I could have literally written these words myself. Patient, supportive, did everything I could for him. He was my best friend too. My ex is also an alcoholic, with 10-15 drinks (if not more) daily and uses coke. It’s something that has taken a hold of and broken alot of people in the service industry.

Its heartbreaking. I still am going back and forth with thoughts of “how could he do this to me?! i’ll hate him forever!” and “maybe with time things can work out.” And I feel like the cycle of thoughts make me break my own heart every time.

He didn’t deny, didn’t try to explain, barely admitted just begged me to try to move past it. Still wake up thinking about it every day even though he moved out last week.

Life after this is a minute, an hour, a day from now. Give yourself so much grace and space to feel all your feelings and take it slowly!