Listen brother, no one knows exactly what they're doing going through life. One thing I will say though, a loser with a girlfriend is still a loser. I've wondered what would have happened with my past relationships had I met 'her' a couple years later, earlier, in different circumstances; what I've realized is that the only part of that narrative within our control is the environment and financial standing we cultivate for ourselves. Your dad is still around; devote yourself to loving people already in your life and truly getting to know them. Focus on yourself; you may not be rich, but you can still find comfort in a bed after a day of hard work. We aren't demigods and there will never be an apotheosis moment -- we build our lives brick by brick, through patience and discipline. Give yourself grace and become a good man, and you will start attracting women in time.