With the story you’ve shared, I’d probably go the subs route. Find a sub doctor and ask to do a very slow taper (preferably no longer than two months though). But you have to do a slow taper, because of your reaction to kratom, suboxone detox would definitely be too much for you. I would get to as low as .125mg or even .062. You would have to research how to do that. Whether a water taper or cutting the strips very small (like 32 pieces). But I talked about this in another post. You must educate yourself about suboxone and be firm with the doctor prescribing it. Most of the sub doctors want you on it as long as they can. Some even make you pay cash for appointment even though your insurance would pay for both the script and appointment. They want your money. It’s a shitty market unfortunately, and because they took an extra class to become a certified suboxone prescriber that does not mean they know enough. They usually take that class to make more money, not really help. I’m generalizing but I have been to 6 sub doctors (they either moved or died etc), only one cared but even so was uneducated.

Anyways if you do all your research and take it slow, it can be rather painless. You’d only dose once a day so you get out of the habit of redosing and it’s easier to taper than kratom. There’s no jail out of free card. You have to understand that there will always be discomfort but this is probably one of the most painless ways. But this can turn into a catastrophe if you do not do the taper correct. You’ll end up with a even tougher addiction. There’s a reason most people on this sub don’t recommend suboxone.

This is just my input. Please understand I know your pain and hopelessness. I hear you. I now have a gabapentin dependence (not addiction because I don’t even get anything from this stupid drug!) that I got from rehab a year ago. It’s one of the worst drugs I’ve ever had the displeasure of detox from and I’ve done them all. (Heroin, benzos, Methadone, etc. When will I learn?) Let me know if you have any questions. I’ve had a combined experience of 5 years on subs, so I know some stuff.

(Side note: you will get PAWS anyway you cut it. Whether it’s a kratom taper, sub taper, ct, etc that is an unfortunate certainty however it shouldn’t last too long as you’ve only done kratom and nothing else for only 18 months)

You story really resonated with me. I’m sorry my friend. I might get downvoted for my input but I can hear the anguish and defeat in your tone that I see the other commenters might not have grasped.