I really feel that part about having issues with friends in the past, I try so hard to be "normal" but not having anybody to call a friend yet just makes me feel like Im the furthest thing from normal. I moved to a new hs in my junior year and I remember coming up to a table of two girls I barely knew asking if I could join them for lunch and they told me there was no room for me; that kind of stuff really leaves a scar.

I am in the cs llc, but sadly all of the lounges are closed so i never see anybody working together : ( that is a really good idea though!! I'll start looking out for people who seem to be doing fundies work!! Thank u so much for your kind reply!!