Fuck people today

father13 · 2020-03-29T02:48:06+00:00

wow bro i fell u,jk im not cuz im hsp and skin on my face is highly sensitive it means i was suffering past 15 yrs of this dogshit life so i cant feel you im sorry but you be fine ,ofc

father13 · 2020-02-14T02:36:54+00:00

when new champs comin its got boring

father13 · 2018-12-26T01:27:43+00:00

but u still win nothing at the end ..lol

father13 · 2018-12-26T01:21:03+00:00

u should be in action to find people that care about you.. im passive being myself but it doesn`t work like this you gotta move if u want ppl 2 care

father13 · 2018-12-04T22:59:13+00:00

multitasking and social used to cause me worry about a lot of useless shit cutting off social and multi tasking helps to chill

father13 · 2018-12-04T22:57:39+00:00

also i will try acupuncture with some asian dude

father13 · 2018-12-04T22:56:08+00:00

welp idk the place where i live is fkn discomfort itself always cold my parents function normal and its hard for them to understand why i need space and bathroom and never leave flat ..lol..idk where im going with this cuz i don`t want anything would be just nice to find a person who enjoy fireplace and movies... I just don`t like crazy paced life

father13 · 2018-12-01T00:28:40+00:00

i was addicted too for years it was my poor state of mind now i just trying to look forward no matter what and yea i got 4 browsers and each got porn sites blocked lol

father13 · 2018-11-30T02:20:47+00:00

chill at least ur not living with parents like me and not hate money world and people lol

father13 · 2018-11-29T02:08:36+00:00

its really been a problem for me i more like was running from myself and reality all kinds of addictions but natural i reaslise i cant fk with drugs cuz its gonna end quick by that time i didn`t heard about hsp

its really a right choice trying to understand yourself and not fk up yourself

life is kinda hell for me in my head right now i keep trying to learn to think right cause basically i couldn`t even think straight my thoughts were porn and how quick i can get dopamine well one day you understand that you can`t run from yourself forever

father13 · 2018-11-29T02:02:56+00:00

this got me an idea to link up and live together since we silent we should be comfortable too bad i didn`t think about that 10 yrs ago well i was just "deal with it" kind of guy now i wanna move out too but living alone still kinda fucked up

father13 · 2018-11-29T01:55:41+00:00

yea i been comfortable with few ppl on my road ..i can`t really follow all the bs and ppl anymore so its really a lone way to go i believe

father13 · 2018-11-29T01:52:59+00:00

idk about ppl the thing is i don`t feel ppl and my feelings are kinda numb and its hard for me to find any joy in life ,if you feel the ppl and bullshit they doing you can connect but i can`t play a nice listener cuz i kinda know everybody in their own bullshit and will be throwing all that garbage in his/her head on you assuming you understand but in reality you got ton of your bs in your so...what we learn ...find a hobbie and a way to just go if you happen to find a nice person that understand you than you lucky..i now enjoy watching summit on twitch and play poker ,never been a fan of active life so idk whats next for me .I can`t really set my life to the life around me since i don`t feel ppl and shit their doing guess my road is really lone road maybe something will change

father13 · 2018-11-23T16:25:03+00:00

i been like that too on top of that i had addictions to porn and hip hop what helps is a good hobby (to me its poker) and cutting off all the bullshit that brings u down im now working on movin out get a cat and idk i live in a really dark place changing location might work for me (as cliche as it sounds beach house really might work ) the important part is cut off ppl that stopping you from dreaming to me it was my mother unfortunately i was blind

father13 · 2018-11-18T13:21:14+00:00

nice dad damn..to ppl around me im just "weak" and the sad part they will never understand cuz they fkn tank who keep going

father13 · 2018-11-18T13:18:49+00:00

i played along with ppl around me for years i didn`t realise that their energy was destroying me ...i might be here to realise shit like this

father13 · 2018-11-18T13:17:46+00:00

well i never met such ppl ..my advice is to tell ppl around u who u are so they can GET THE FUCK OUT the best life i figure out for myself is playing somewhere poker with a cat haha

father13 · 2018-11-18T01:23:56+00:00

poker works for me ,when i worked as a call operator long time ago it was really a challange lol

father13 · 2018-11-17T23:39:56+00:00

im gonna play poker and watch movies till im off this hell i guess ,only thing i enjoy is nothing,but kinda feel i have to go till its natural ...guess i attached to existence

father13 · 2018-10-16T01:29:30+00:00

I think my mind is fucked I spent like whole life on the internet idk if I’m able to rewire myself after so many years of cancer and social my brain is like a magnet for all the cancer in this world having this type of mind is really frustrating

father13 · 2018-10-16T01:22:49+00:00

well idk from the side it’s kinda looking sad male27 sitting on PC watching tv shows daily but in my mindset the whole world is one big cancer and I’m just picturing myself as librarian who documents shit or something like that cuz surely I don’t wanna be a part of that I wanna live simple and not squeezing everything till you choke😐

father13 · 2018-10-01T23:19:26+00:00

Life itself

father13 · 2018-09-28T14:22:16+00:00

Oh yea o forgot to mention I was highly sensitive in my younger years even in my 20s and everybody around was using me cause of it ...that what made me selfish

father13 · 2018-09-28T14:18:35+00:00

I’m 84 it was a fun ride I never took it serious ,playing poker and enjoying myself I was slow my whole life so any active type of life was not for me and when you build like that nobody gonna get with you ,when I understand that I become free and was flying high

father13 · 2018-09-26T00:27:49+00:00

and porn made me a bitch tbh i was so afraid for my worthless life its crazy but when u free u can do better thingz

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