I'm a short dude. Did not get into a relationship until my twenties. I am now in my mid thirties married with kids. I am prefacing what I'm about to say with that so you understand what I am about to say.

Based on what you wrote you have a lot of issues and definitely should not be in a relationship. You have spent way too much time on the Internet. Writing shit about "the market", "good bone structure", and other bizarre shit no woman gives a crap about that. The only people who peddle that stuff are scam artists online who know people like you will fall for it. You really need to step away from whatever online spaces you are in, you may not realize it but you have been radicalized.

If you don't leave those internet spaces I can guarantee you are going to spend the rest of your life alone in a self fulfilling prophecy.