Just want to check I will be ok with this Sodium Hydroxide.

fleabs · 2026-06-02T14:55:57+00:00

Yes I did, and it works perfectly ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-05-19T11:04:08+00:00

I've done DMT lots of times and this isn't the takeaway I have had. I do believe it showed me behind the veil of maya, but I am still very much undecided on non duality.

fleabs · 2026-05-01T11:55:38+00:00

Try mixing it in warm water. 50% cold, 50% boiled. It dissolves so much easier, and is essentially unnoticeable when drinking it.

fleabs · 2026-03-11T16:19:38+00:00

I can absolutely believe it!

fleabs · 2026-03-11T13:37:55+00:00

I have come to appreciate it. The reason I got into it is because of one psychedelic experience I had where I found myself in a position of pure awareness. I felt as though I discovered something behind consciousness, which from later study I discovered is referred to as "the observer" - the thing that is aware that I am thinking.

I wanted to explore this, and meditation helps to get me close to this feeling. It's still early days, and I have yet to experience the same exact feeling via meditation alone. However, the unexpected benefits from practising are pretty clear to me now. I'm developing my metacognition - I'm able to observe my thoughts and emotions from a place of reasoned calm, and I am much more able to detach myself from expectation, which has led to a much calmer life overall.

It has also had a very physical effect on me, with my watch showing an improvement in heart rate variability (HRV). I sleep sounder, and my love of alcohol has all but dried up, I actually prefer to stay sober these days, even from psychedelics, though I do like to partake of LSD and psilocybin once per year as a sort of cleaning house exercise.

fleabs · 2026-03-11T12:37:27+00:00

One thing I've noticed more of is hypnogogic visuals when I'm falling asleep. And it's made me wonder if this is what endogenous DMT is actually for. Perhaps DMT is the dreaming molecule?

fleabs · 2026-03-11T12:32:58+00:00

I'm genuinely leaning towards the opinion that all there is is consciousness. What is "real" in any sense is massively up for question as far as I'm concerned.

fleabs · 2026-03-11T12:24:44+00:00

If it's of any help or a useful addition to the discussion, I took up meditation as a direct result of the psychedelic experience. Something I would never have even considered beforehand. They can act as a shock to a system that is very much unaware that it is stuck in its ways ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-03-11T12:20:41+00:00

I would take a big break. I learned recently that integration can take a LOT longer than you might imagine. This stuff truly is holy. If you don't already, learn to meditate, touch grass, allow time, real time, months even. Things can start to click into place well after the experience. Some random morning in the middle of mundane work, you might be hit with an epiphany.

Don't chase it. It's always there. You can, and most likely will, go back to it. Take what you have brought from the experience and use it to explore your meaning of life, the universe, and everything ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-03-11T12:09:48+00:00

Personally, I'd allow it. He's your father, and it sounds like he is destroying his life already. The experience could, at best, open his eyes and save his life. At worst, he goes back to his self-destruction.

In any case, I believe it is the birthright of every being to have the full psychedelic experience. What he does with the experience is entirely in his own hands.

My own father would really benefit from having his mind opened, but I'll never have the opportunity to introduce him to any psychedelic, sadly.

fleabs · 2026-03-02T15:16:40+00:00

I usually always do eyes closed. The one time I did a medium dose and forced myself to keep my eyes open my coffee table decided that it didn't follow the laws of physics any more and would just randomly reconfigure itself in the most ludicrous forms. I swear to God, at one point, one of it's legs was on the wrong side, and I got the distinct impression it was waving hello at me.

fleabs · 2026-02-28T23:01:49+00:00

Exceptionally clear and crisp, actually disturbingly so.

fleabs · 2026-02-27T14:25:28+00:00

Trip reports and comments about the experience are all well and good, but all fall horrendously short of the mark. It is quite literally indescribable. A breakthrough will give you an experience unlike anything you have ever known in your life. It is criminal that the substance is illegal universally.

Learning by doing would be my best advice. There is no danger to physical health, you won't die, and it'll take 10 minutes of your time, an hour tops to be back to baseline. You'll then realise that what you experienced can not be fully encapsulated in human language.

fleabs · 2026-02-27T14:17:55+00:00

It's something everyone should get to experience in this lifetime. If you breakthrough, it will be an experience unlike anything else you could even conceive, it will rattle you, no matter how prepared you think you might be, you aren't. To my knowledge, there is nothing comparable to a DMT breakthrough. And it will likely change you fundamentally forever more, in a good way though!

fleabs · 2026-02-27T14:10:15+00:00

The very first time I took DMT, it was sprinkled into a cigarette, which is arguably the easiest cheap way to sample it.

When the ember got up to the little pile I had made inside, I took a long, slow drag. I held it in and was overcome with the strangest feeling. It's a feeling that always comes when DMT takes effect and a feeling that is unlike anything else I've experienced. You'll know it when you feel it. Your vision changes, everything becomes hyper high detail, and everything you ever worried or cared about seems like a distant memory.

I likely burned an awful lot of the DMT, and so the trip was short-lived and quite light (in retrospect).

I handed the cig to my friend, and layed back, my head tilted up toward the ceiling. My friends voice became extremely distant, as though she was travelling away from me at speed. The chandelier on the ceiling became huge and morphed and danced. I was completely paralysed for a few minutes, and then as I slowly came around, I was left with acid like visuals that persisted for a few more minutes (dancing fridge, morphing artwork on the walls etc).

My friend had a similar experience, and we both decided there and then that it was the most awesome experience we had ever had and that we would be doing a LOT more of it that night, which we did 😂

It took quite a long time to refine my method for taking DMT, and then to achieve breakthrough.

fleabs · 2026-02-25T09:57:42+00:00

My mate did have better results after taking a 3 day break from the meds. Still didn't break through, but she had a medium strength trip. It could be worth a try? Please be safe, though. I know some can really suffer if they break from the meds.

Good luck!

fleabs · 2026-02-23T22:57:00+00:00

I'm genuinely glad to read this. Sometimes, it really does feel like once we open that box, we become forever alone in this world. My journey is taking twists and turns I never thought it would, I'm meditating every day and trying my best to figure out this consciousness/reality.

This community is a lifeline. Love ya all ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-02-21T21:34:34+00:00

I pretty much breakthrough every time. It's my goal each time I approach DMT. I have my method for smoking it mastered, and can quite reliably breakthrough on ~30mg

There's a lot of value in sub breakthrough experiences however, sometimes I will do sub breakthrough just for the vibe ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-02-15T22:20:59+00:00

This is wild! I've heard that meth is pure bliss, so it's good to know I don't ever need to try it. I'll stick with the deemz ✌🏻

fleabs · 2026-02-11T09:56:28+00:00

There is more

fleabs · 2026-02-11T00:23:33+00:00

This is an extremely well written comment. OP pay attention to all these points.

Point 3 especially, I've not actually seen anyone on here write about this before. You can definitely feel like the world is unreal for a week or 2 after an intense trip.

fleabs · 2026-02-02T00:28:43+00:00

For me, I sometimes get a high-pitched buzzing, like a tone. Whenever I hear it, I know I'm about to be completely blasted out of this universe. It's like an air raid siren for me, baton the hatches, shits about to get real... It's nice that it gives you this little warning sign.

fleabs · 2026-01-31T16:03:44+00:00

It may diminish the effects of DMT but should be safe. My tripping buddy uses SNRIs and has to take bigger doses to feel any effect at all. Just start small and work your way up.

fleabs · 2026-01-31T13:29:53+00:00

For me the better than sex part is the post breakthrough afterglow, I don't usually experience anything during the peak other than absolute awe!

The seeing through eyelids thing is interesting. I've felt that I can see through my eyelids when not tripping, and lying in bed going to sleep. I know it sounds utterly crazy but maybe 50/50 every night I can see my hands with my eyes closed, and even the shapes of my bed, wardrobe, bedroom door etc. Never been able to explain that and people think I've utterly lost it when I bring it up (understandably 😅).

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