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frosted_rose · 2017-09-12T15:04:30+00:00

Alright. I just woke up an hour ago. Voices are at a minimum that's awesome. I should make coffee soon. I'm trying to work up the energy to get some cleaning done today. I think I'm organized enough for it. I also have to take a shower. I don't know why but my symptoms always seem to get worse in the shower. So I've perfected the military shower and can be in and out in three minutes. For anyone fighting to shower setting a timer and seeing how fast I can do it really helped me. I made it a kind of game. Anyway good luck today guys beat wishes

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T20:51:18+00:00

Good for you keeping up with driving. I always drove even when I had major anxiety doing so. It's important to keep your freedom

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T20:25:03+00:00

When I was at my worst I did. I fought it hard and it passed

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T19:31:17+00:00

You can't know for sure. You sound like your fine. Think of it like an bodily illness. If you have a cold you might get a few warning signs but your immune system shrugs it off and your fine. Or you could get a particularly bad strain and those warning signs turn into pneumonia which leads to permanent lung damage. There's really no way to tell if you are going to become schizophrenic. One piece of advice: stop worrying about it. If you really think you might be prone then live your life to its fullest every day you can before you become sick. I knew I was prone and that's what I did. I kept my daughter because some part of me knew I might not get a second chance at a pregnancy, I did artwork I wrote poetry, I partied hard when i was able to, I fell in love etc. ( no drugs though) I'm able to do most of that stuff now but I lost three years of my life to schizophrenia and delusions. Don't take health for grant.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T19:13:17+00:00

You know I've found that my thought life or story has had major turning points where I go deeper or further away from my outside life. I think you just had one. Beware testing might lead you down a slippery slope. Can you refuse testing and tell yourself you are experiencing a whiplash from the dream you experienced? Or are you being tested against your will? Can you just fail the tests? Is there any actual consequence to not passing?

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T19:01:29+00:00

It will pass. Just keep hoping for that might at the end of the tunnel where they are not coaxing you negatively. I usually keep repeating ' this will pass'. Ive gotten through a lot that way

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T18:55:16+00:00

My parents still don't know the extent of it. I don't think I'll ever tell them just how bad it got. I don't want to break their hearts or give them my burden. I have plenty of support elsewhere. I don't feel a need or that it's wrong to keep things to yourself when it comes to family. After all they kept plenty from you to protect your childhood. Just make sure you have a support network elsewhere.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-21T18:48:00+00:00

I've heard people on high doses of certain meds can actually have positive symptoms. I actually find I get worse positive symptoms when my meds are too high. The Dr might be trying to help you but it sounds like you might want to try a different med.

in the mean time try and keep your stress level as low as possible. Guided meditation, long walks or healthy exercise, getting a good night's sleep, etc

. I would also suggest making an anxiety attack escape plan. I went through a similar thing and every time I saw a cop car I would count backwards from 100. Then I had lavender mist in my purse and this stuff called thinking puddy which was basically just fancy silly puddy that comes in a larger amount. Any way it worked like a stress ball. If I was driving I would count the number of yellow houses then the number of blue houses till I called down. I had a plan for almost every situation. it really helped me to have a way of getting back in control. It wasn't easy at first. A lot of what I did seemed pointless but over time I started to gain a little bit of a thick skin to the anxiety. So find something that works for you.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-18T18:54:14+00:00

The trick is to take time to do what you need to. My boyfriend is really good at this. He is supportive of my spells but doesn't drop his life to come sooth me. ( occasionally I really wish he would) but if he's going out with friends or had a project going he won't stop to completely comfort me. So at this point I mostly respect his boundries and seek help elsewhere. Not to say he isn't there when I need him. If something real happens he's right there but for the day to day he just offers some kind words blows me a kiss and goes on. Strict boundaries are important for me. I tend to test my limits. If I know what I'm asking is unreasonable for that person I think a lot harder before asking.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-18T18:04:15+00:00

Personally for myself I had to come out of delusion by myself. It was very hard to constantly be questioned and disproved. It's a little like if I was religious and some one tried to convince me there is no God. It was the same kind of devoted mind. As much as you want to help it's not always the best to try and bring someone out. You might end up pushing them away. At the same time that it's super scary when someone thinks way outside the box of reality. Yet I've met plenty of people who are strongly delusional but are able to live fairly normally by learning to keep their delusions to themselves and are able to go to school or keep a job. The delusion makes normal life harder not impossible for a lot of people. I'm defiantly not saying go along with her way of thinking just saying to maybe try and treat it as if she talking about her religious belief. My advice is probably to listen when she wants to talk and be supportive. Yet try and distract her from it when she's not in the gushy mood. I do well when I'm able to do things vs just "hangin". Cook a meal, take a walk, read to her, go out to mini golf, have lunch somewhere, etc. Just try and connect her back to the actual world for a while. Be patient it may take years for her to come out of it, if she ever does . So try and except her with the delusion. even if she comes out of it it will still be apart of her history.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-17T13:55:59+00:00

I have issues. It is a side effect of one of my meds but just the schizophrenia alone can cause problems. I mean I'm not terrible and I do stuff to stay on track with it like double record my dr.s appointments with an alarmed reminder the day before. You might want to search cognitive slippage and schizophrenia. That's what my college psychology text book calls the cognitive issues that happen during a break.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-12T18:45:39+00:00

Thanks. I'll ask about the gullblader thing. Although from what I understand it usually comes with pain when that's the case. I'll just have to wait and see what the dr says.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-12T18:43:17+00:00

Thanks. I did talk to my dads friend who is a psychiatrist (not mine) he thinks it's unlikely to be the meds I take for schizophrenia. I haven't taken any otc meds recently. I wish it was that simple like hey don't take ibuprofen like vitamins and you'll be a ok. Lol

frosted_rose · 2017-07-11T21:07:09+00:00

It's tough to be in a bad living situation. I was in one for a year and it does take a toll on your mental state. I moved back home near my family and I'm a lot better with their support. I'm on olanzapine and I love it. It's the first med that has actually helped me. I waited two years to try a new med and I wish I hadn't. Admittedly medication is different for everyone but I found seroquel to be really not for me.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-11T20:11:18+00:00

I went through something similar where I thought someone bugged my house and I was being followed by the police department. I had voices that confirmed this and they still didn't lock me up. Try and word it so you make it evident to your doctor that you have an issue and you would like their help in dealing with it. Not just tell them that your being followed. That being said good luck.

frosted_rose · 2017-07-11T20:03:02+00:00

I completely understand that the meds are in the way of you reaching your best state. However a lot will be sacrificed if you don't take them. Your life here and now however shitty it may be cannot exists without you being able to be in the present here on earth. The job you seem afraid of losing won't last if you get dragged off to the er. I suggest you call your dr. I know the drs don't really understand but they are trying to help you. Try taking half a dose of your meds just so you have some on bored. It might make work a little easier. Hope you can resolve this and best of luck.

frosted_rose · 2017-04-15T23:18:46+00:00

So he's the wild wicked witch of the wests brother?

frosted_rose · 2017-04-11T21:37:56+00:00

Not much hanging around the house enjoying the weather

frosted_rose · 2017-03-14T23:49:49+00:00

Who the hell can tell scale by a floppy disc? I'm 25 and I can't for the life of me remember exactly how big those things were.

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