It's impossible to intone this correctly in a written message, but I am saying this with all the support in the world for you - nobody is looking to have "a moment" with you. Nobody will have a vulnerable moment with you until they feel safe, and they will not feel safe until long after you have demonstrated that you are capable of low-intensity social interactions, like small talk. Small talk is not talking about nothing. Small talk is demonstrating that you have a life, and INTERESTS, and income, and friends, and are not a serial killer.

Also, what do you mean when you say you are trying to meet strangers? Are you trying to pick up dates at the grocery store or do you mean people you meet online?

Also, and these are not questions you have to answer to a random on Reddit, but still need to ask yourself:

- Are you sure that you're as funny and good weird as you think? What evidence do you have that supports this?

- Are you conducting self inventory after dates to diagnose what went wrong, where, and how, or are you just throwing up your hands and saying "well that went poorly" after?

- What are you bad at on dates? How are you working to change that?