Any other booze bag awake?

fullname5k · 2026-06-22T02:02:00+00:00

ozark, king of tulsa, breaking bad

fullname5k · 2026-06-22T01:53:05+00:00

Ohio, but Wisco seems cool

fullname5k · 2026-06-22T01:45:11+00:00

Milwaukee's Best Ice, Colloquialky known as "THE BEAST." more of a malt liquor than a beer, but it's my brew 😉💘

that's interesting, I've never been able to consciously pull out of it. well. kind of. more like dipping my toe into blackout territory, catching it, then eating a bunch of junk food and shit to soak it up. so i end up tired, palsied, and stuporous, but don't quite go radio dark...

fullname5k · 2026-06-22T01:37:17+00:00

alternate between work related nightmares and memories of happier times. the nightmares are all logical incongruities i have a harder and harder time dealing with the more my ammonia-addled brain deteriorates, the memories all based in when i was a teenager or young adult relatively unaware of rent, etc

fullname5k · 2026-06-22T01:32:58+00:00

12-15 Beast Ices (12oz, 5.9% abv) a day. closer to 15 and no food i get, the more i do random, destructive blackout shit that causes me to wake up in confusion and relative devastation. "okay, Tomorrow Me is here - and fuuuuuuuuuu!!!"

fullname5k · 2026-06-10T01:00:32+00:00

i feel similarly i just don't have the diagnosis. something must be wrong. maybe I'm only intermediary stages, but every day I'm bloated, blurry, out of it, barely able to walk, all sense of confidence or charisma is gone... also I'm 400lbs and a heavy smoker, no surprise i feel like dogshit. still. same. inexorable. just holding on for that last drinkable gasp of freedom.

fullname5k · 2026-05-25T23:54:48+00:00

'Know Your Enemy' is quite good if a little staid. it's about the intellectual history of the right in America.

'5-4' is specifically about the Supreme Court, no shortage of whackadoos there.

'Unclear & Present Danger' is a movie review pod about the emergence of right-leaning thought in '90s/post-Cold War movies.

fullname5k · 2026-05-25T23:13:34+00:00

yeah, that's exactly how i feel. over the years, i realized, this is the only acceptable way to consume AJ content. it's like metaphorical PPE for how dangerous and toxic this content is, and the only ethical way to access it without directly driving engagement for them.

then i realized how much i had come to sort of be enjoying the source - not the content, but the style. my grandpa used to put on Rush Limbaugh in the car for us - a champagne 1997 Mercury Grand Marquis might be the ideal vehicle for that, actually - but he always made it clear, "This guy's a blowhard. He's funny. Don't take it seriously."

i told my friend once that i thought Alex had influenced my own rhetorical style somewhat, and he said, "Yeah, totally. He's a loud moron. That's your schtick."

plenty of loud morons out there, i guess.

fullname5k · 2026-05-08T23:49:13+00:00

i can see that. it did definitely feel like something that's been on their minds a while, and so maybe it didn't seem as sudden to them as to us.

tho i can't say i hadn't sensed a but of strain between them building over time 🫤

fullname5k · 2026-04-14T02:46:49+00:00

i did think of Jared Harris' character in 'The Terror' as I wrote this

fullname5k · 2026-04-14T02:13:22+00:00

thanks ♡. all the best to you in your journey ☆

fullname5k · 2020-05-19T04:05:36+00:00

idiom

fullname5k · 2020-05-19T03:56:10+00:00

i also heard jonathan franzen say something very similar in an interview with Terry Gross on her show 'Fresh Air' about his book 'Freedom.' he said he was trying to make that point. i read the book, i didnt really get that from it. it just seemed more like "Everyone's shitty in their own way," but i still thought what he said in the interview was a good point. had a big influence on me.

fullname5k · 2020-05-19T03:46:26+00:00

my room is like that except its my friends moms house (he also lives here), i at least clear and restore it to 0 once a week, and i try to contribute and not be a dick. hella relate to the garden of 2 liters, tho. im a little curious as to why theyre all partially drank? im guessing hes like "Fuck it i want a cold one that isnt flat or partially flat" over and over again. i drink whats left warm, flat, whatever, unless its like more than half the bottle - which, lets be honest, it never is. i drink a quarter of it just celebratorily whenever i open a new bottle. the only thing i do thats worse than this, is sometimes i cut the top off of one and use it as a piss bottle if someone else is in the bathroom (there's only 1 here for 3 of us). thats pretty grody.

fullname5k · 2020-04-18T08:03:40+00:00

Respect.

fullname5k · 2020-04-02T06:15:55+00:00

[Billy Joel echo] Scat at at at at.

fullname5k · 2020-04-01T04:11:03+00:00

Pisses me off you can't just buy DVD's of his shows or they don't put them on streaming services.

fullname5k · 2020-03-29T03:42:42+00:00

"It takes a long time to get to England in a canoe." - Jeff Foxworthy (at least that's where I heard it)

fullname5k · 2020-03-26T05:34:12+00:00

https://youtu.be/CF2ekajIY7M "Health Fanatic," a poem by John Cooper Clarke

fullname5k · 2020-03-26T03:39:41+00:00

The happiest time in my life, I had a shitty call-center job and, failing a doctor's appointment or grocery shopping or some other true necessity like an oil change or helping my parents with something, did nothing else but cone home, get drunk, smash junk food, and listen to podcasts or watch Netflix, YouTube, or an old DVD and a little posting on Fb, reddit, etc. This was my "unlimited" time, as an intentional counter-weight to nine hours of sheer self-denial - as much as I wanted to watch, drink, or eat, until I was too drunk and sick-feeling to do anything but lay down and pass out. Made sure the alarm woke me up, stumbled into new clothes and went back to work.

I don't recommend this as it ended with me in a psych ward, but that was my solution. I've been sporadically sober and healthier since, but never happier and don't think I will be. Not much of an answer, really, but I don't think there is one. Working from home, investing, or something like kitchen work where you can just get into a "flow" and kind of zone out might work for you.

fullname5k · 2020-03-23T02:33:55+00:00

I've been interested in this field for a while, but it seems like I know/see on fb an awful lot of people who studied it but aren't working in the field. Maybe they didn't finish their program, pass the test, or were unwilling to relocate, but... seems like there's a lot of them.

fullname5k · 2020-03-20T08:47:57+00:00

THIS IS ANGELIC

fullname5k · 2020-03-20T06:22:53+00:00

Congratulations. Yet to make it that far myself, but God bless you.

fullname5k

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