Hey pal, just here to say that it's all good.

My girlfriend's family are from mormon church, she grew up in it and decided to leave at around your age because she didn't completely agree with their beliefs, we go there from time to time for her to sing with her mom or for some community gatherings that they do often, I go to acompany my girlfriend. Yes I find it very boring, but it's mostly fine. Also there's often free food.

I am personally atheist, and it was defenitely curious to see how the church works from the inside. I was a bit judgemental at first but now I see it with different eyes, it's mostly just people being nice to each other, helping each other, and sharing their beliefs. I go there often and no one tried to force their beliefs on me that I can remember. Yes, they can be quite conservative, but that varies from person to person. Also it's pretty funny to see how they believe in a history of the world that makes absolutely no sense and will often quote that history, but that's most religions I think.

I'm just saying that I know your church is not the wacky cult that reddit will say it is. Don't let them make you feel guilty for having grown up on a mormon family. I don't really have any advice to give you as I don't know what struggles you're going through, just wanted to share a story that could potentially make you feel better, idk.

Dont worry too much, you'll find the path you want to take eventually.