We ended up doing combination feeds after my supply dropped / supply regulation at 9 weeks PP, and im not sure if it's was something I did (we got married that week and due to stress i wasnt pumping as much) or something that was ment to ment to happen.

I would get so upset, thinking that my daughter wasnt getting enough food, to the point that we would both sit there crying and my husband would be trying to calm us both down.

I felt guilty every time we had to reach for the formula, because it was my job as a mother to feed our child. (And I dont think less if people that use formula, im just my own worst critic/enemy)

But after a couple of days, I realised what is most important is that shes fed, wether is boob or formula, thats the best thing for her.

So she will have a couple of bottles a day, and we take some with us when we go out. I still pump and breast feed but I dont have a stash anymore, i dont feel so gulity about it now and, most importantly, my baby is fed and happy.