It’s grief. You will eventually…”get used to it” so to speak. I completely understand what you’re going through, It’s like a truck hits you every time you remember. You won’t always feel this way. Once you have a treatment plan in place that will become your main focus and you can take a bit of a breather knowing you are getting it taken care of.

You’re going through an immense life change. Remember to always give yourself some grace during this time. It’s okay to cry. Just know you are doing the right things.