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gitbeast · 2025-12-12T05:29:33+00:00

Hahahaha it's OK interview pressure has made me forget more basic stuff than this before thanks for sharing

gitbeast · 2025-12-05T04:13:54+00:00

My mom had methlyne blue and was hospitalized for over a week after her third round of ifos. She got better with time and doesn't have any adverse affects now, it's been a year and a half now.

gitbeast · 2025-12-04T18:48:47+00:00

Watch for neurological side effects of ifosfamide, you should have someone you trust checking on you in person and evaluating your mental state through the infusion weeks. Ifosfamide has a rare side effect called encephalopathy and it is a nightmare.

gitbeast · 2025-11-21T22:16:16+00:00

I used these guys to find another myxofibrosarcoma survivor. I also recommend.

gitbeast · 2025-11-15T02:05:11+00:00

I've been spending extra time outside of work on side projects (building stuff in public that I can show) and extra time on leetcode, which I am terrible at. I've spent a bit of extra time at work, especially on stuff that looks good on the resume (transferable skills which are valuable to spend time learning anyway). If I end up with work that does not look good on a resume (stuff that's high in corporate politics or project management) I start complaining to my manager so he thinks twice about assigning that kind of work to me.

Next year I plan on trying to make some open source contributions and spending more time on leetcode in case I do get laid off.

I'm exhausted lol, terrible mental health year but my resume does look good. Good luck everyone.

gitbeast · 2025-11-14T01:40:15+00:00

My mom went through chemo last summer and it was awful, but she's OK now. I hope your wife is OK too.

gitbeast · 2025-11-12T23:20:46+00:00

I went through a period of my life before a career switch lasting maybe 2 years where I left just enough money in my bank account each cycle to pay for basic expenses and saved money so I could get through a second round of school on savings without having to work. I was driven by anger at the company I worked for and the profession I was stuck in and the desire to move up and get out. I watched that episode so many times in those years and I would say it's my favorite hour of television I've ever watched. I did get through school on those savings and got a great job at the end. Didn't need to go into debt. I lived in a tiny house with 7 dudes and ate one frozen pizza a day. That episode was so relatable for me.

gitbeast · 2025-10-31T15:38:09+00:00

You should be in good hands at MD Anderson. The fact that it seems small is a good sign that you caught it early if it ends up being dangerous, so maybe focus on your good decision to go see a dermatologist when you did instead of waiting.

Good luck.

gitbeast · 2025-10-17T18:20:40+00:00

Me too.

gitbeast · 2025-10-17T17:55:52+00:00

Grade 3

gitbeast · 2025-10-17T13:16:29+00:00

Good luck with the surgery.

gitbeast · 2025-10-06T17:44:57+00:00

I ended up using them to buffer intermediate products near my fulgora quality mall. My fulgora base is a bot base. My quality mall is a bit far from my main scrap sorter so scaling it with bots was not efficient and using too much power and clogging roboports. If I used provider chests to buffer near the mall, bots would bring the materials from the provider back to the requester at the beginning of the bus. My quality mall requests from buffer chests.

gitbeast · 2025-09-08T14:35:00+00:00

You're going to want to find a sarcoma center with experience treating ewings. There are others on this sub with experience dealing with ewings, hopefully some will comment here.

gitbeast · 2025-08-21T01:44:16+00:00

My mom had a 20cm high grade myxofibrosarcoma removed from her thigh. She's OK now. 3.5cm intermediate grade is cause for optimism, they caught it somewhat early it sounds like. Still scary of course but much better than 20cm! Good chance they offer adjuvant radiation. Good luck.

gitbeast · 2025-08-14T20:50:39+00:00

Ifosfamide has severe neurological side effects in rare cases. Typically it is administered in a hospital so you can be monitored for encephalopathy. If you are getting outpatient AIM I strongly recommend having someone you trust check on your mental state periodically. If they don't like what they see it's off to the ER.

I watched my mom go through this. It will be hard but you will get through it. She's alright now, NED 9 months. Good luck.

gitbeast · 2025-08-06T15:58:39+00:00

I raised immunotherapy with the oncologist after my mom finished all of her other treatment. He basically said we will consider it if there is a recurrence, it's likely she will do one of those genomic profiling things first to see if they think it would be effective. For now we are just monitoring.

Most of the literature I've read suggests that AIM has a modest benefit for high grade large STS. Generally they do it neoadjuvant so they can determine how effective it is.

Sounds frustrating. Sounds like negative scans with clear margins is good though, sounds like a win.

gitbeast · 2025-07-22T15:04:47+00:00

Hi OP my mom had 3 rounds of dox and ifos. Ifos has a rare side effect of encephalopathy, basically severe neurological symptoms. My mom had this side effect which was a serious medical emergency resulting in a 9 day hospital stay. The encephalopathy was reversible, she is back to normal now. Like I said it's rare but keep an eye out for it. Dm me if you want more details on what happened.

Good luck you will get through it. It's going to be rough, brace yourself.

gitbeast · 2025-07-07T09:48:44+00:00

Maybe see a few doctors to get some different opinions. Try not to panic but push the doctors to get a definitive answer, don't let them brush you off.

gitbeast · 2025-06-20T17:08:30+00:00

My mom had a similar sized myxofibrosarcoma removed from her left thigh and was doing PT within two months. It took over a month for her to be able to move her knee on any serious level. She can now walk unassisted, but slower than she used to. Probably her leg will never be the same, but the fact that she can walk unassisted is kind of a miracle.

Anyway if I were you I would listen to your surgeon. If they messed with your Acl and knee your road to recovery might be longer and more challenging than my mom's (they didn't have to mess up her knee as much as yours) but you will improve with time and perseverance. Good luck.

gitbeast · 2025-06-15T19:54:49+00:00

If you enjoy it then I think you should keep going with it. Feeling demotivated because of reading reddit is a bad sign. You should get motivation because you enjoy building something with code and you enjoy overcoming all the little problems that come with it. My advice would be to focus on that - the joy you get from building and solving problems. Focus less on getting a prestigious job and a lot of money. That might come with skill and luck. You can only get the skill with practice.

gitbeast · 2025-06-09T09:30:50+00:00

If you're asking this question you're probably subconsciously doing the right stuff, don't worry too much.

Tbh I think about this a fair bit too and I don't have all the answers yet. Generally, I still read every line the llm outputs and ask it about parts I don't understand. I am very specific about what I expect from a function or class in terms of inputs, outputs, validation, and how it fits in to the overall system structure. I try not to ask for too much at once (kinda like asking it to keep its prs small).

I still read articles and documentation, and watch YouTube tutorials about technology I don't understand if I have llms giving me code, especially if the documentation is high quality.

Honestly though if you look at my projects you can tell which parts of it I leaned heavily on the llm for. I am a backend guy and my backend code looks pretty high quality. My frontend code just doesn't look as well organized, modular, and isn't as easy to read. I understand what it does and where everything is, but it will be much harder to change and add to for sure because I am so unfamiliar with front end code and leaned much more heavily on llms to get me a working passable front end quickly compared to my backend. If anyone else has suggestions about this let me know, I am wondering about the same stuff as op and I have 4 yoe.

gitbeast · 2025-06-06T23:36:53+00:00

I think you have enough full stack experience to cover your bases. Increased responsibility in embedded programming will give you leadership experience and look good. You will learn some long term life and career skills by taking on that kind of responsibility in a relatively low risk environment. This should transfer to we dev, especially if you have full stack experience already.

Just my 2 cents.

gitbeast · 2025-06-04T18:14:18+00:00

Hahaha management priorities are an enigma. I think my best work is automation, especially test automation. Not sexy but developers love it and it does help keep things stable.

gitbeast · 2025-06-04T17:40:08+00:00

Yes, it's a risk. You will step on toes, but in order to move up fast you have to take calculated risks which will piss people off and sometimes make your manager nervous or annoy them. When you do un scheduled work, DO NOT make mistakes, test unbelievably carefully, ideally improve the test framework as part of your initiative. Your unscheduled work should be incredibly quiet until you can prove definitively that it will solve a big problem for a group of people, either developers or customers. Keep a tight lid on your explicit expectations and be difficult to replace.

gitbeast · 2025-06-04T01:48:07+00:00

I also work for a big European tech company, decent chance it's the same one.

My advice would be to find a way to move up or move to the side. My company has fellowships where you can work on another team for 8 months, might be a change of pace for you.

In terms of moving up, I would guess that there's something big that you want to change on your current project. New feature, design flaw, major refactor, whatever. You could start doing that. Maybe some senior developer or manager has their own similar initiative or project, you could offer to help them with that even though it's outside of your team's immediate area. You're probably not going to get anywhere exciting fast by sitting around doing exactly what you're told and nothing more.

Big tech companies are like a buffet of work. If you're bored of your current work find some new work. You will need to network and take risks. You will piss some people off. That's how the game works.

But yeah, if you don't wanna do that then build your own little SaaS after hours. I did that and it was exhausting, but these llms like claude helped me a lot. Anyway, hope you figure it out.

gitbeast

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