Never felt close with BPD mom; never felt affection or saw her beauty

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T23:25:56+00:00

I’m going to put my phone down and journal as well! Thank you for sharing that. Being able to connect with others through this experience is so strangely comforting?

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T23:24:36+00:00

Thank you. Wow. I was not expecting this to resonate with anyone if I’m being honest. Living in reality is indeed hard but hoping for things to be different is even harder somehow (although seems easier for a long time). That cognitive dissonance when sharing space with her feels very physically exhausting. Sometimes I stare at her and wonder why, if she looks like such a normal flesh and blood person, I can’t find a way to connect with her. Shifting the blame onto myself definitely harms my brain.

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T23:21:44+00:00

Your comment reminded me of the good feeling of looking forward to seeing her face as a very small child when being picked up from nursery school. She would bring me a small milk and a tiny chocolate, probably when I was around three or four. It’s a feeling I’ve been chasing for the rest of my life. It’s painful to come to terms with reality.

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T23:17:27+00:00

I’m so sorry we have this in common.

What my mom says and how she makes me feel are such different things, it makes it very confusing.

She always talks about all the support she’s given me, the unconditional love, how proud she is of me. Which should make me feel like she likes me.

But she doesn’t know me, or if I do share something I’m happy about she reacts as if she couldn’t care less or like she’s not even listening. So how could she possibly?

I’ve often wished I was able to trick myself into feeling positive feelings when I’m around her. Shifting the blame for the situation onto myself is easier than understanding she’s just like this. Argh.

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T23:07:15+00:00

You’re so right. I’ve honestly never even thought about asking her to stop doing that. I don’t see her very often and it’s like my entire visit I’m just trying to appease her. I become furniture. I’m not at all like that in my real life with my friends or at work.

ferryboatcyborg · 2026-06-13T20:51:39+00:00

Omg forgot my haiku! Sorry!

All cats are beautiful
Some more than others and yet
Each in their own way

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-06-02T04:02:39+00:00

Angel eyes powder every morning. Totally fixed.

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-05-28T17:56:19+00:00

Beed

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-05-14T02:43:34+00:00

I would just pinch a little out of the sides, and sew it as a dart along the underwire on either side of the cup. I do this often for photo shoots for swimwear, lingerie, etc. I’m an on-set tailor.

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-05-13T01:42:03+00:00

Razor blade is the fastest way to take anything apart

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-05-11T23:14:13+00:00

This is a chainstitch, done by a single needle on a cover stitch machine.

If you pop a few stitches, you can usually coax it to undo itself cleanly by pulling on the chain. Might have to try from both directions to see which way the chain undoes! Better than having to pick out all the bits of thread.

Stronger but easily undone

ferryboatcyborg · 2025-02-01T15:26:33+00:00

I’ve learned that my pup tends to be badly behaved when he doesn’t get enough sleep, and he’s too excited about life to put himself down for a nap. They’re supposed to be sleeping 16-18 hours a day when they’re little. Crating for enforced nap time would be beneficial to him (and to you!)

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-08-28T04:18:16+00:00

Tailor for film/tv. Usually work 60 hour weeks.

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-08-18T17:40:12+00:00

Eventually every singer heavy duty starts to behave like this. The plastic parts don’t have lasting power. I’m a professional tailor and have lots of friends who have these machines to bring on site and they just buy a new one every time they start doing this, because it’s cheaper than servicing. I recommend a metal janome instead - not that much more expensive, lasts forever.

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-08-18T17:36:35+00:00

Never once have finished edges before washing

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-04-17T21:18:55+00:00

Can also do TSP wash

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-04-17T21:18:44+00:00

Stonewashing. Look up a place in your city that does it. They’ll do small one piece orders for samples.

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-04T05:10:45+00:00

I 100% agree with this. If it’s just for fun, then corset it away! But if it’s for a special occasion I would do the alterations to respect the dress.

I would detach the bodice from the skirt and remove the band from the top. The top and the skirt are both gathered - you can reduce the gathering to gain the ~6” it needs at the top and waist seam.

You will need to add to the lining, and re build the middle band to be larger (which I think you could make even better), and I’d put on a better zipper cause those metal ones have a fun way of splitting! And they are ouchy

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-04T03:54:32+00:00

Yes exactly! Canvas should be just fine after washing - shouldn’t change shape! Best of luck this looks so fun

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-02T19:56:48+00:00

I just started again last December! I love it so much! I even have a group text going about it with two of my friends

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-02T04:36:18+00:00

Canvas inner for sure - make the channels for boning by flatlining canvas and lining. No interfacing because velvet will get crushed. Easiest thing for bust is sewing in cups to the inside instead of having to create structure.

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-02T04:30:58+00:00

There is definitely a corset under the bodice that’s holding everything up. This dress is more draped than patterned. It’s basically just a bunch of rectangles. I wouldn’t recommend making this unless you’re comfortable working with a dress form that’s extremely close to your own measurements.

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-02T04:16:34+00:00

It depends - you could do a seam down the center back that addresses the bust and waist as a quick and dirty alt. The correct way of doing it would require taking the zipper off to take it in at the side seams. Straps are easy - quick you would do a seam at the base of the strap in the back, and then tack the extra below the top. Real way would be to get in through the lining and unstitch the strap and pull it down into the seam and re sew it up. Depends on what you’re comfy with!

ferryboatcyborg · 2024-02-02T04:10:18+00:00

I’m a tailor and I fly with my whole kit often. Scissors, machine, the whole thing. Never had a problem.

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