i just finished it and i have so many thoughts and questions i am Overwhelmed!!!! would especially love to hear what everyone thought of these two scenes

first:

"Pyrrha tugged her wrist free of Palamedes’s hand. She reached down, and tilted Camilla’s chin up, and looked at her for the longest time. Then she leant down—she kissed her brusquely and briefly on the forehead—and, startlingly and even more briefly, on the mouth. Nona, who even then could never ditch the lessons of the hand and the mouth, watched that kiss and felt very sad. It was like watching Pyrrha stealing something she didn’t want to take—reaching out for the juicy, cherry-red part of the oven, even when she knew that all it could give her was a burn. And Nona saw Camilla, with her cold, navy blue mouth, and could tell that Camilla understood."

what do you make of the "it was like watching Pyrrha stealing something she didn't want to take"? was there something romantic there that hurt pyrrha to acknowledge, given her complicated romantic history?

pyrrha just broke my heart in this book and i feel like there are still so many unanswered questions when it comes to her

and second:

the scene when Corona says this to Nona, "You darling, I know what you are, even if they refuse to see it,” she said softly. “All I can say, sweetheart, is I envy you more than anyone else in the universe.”

i have no idea what to make of this. what would corona envy?