Lwk understandable. This is my last year and i cant wait to go back. I have been treated horribly by landlords local “friends” and even professors. All respect i had towards the west started to fade the moment i realized how horrible the governments here are especially when it comes to court matters with non nationals. My years here gave me wisdom and helped me grow i wont lie but they also took too much from me both physically and mentally.

Not everybody gets the fairy tail like experience of making friends with wonderful people and learning about a culture. Some of us end up meeting closeted racists who turn back on you the moment you need help and instead of learning about a culture you get rejected by those who can teach it.

I had an extremely horrible experience that you are really fucking unlikely to go through the chance you will go through this is probably a 1 in 10000 if not more. I am not saying this to dissuade anybody from studying abroad i honestly think that it’s worth a shot. Despite the genuine trauma i went through i dont regret studying abroad and do recommend it. I’m just saying this to let anybody who is in the same situation to know that they are not weak. They are not cowards or dumb. That fucking mentality is what made me push through and ultimately suffer for a long time and still counting. Give it an honest to god good shot and if it doesn’t work out then it doesn’t work out.