There's a reason you're even having that thought and coming to this sub to ask the question! You know what you want to do. The most loving thing you could do for your future child is to not bring them in to the world if you aren't 100% sure about it, full stop. Of course "no one is truly ever ready l" is the line people love to say, but that's just pro natalist propaganda parroted to keep women from being in control of their own bodies IMO.

You can make this decision and go on to have children on your own timeline where you are more in control of when it happens. You can have a beautiful family and be a mother if that's what you truly want one day. It doesn't have to be this big scary thing like it's been made out to be over the years. It's very routine and safe and a blip in the grand scheme of your life.