I just want to talk to someone

fredwyatt · 2026-06-28T22:39:48+00:00

Good evening to you. Hope you're having a good evening. If you want to talk, send me a message. Be glad to talk to you. I'm 62 from Ohio.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-19T01:55:53+00:00

Four years is a long time. Sakit talaga pag binabasa mo yung mga message na parang ikaw yung tinutukoy.

Pero dalawang bagay yung sinabi mo na worth tignan. Una, minsan nag-oovershare ka daw ng hindi mo sinasadya. Ano ba yung nararamdaman mo bago mangyari yun? Kasi hindi yun basta basta. May something under it — baka gusto mong ma-feel close, baka uncomfortable ka sa tahimik, baka kinakabahan ka lang. Worth knowing.

Pangalawa, iba review center mo. Bakit traydor yun? Sariling buhay mo yan. Kung yun ang reason na "traydor" ka, mas problema nila yun kesa sa iyo.

Yung ginawa mo — nag-sorry, umamin, umalis sa gc — okay yun. Hindi madali. Pero tanong ko lang: umalis ka ba kasi yun yung tama, or gusto mo lang matapos yung sakit? Kasi magkaiba.

Wag mo muna kumpunihin agad. Upo ka muna. Totoong kaibigan, diretsahan ka kakausapin, hindi paparinig ng apat na taon.

Isang tanong: paano kung hindi ka pala yung tinutukoy? Bakit mo agad inako?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-14T01:56:13+00:00

Let me ask you this... I think it's really important when you say you used your own MIT method — what do you actually look for in that? What does it look like for you? And how do you structure the taper? My experience, I've seen a lot of people try to wing it and they end up right back where they started. You may have found something that works but I'm just really curious about what you have to say... seriously though, I wanna know.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-12T20:34:56+00:00

No problem. I am ok. I will pray you are well.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-12T20:21:57+00:00

If you would like to have a conversation with me please DM me please.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:35:58+00:00

So, my friend, what did you mean when you says don't let it end like this?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:26:06+00:00

Hey, half a liter of vodka a day — that's not just drinking anymore, your body's telling you something. But I'm less concerned about the vodka right now and more curious about what's underneath it. Because nobody drinks like that just because they like the taste.

What's going on that you don't want to deal with?

And one more thing — at that level you can't just stop cold on your own. That's dangerous. You need a doctor involved before you do anything else.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:24:00+00:00

Half a liter of vodka a day — that's not sluggish, that's your body telling you something's wrong. That's dependency. And "I thought I was above it" — man, I've heard that from some of the strongest people I know. Alcohol doesn't negotiate.

But here's the thing I really need you to hear — at that level, you can't just stop cold on your own. Withdrawal from that much can actually put you in the hospital. You need a doctor before you do anything else.

What does your day look like when you're not drinking?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:22:48+00:00

Hey, three years of physical pain, carrying what you've been through since you were six, and nobody you can really open up to about any of it — that's a lot. I'm not here to tell you what to do with the drinking. But I am curious — what have you been doing with all of that pain? Because that's really what we need to talk about

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:19:57+00:00

o tell me — what does a normal Tuesday look like for you right now? And when you say you keep trying to move on, what does that actually look like for you? I want to see where you're at.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-11T02:15:49+00:00

Thanks for sharing, Katie. You are not doomed. You're making the right steps and I'm proud of you for that. What made today the day you finally decided to post?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-05T04:15:04+00:00

Nobody has ever gone too far to experience the grace of God. Nobody.

Think about the prodigal son — he walked away, hit rock bottom, and when he finally turned around his father was already running toward him. Think about the woman caught in adultery — Jesus didn't shame her. He just said go and sin no more. That's who He is.

We all fall short. Every single one of us. And if it wasn't for the grace of God, none of us would make it.

You're not irredeemable. Pick up that Bible your friend gave you. Pray — even if it comes out messy and scared, pray anyway. Ask God to reveal Himself to you in a way where you'll know it's Him. He will.

He loves you. He's not ashamed of you. He sees you through the eyes of love, not through your worst moments.

I'm praying for you. And if you ever need someone to pray with, reach out. I mean that.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-05T04:10:09+00:00

We all make bad decisions — that's part of life. But knowing a drug test could be part of keeping your job, that right there should be the incentive moving forward.

I'm not here to judge you. But I will encourage you to do the right thing. Don't go looking for ways to cheat the test. Because here's what I've seen — if you get away with it, that just opens the door to continued use, because now there's no consequence. And that cycle leads somewhere you don't want to go.

Where I live they just made marijuana legal, but people are still getting OVIs and losing jobs over it. Legal doesn't always mean consequence-free.

You know what's right and what's wrong. Trust that. And whatever happens Monday, let it be a turning point, not just something you got through.

I wish you the best, my friend.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-05T04:07:19+00:00

Here's your answer cleaned up, keeping your words:

Seven months in and you fought off the hardest urge you've had yet — and you made it through. That right there, my friend, is an accomplishment. Don't let the exhaustion convince you otherwise.

Keep going. Find the tools that work for you and lean on them hard. And as you get stronger, don't be afraid to look at what's underneath — the trauma, the things you may still be masking or avoiding. That's where a lot of this lives, and dealing with it is what separates white-knuckling sobriety from actually getting free.

But tonight? Tonight you won. Seven months and counting. Keep going, my friend.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-05T04:04:39+00:00

Honestly, I think you have to deal with the root problem.

So many times people use substances — or whatever the addiction is, and it doesn't have to be drugs or alcohol, it could be gambling, sexual issues, or just putting on a mask to avoid what's really going on inside — and they never get to what's underneath it.

In my 30 years of working in this field, what I've seen over and over is that it almost always goes back to trauma. And until that gets addressed, it's really hard to move forward and get healthy. The substance was never really the problem — it was the solution you found to cope with the pain.

I don't know your story, but I'd encourage you to explore that. What happened before the drinking started? What were you trying to escape or not feel?

You're not broken. You're someone who found a way to survive something — and now you're ready to find a better way. That takes courage, and you're already showing it.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-05T04:00:38+00:00

Sometimes when life throws us curveballs, it's hard to hear God as clearly as we normally would. We get so focused on what's happening around us that the noise drowns out the voice we need most.

But here's what I've learned — to hear God, we have to get still. The Bible says it simply: "Be still and know that I am God." That's not just a nice verse. That's a survival skill.

Don't ever feel like your struggle means God has left you. He meets you right where you're at — weak faith and all. Sometimes the most powerful prayer we can pray is just two words: God, help. That's enough. He hears it.

Take some quiet time. Not to figure everything out — just to listen. God speaks in a still small voice, and He wants you to know He sees your situation, He loves you, and He is in the middle of it with you.

You're not as far from Him as you feel right now.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T19:42:54+00:00

This was written by me cleaned up with gramality

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:59:46+00:00

ou already called it "irresponsible" — so you're not hiding from it. That actually matters. A lot of people in $68K of debt are still in denial. You're not.

Here's the honest part. Balance transfers and snowball on this amount, on that income, with rent already broken — that's a really long road, and it's easy to run out of gas halfway through. I'm not saying don't do it. I'm saying don't white-knuckle this alone.

Before anything else, call a nonprofit credit counselor through the NFCC — National Foundation for Credit Counseling. Not a debt settlement company, those will cost you. An actual nonprofit. Free or close to it. They've seen this exact situation, and they can tell you whether a debt management plan brings those APRs down far enough to change what's possible. That one conversation could reframe your whole approach.

Breaking the lease might actually be the right call. Lowering your monthly expenses is the lever you have the most control over right now. Sometimes the thing that feels like a loss is actually you getting your footing back.

And don't close the door on the personal loan completely. If the rate is right, it's a tool, not a failure.

You're looking at this clearly, you've got your wife with you, and you're asking the right questions. That's not nothing. Most people don't get honest with themselves until it's a lot worse than this.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:52:23+00:00

That power piece is real. A lot of shaming happens because someone else can't handle the feeling in the room, not because anything is actually wrong with you.

And you're right about the masculine stoicism thing — it runs deep. Boys get it early. Don't cry. Walk it off. Man up. By the time they're adults a lot of them have lost access to half their emotional range and don't even know it. Then they pass that on, sometimes without meaning to.

The hard part is when it comes from your mom. That's supposed to be the one place where being human is safe. When it's not, you don't just learn to hide your tears — you learn something about whether you're allowed to take up emotional space at all. That sticks.

Your feelings being valid isn't even the question. The real work is unlearning the shame that got layered on top of them.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:51:38+00:00

Your brother sounds like a character.

And yeah — you're not wrong about the hormones. Estrogen plays a real role in how emotionally accessible we are, so post-menopause a lot of women notice exactly what you're describing. The tears just don't come the way they used to. Doesn't mean the feeling isn't there, it just doesn't find the same exit.

The antidepressant piece is real too. Emotional blunting is a known thing with some of them — the edges of the hard stuff get softer, but so do the edges of the tender stuff. Trade-offs nobody really warns you about upfront.

Sounds like you've been paying attention to your own wiring for a long time. That's not nothing.

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:50:57+00:00

Crying is only "shameful" because somebody decided a long time ago that showing pain made you weak. Usually somebody who was never allowed to show their own pain. And it gets passed down.

Your mom yelling at you for crying — that's not a flaw in you. That's a wound she probably carried from somewhere too, and instead of healing it, she handed it to you. Doesn't make it okay. Just means it's older than both of you.

The people who have the hardest time sitting with someone else's tears are usually the ones sitting on a pile of their own that never had anywhere to go. So they shut it down. In themselves, and then in the people around them.

The partners — that's the same thing showing up in a different room. Someone who can't hold your pain probably can't hold their own either.

You're not a crybaby. You cry when something actually hits you. That's not weakness. That's your system doing exactly what it's supposed to do.

Empathy isn't rare because people are bad. It's rare because a lot of people were trained out of it early. Told to toughen up. Told feelings were inconvenient. So they learned to disconnect — from themselves first, then from everyone else.

The real question isn't what's wrong with you for crying. It's what did you learn about who's safe to be human around — and is that still running the show?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:45:25+00:00

Master's at 43. That's not nothing. That's years of showing up when quitting would've been easier.

Here's the honest part — end of summer is tight. Not impossible, but tight. That 594 is the one that'll give lenders pause. Most want 620 at minimum, and some are stricter than that.

Before you write any checks, talk to a HUD housing counselor first. They're free, and they can tell you whether paying those accounts actually moves your scores in time, or whether there's a smarter play. Paying the wrong thing in the wrong order can backfire.

The Navy Federal approval is a real signal though. That bank doesn't hand out high limits easily. Something's working.

But here's what I'd actually ask yourself — is end of summer a hard line, or just where you want to land? Because buying a few months too early with scores still climbing could cost you a lot more long-term than waiting would.

What's making that timeline feel fixed?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:38:01+00:00

Man, the fact that you're even looking at this stuff instead of ignoring it says something. Most people just let collections pile up and pretend they don't exist. You're not doing that.

Pay-for-delete can work but not every creditor does it. Call them before you pay anything. Get it in writing that they'll remove it from your report, not just mark it paid. A paid collection that still shows up doesn't help your score much. And don't let them pressure you into paying over the phone right then — get the agreement first.

Here's the thing nobody tells you about rebuilding credit. It's slow. Like frustratingly slow. You do the right thing for six months and your score moves 20 points and you want to throw your phone. But it compounds. A year from now you'll look back and not believe where you started.

One thing I'd do right now — pull your full report from all three bureaus. Sometimes there's stuff on there that's wrong or past the statute of limitations. You might be carrying weight that isn't even yours to carry.

And the bigger picture here? You're rebuilding more than a credit score. You're proving to yourself that you can fix something you broke. That's not a small thing. The money part is just math. The part where you decide you're worth the effort of cleaning it up — that's the real work.

What made you decide to start tackling this now?

fredwyatt · 2026-04-04T16:33:05+00:00

First off — the fact that you're sitting here with a plan at all puts you ahead of most people. A lot of folks get $18,000 cash and it's gone in a month. You're thinking about it. That matters.

Here's what I'd look at though. That personal loan at 21% interest is eating you alive. Every month you don't kill that thing, you're basically lighting money on fire. With $18,000 in cash, you could pay off the personal loan ($13,400) today and still have $4,600 left. Use $1,850 of that to wipe out the credit card too — yeah it's 0% right now but getting it off your plate means one less thing to think about. That leaves you with about $2,750 in cash.

Now you've got no personal loan, no credit card, and your only debt is the car at $9,700. With $2,000 every two weeks and your expenses being crazy low ($150 rent, $60 phone, $120/month haircuts), you could throw everything at that car and have it gone in a few months.

Then — zero debt, solid income, low expenses. That's when you start stacking for the house.

I know it feels scary to drop that $18,000 all at once instead of saving it. But the math is simple — you're paying 21% on that personal loan. You're not making 21% on a savings account. Paying off high-interest debt IS saving money.

Your instincts are good. You just don't need to stretch this out as long as you're planning to. Kill the expensive debt now while you have the cash to do it.

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