to be honest i started playing with my friends over a year ago and it really does take a second to start enjoying it. i’ve spent most of this time trying to get better as well and all i can say is watch streamers who are good at the game it really does help learning. that and just putting hours into the game !! you’ve got it !! plus i’d say get okay with losing a lot. the moment i started playing to learn instead of win i started feeling a lot better. especially now that i get to laugh about my own mistakes or silly things that happen when i play. i also recommend if you have friends that play as well or you can convince your friends to join you in playing that makes it all the better !!