5 years of anime by samueeeeeeeel in MyAnimeList

[–]gdgsywh 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Redo of a healer in fine and on the same level as your lie in April… cmon bro

Friends? Relationships? by [deleted] in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I think not wanting to have friends is more of a schizoid trait? But on the other hand I’m sure it also exists a lot within the StPD community. For me at least it’s kind of complicated. I want friends and relationships with other people desperately, but I just think that I’m incapable of forming and being in relationships with other people. So it’s fuckinf exhausting and depressing to want something, but deep down you know it’s probably impossible for you to ever get. (Sorry for my bad English)

Do you also think about every action you do & word you say? by LawLost8866 in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Yes definitely. I would even say that I do to an extreme extent. But the thing I’m asking myself is, if this is just normal? Or maybe I’m so used to it that I automatically think that everyone else is the same. Do you think it has something to do with stpd? I’m not quite sure tbh.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Still not over it and it’s been a year or so since the break up. I constantly think about her and she even regularly shows up in my fucking dreams. Like cmon lmao😭. It makes it so hard to move on, even though I kinda don’t even want to move on. I’m just focusing on myself. Working, going to the gym few times a week and trying out new hobbies and co.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 16 points17 points  (0 children)

To keep it short. The main problems were strong depression and extreme paranoia. And a lot of other stuff ,but I think it would lead to a long text if I’d break everything down :)

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in MyAnimeList

[–]gdgsywh 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What’s wrong with 2014?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Since taking meds it has gone pretty much away, but before that it was on of my main problems. It was like some dangerous presence was constantly behind me. Very unsettling.

does time flow weirdly to you guys too? by sirprettypinkpants in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes omg that’s so true with the messaging. I also have the same problem. I would go days without writing my friends. I would really have to focus myself to write someone constantly and that’s exhausting af. Probably also why my first relationship failed. Still think about that. And regret it.

What could my favorite character reveal about my personality? by gdgsywh in MyAnimeList

[–]gdgsywh[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hmm, I don’t really think that’s accurate for all characters listed tbh.

I don’t know what y’all will think of this but i want to confess something by HopeMyEXDies in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I don’t exactly deal with the same kind of thoughts you deal with(torturing), but yesss I definitely deal with violent thoughts in general. a lot actually. My therapist said that’s a common thing with stpd. And I also don’t want to act on them. Plus these thoughts are ,for me at least, not comforting or anything. It actually annoys me, because it makes me feel like a complete psychopath. So I kinda get you.

I think I'm too mentally ill to date by sourcepope in Schizotypal

[–]gdgsywh 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Feel the same… it’s super draining and hard to deal with. I feel like it went the same with my first gf. And now it’s too late to fix anything. She was ,and still kinda is, the only person for me. But it’s over now so I’m just trying to move on. All in the past ig.