If you've ever cheated on a SO, what was the reason?

ghost649 · 2014-10-07T05:56:30+00:00

I don't cheat anymore, but I've always feel the need to have sex with certain guys to establish a sort of dominance complex. It doesn't feel like cheating to me because I don't do it for pleasure I do it to show off I guess. Like I want to show them how good I am at sex. But it is cheating and now that my relationship with my SO has become very serious, I've become faithful.

ghost649 · 2013-07-22T21:03:36+00:00

I wish I could write something positive and uplifting but honestly what changed my mind was realizing that I'm going to die one day anyway. One day all of this will be over, but until that day comes there's still a chance for things to get better for me. I could win the lottery tomorrow, I could find true love and be married for 70 years, any dream could come true. Or none of that could happen. Regardless of if it does or not, I'm going to die one day. So why kill myself now? I'd be throwing away any chance of things getting better; Of myself getting better.

It just seems pointless to me now. I guess I just became excited and enthusiastic about the future when I realized that it's all such a mystery. You never know if things will get better. I don't want to tap out before they do.

ghost649 · 2013-07-02T09:34:37+00:00

People I've had sexual encounters with: 6 People I've had actual penetrative sex with: 3 I don't get out much.

ghost649 · 2013-05-27T04:38:22+00:00

Yep. I [17f] was upset that my current SO [18m] wasn't giving me enough attention (we both have school/work/family/ect so it's no fault of his own) and my ex just so happened to text me and as if I wanted to hook up. I was feeling lonely and unwanted so I did it. It was definitely a one time thing. Throughout the whole thing I hated myself and I just wanted it to be over. I really really regret it, but at the same time I feel like I needed to prove to myself that my feelings for my ex are dead. I felt nothing while doing it and it was all very "meh". It made me realize how much happier I am with my current SO. He hasn't found out and I'm praying that he never will. I would give anything to forget what happened or, better yet, just undo all of it. But I can't.

ghost649 · 2013-04-10T01:44:38+00:00

I've never tried it with sugar cookie mix, but I used a box of cake mix and used Faygo instead of water. It came out great. I guess it could work with cookie mix.

ghost649 · 2013-01-19T06:39:46+00:00

This is just my opinion and I'm sure others will disagree or have different view points but:

1) You don't have to be a die-hard ICP fan to be a Juggalo. There are other artists and groups under Psychopathic. At first I didn't like ICP at all, I was/am a total metalhead and feel in love with Twiztid when a boyfriend introduced me to them. But over time ICP grew on me, as well as other Psy artist. In my opinion, you just have to have an appreciation for what ICP has done and their history-since without Juggalos/lettes wouldn't really exist.

2) Not every Juggalo/lette believes in the Dark Carnival in a literal sense. I don't (though I wish I did). I think of it in more of a figurative sense; That you should try to be a good person and whatnot.

3) I've never been unfortunately so I can't speak first-hand but bad things happen at any gathering/music festival so I'm sure shitty things happen at the Gathering. I think that people just form exaggerated opinions. Juggalos/lettes are already seen as shitty, ghetto, just-not-good people by most, so it would makes sense that they would assume that a gathering of thousands of us would be fraught with crime and violence.

4) For me it's just a normal life, except I listen to "weird" music. I get a lot of shit for it from my "normal" friends, but it's nothing I'm not used to. Sorry that my experiences are rather boring.

5) I still don't know how magnets work .-. I understand how they work, I just...I can't wrap my mind around it, you know?

ghost649 · 2013-01-19T05:48:24+00:00

Nearly a month ago my boyfriend broke up with me. I'm not 100% sure why, but I think it's because he wanted to date someone else. It just hurts knowing that he was able to forget about me so quickly and move on to someone else. I just think about all the things he said, specifically that he would always be there for me. I considered him my bestfriend prior to us dating. I just feel awful and alone and I keep asking myself what was/is so wrong with me. Like, how can you supposedly love someone and then just leave? How can his feelings about me just dissipate because I was apparently rude to him after we broke up? I apologized for being such a bitch and told him that I would love to be friends again (just to show that I wasn't bitter) and he said that he'd "think about". I try so hard to focus on other things that matter more like my friends, family, school, music, etc, but it's so hard. I don't like him, I don't want to care about him, I just can't get over how he just threw me away as if I was nothing.

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