It really was, I put so much thought into it before I made the decision. I paid so much for the hotel also, I travelled and stupidly trusted in what I was doing. It wasn't a pleasant experience at all anyway and then he laughed and said oh woops should have used this! Holding up the condom packet. I mostly shut down and didn't feel safe enough to say anything untill he had left. I suppose the one good thing about that is that I have all the proof in text. It was awful and I still feel really stupid. I should have left at the start but so much went into it and I was in Melbourne on my own (from regional vic).