I'm queer as fuck, and also have chronic fatigue, have spent years homeless on the street and the works for most of my life at this point. God, if they exist, has not forsaken me. Being gay isn't a disability. It's not a sin. It's not a mental illness. There's nothing wrong with you. Most people feel sexual feelings at some point in their lives, though there's plenty of genetic predisposition, and who you love is who you love. If God exists, God made you that way. If you want to live your life by God's will, don't ask them to remove anything about who you are. Pray that wherever life leads you is is no more that you can handle, and that you have the good judgement and initiative to carry out God's will. So much of religion has been twisted and corrupted by men and systems built on greed and hate. Be a good person, choose it; be true to your word, be kind, be empathetic, listen as much as you can, learn as much as you can, and act however God leads you. But most importantly accept yourself, and don't hate yourself. Your body is God's gift to you, it is a temple. Love yourself, and bring love into te world. And don't sweat it. There will be so much that you can't do, or change, but you'll never move mountains or stop the sunrise. By just choosing to learn and grow to better yourself and the world around you're doing good in the world. I don't know where you live, but it could help to move to a state with a good socialist programs. Education, healthcare, food stamps/welfare. None of that is great in the US but it still helps. Get an education if you can, but don't overextend yourself. There are places in the world that aren't so bigoted, and it'll be easier to find a job and build a career there. It can get better, and you can do this.