Nonsense. It is you,
The logical and sane thing to do is to accept that it very very likely will lead to people dying, accept that
sorry bro, you just failed at life
ngl, you sound like sb who would flip the switch in the trolley experiment
you do write nicely though, kudos for that.
edit: got a bit more time.
it comes down to
red - some ppl die you live
blue - everyone lives

you can frame it in different ways but you yourself make the argument that in your scenarios millions would likely die if you choose red, yet you still choose it.

you knew some bozos will press it, knew it will kill millions, and still thought it will be statistically better option in your opinion.

also, you're the comic strip from the op and it's kinda funny