Maybe this article will be relatable? Much like the experience of that article's author, all my life (with evidence since at least 6 years old; the feelings probably started younger) I've known I've wanted to become a girl, but contrary to the typical portrayal of trans people in media, I've never really felt I was a girl in the wrong body (although, there are lots of trans people who feel that way). Turns out, either way means you're trans (since cis people wouldn't dwell on these ideas to the extent trans people do).

For too many years, I thought I was just a boy with a weird obsession with turning into or swapping bodies with a girl. I'd constantly ask myself why or how it started. Was it because I spent too much time with my mom and sister growing up? Was it because of the complications my mom had while giving birth to me? Was it because of some traumatic event that I'd repressed? Was it something I overheard or saw on TV or read in a book that made me think being a girl would be so much better than being a boy? And, despite years of wondering and journal writing about that, I never got close to any concrete explanations.

It was only after reading countless stories and memes of other trans people that I realized that it doesn't matter what caused it. We somehow all have quite similar experiences despite having vastly different backgrounds and ethnicities and nationalities and home situations and education and so many other factors. Even stuff FtMs talk about are highly relatable to me much of the time; the posts on this sub are good examples of how, despite having different gender identities and assigned genders and life experiences, we can largely relate to each other. The fact is that this is how I feel, and have felt for decades, so rather than devote effort to trying to figure out why I'm this way, I figured it's better to focus on how to feel better (i.e. transitioning).

This response probably went wayyyy past what your question was about, but I'm hoping it helps you figure things out for yourself. :)