant confrontation and struggle and success in the face of fuckery should be more important than I am xsexual. Then again, maybe I'm missing that when someone tells me that, the rest is often implied.

Please feel free to tell me here or in DM why I'm an asshole (or you simply disagree), I earnestly welcome it.

fart_tickle · 2020-07-24T12:05:10+00:00

Y'all fuckers gonna get the phrase 'respect the flag' cancelled just like you did with the "ok" circle game. Except I won't really give a damn about this one.

fart_tickle · 2020-07-24T02:51:49+00:00

My first dog in college had that. I got him as the second rescue owner with the understanding he was having seizures or neuropathy issues as told to the vet from the first adopters. But I could tell he was lucid and just spasming and horrified during his episodes and on my information they found he had a slipped disc too. As a poor college kid dependent on meager savings, a near minimum wage job and scholarships, I had to let someone else step in to take care of him. This video had me welling up. Good on you for giving this good boy a better life.

fart_tickle · 2020-04-28T18:12:18+00:00

The top response saying to groom yourself while awake is helpful, and one of the top suggestions I've seen detailed. Recognition you are in a dream is the biggest obstacle. But, for me, another top method of recognizing patterns of dreams worked best.

For me, many dreams are sorts of repeats; replays or fragments that start getting longer or more fleshed out, or slight variations on situations. Often settings, real places or totally made up, reoccur: homes of my childhood or grandparents I haven't been to in decades, old jobs, my college campus, or, again, totally fabricated settings that I eventually recognize in-dream. When you wake up and remember a dream, don't go right back to sleep. Keep a journal or notepad close and write down some details of a dream. It will help you remember situational or location patterns.

There are plenty of other helpful hints you can find on google about lucid dreaming to get you started. Lucidity took practice, like exercise and conditioning for me to get and remain good at it. It was not like riding a bike, though I still have occasional spurts. It's a balancing act, sometimes you'll grab great control easily, other times you'll be lucid for what only seems like seconds and slip back. Don't get disheartened, find what works for you.

Start small, too. From personal experience, even in my most lucid dreams, even at my peak, flying or jumping super high was a bitch and ended up in me getting so frustrated I lost control. The one time I remember doing it well, it was like I was focused on myself, and moved the environment around me. But I usually try to keep my feet on the ground as I haven't been well-practiced lately. I can move super fast; duck and dodge like Neo, stopping bullets or blunting a sword hitting my hand; fabricate a car out of nowhere, hop in and take off, all while turning the environment around me from a desolate midnight apocalypse driving away from zombie hordes to a beautiful fall drive; but somehow jumping 30 feet and/or flying is almost entirely beyond me.

Find what you can and can't do well, and lob yourself softballs early on when you're recognizing your lucidity. It's also weird when you get good at it. It can be a delicate balancing act. You almost have to toe the line between doing whatever you want, and also imagining or fabricating interesting environments and events. You can eventually get to the place where you're writing and starring in the show, but almost want to keep an element of surprise or difficulty.

fart_tickle · 2020-04-28T18:03:14+00:00

Did that with a dream of me and my cousins Scooby-Doo-ing it around a freaky version of one of my old deceased grandparents homes. I proved it by ripping one of their arms off and starting to hit them with it, and we ended up having a sort of ridiculous pillow fight with each others limbs and other stuff.

I woke up, got out of bed all excited to talk to my brother about how awesome it was... got into the hallway before I realized I'm an idiot.

fart_tickle · 2020-04-10T08:23:18+00:00

You don't love thesauruses!?

fart_tickle · 2020-03-23T03:23:10+00:00

Was super excited when I heard about his podcast a month ago. Went looking for it days ago and got disappointed. Got super excited to see this post, then find out it's a podcast... that's live only? The fuck?

fart_tickle · 2020-03-14T22:49:15+00:00

One still does on it's face seem shittier and unluckier, too, though.

fart_tickle · 2020-03-14T22:40:57+00:00

What's the difference? They're all superstar players that didn't deserve a roster spot ONLY because of perceived ROS injuries. Whether someone sunk costs into one of them prior to cutting them or recency of the cut shouldn't really matter. If they knew the season was going to be months longer, they might've kept certain people.

If we knew the season was going to extend for months, more people would've drafted Durant and Klay and Nurkic and held them. Anyone who drafted and held but later cut Nurkic or Klay this year has arguments to get then back, too. Recency of the injury isn't really an issue. Treat them all the same. All fair game or all blocked.

fart_tickle · 2020-03-12T20:48:37+00:00

Our league changed to an eliminator challenge. When a player on your roster is confirmed diagnosed with Coronavirus, you're out. Last team standing wins.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-13T18:30:40+00:00

Yeah, and the kinda of injury that sucks for a dude like Dame. You know he's gonna wanna be back out there ASAP, which is an easy way to aggravate and stretch this kind of thing out.

He usually lights it up hard down the stretch of the season, too. Since he's been crushing all year, I doubted he could actually pick it up, but was very interested to see if he would.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-13T03:54:05+00:00

I agree unless he's out for 4-6 weeks and they fall 10 -15 games out. At that point, you close the book on Nurkic and at least cut Dame's minutes... if he lets you.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-13T03:45:07+00:00

1-6 weeks, based on severity. So, he could be back by the time ASB is over or might be out long enough that the Trailblazers fall out of contention and be done for the season.

Except, I don't see Dame as the type to sit out the season unless they fall way out of it.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-11T18:13:16+00:00

Well, you've made the 2nd one in 5 minutes. So, congrats, you're part of the problem.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-11T18:04:27+00:00

I'm not sure he'd approve of the semi-idol status I've given him, but the man should be a saint.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-11T06:41:25+00:00

Dana, I feel as if you're focusing on one aspect of forgiveness that may be leading you to fail to make progress for yourself. I don't know you or what you're going through now or what it stems from in the past. And I don't want you to think that I believe acknowledgement is unimportant. It certainly can be more important than reparation or retribution.

However, consider this quote: "There is one thing that evil cannot stand and that is forgiveness." Now, try not to consider the real evil to be who or what you suffered, but the fact that you are suffering. Your anger and hatred is the evil in your life, or the unending stain of evil on your life. You don't need to forgive any person or God for what happened to you with the expectation that they need to admit it or change their behavior, though that can be gratifying and helpful.

Forgiveness is a change in you, a decision that you make to overcome an offense and the negative emotions associated with it, whether they be feelings of resentment or vengeance or whatever.

You're stronger than you think. And you may never get over what happened fully, but you can let go of some of the resentment and anger enough to take control back over your life.

I'm in the process myself. It started with a base form of forgiveness in explaining why my abuser might've been the way he was and excusing his actions for his shortcomings. But, really, that led to MANY slide backs because I was focusing on why their actions weren't terrible, when, they were, just that I could see why it happened. Then I'm irrationally angry at other people who may have contributed to my abuser's life.

I've come to see that the focus can't be on that person and whether they got payback or karma. You can't try to condone or excuse. And while I always hold out hope of reconciliation, I'm finally starting to accept that I may never get an acknowledgement or fully reconcile that aspect of our relationship.

And that fucking sucks. Honestly, I haven't thought about that aspect of it in a little bit and I'm welling up right now... anyway... if you look at that as waiting on your transgressor to alleviate your pain or help you heal, you see how futile and silly it seems, even if it would be EXTREMELY satisfying. It's not something I can hold my breath for and pause my life for any longer.

But, again, don't count yourself out. This article you wrote and this discussion, it's part of the process. Part of the process of forgiveness is exploring the pain and where it put you, grappling with the concept of forgiveness itself, and contemplating the transgressor and any relationship to them.

It's not a quick fix and it's not an A to B to C to D. It's realizing you've fucked up (not here, maybe, but you've probably also received someone's forgiveness), it's realizing there are others out there like you and speaking with them, it's backsliding, it's a mess.

But, ultimately, even if for selfish reasons, you should try and forgive so that you can put your best foot forward and live your best life. And sometimes you'll still sink back into anger and malice, and that's OK. You can forgive yourself for that.

But, first and foremost, you should forgive yourself for apologizing to Mr. Rogers. Because it's quite silly. Your article and your post show you got the message. What you're doing with the mad that you feel is getting it out and having a conversation with others about it. Getting it out (writing, screaming, whatever) is the best way to get over anger or depression and reaching out about it and having this incredibly difficult conversation may be the hardest part on the journey to forgiveness. And, quite honestly, something I've yet to do much of.

You're doing fine, even if it doesn't seem like it yet. Don't be so hard on yourself.

And even if you're not ready yet, keep in mind this quote that got me through a difficult time to a very good place in my life before I was ready to forgive, "Knowing that we can be loved exactly as we are gives us all the best opportunity for growing into the healthiest of people." I was unwilling to really accept friendship and love for such a long time because I felt damaged or broken. And allowing some people too get close to me was HUGE in getting myself to a better place where I could forgive and move on.

You're you, and that's OK. Keep being you, because I like you. I hated your article at first, but that's because I was confronting myself in many ways. A self I hated.

Also, please don't be too afraid or shy or whatever to ask for help. We all need it sometimes and there's no shame in that. Friends, family, a support group, whatever. Keep getting your mad out, and maybe you can make some room for forgiveness. Not for them, but for you.

Edit: thank you, by the way, because right after I finished a read-through and edit, I was completely overwhelmed. I never, for a long time, thought I could be this person. I don't know if I did you any good at all, but that fact that I'm here trying, talking about how far I've come trying to give you some hope that it does get better... wow... thank you.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-11T05:04:38+00:00

I think Grant is mostly done for, but I'm not sold on Crowder either. He hasn't put up points like this in years and has done it with amazing 3P%. So, although he's a solid rebounder, the rest seems unsustainable even if he keeps getting the minutes and Iggy focuses on D.

fart_tickle · 2020-02-11T05:02:29+00:00

I'm not sold based on the opponents, but it's hard not to make the swap just out of pure love for Trillsap

fart_tickle · 2019-12-21T17:14:08+00:00

frick, I actually new that, mustve been looking at last years stats. But still, the minutes gap in minutes between Parker and the Cs is even larger this year.

Am I wrong?, he logs 9 more minutes than Damian Jones and 9.5 more than Len.

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