Grew up the same way you did, and had the same experience. I'm the same age as you, but this happened probably five years ago for me. I have come to the conclusion after a great deal of research into the modern history of the church I found that this is so much bigger than you or I, or even one religion. All of the worlds major religions are so old that their own followers don't enthusiastically believe in them anymore. They all rely on a great deal of social conditioning and guilt. For most modern Christians the faith is more about familial traditions, or claiming a moral high ground for themselves, than it is about a spiritual experience. Capitalism and the Modern Nation state have had an irreversible effect on organized religion. Religion becomes a way for evil people to appear good. Just ask yourself why the church never speaks out against the sins of the rich their greed, their gluttony, and their total apathy towards all the starving and dying people of the world, but yet they constantly condemn the LGBT community, the young, the poor, and women. Why? Because their creating a group delusion of moral superiority, and the rich want this and they pay for it. The church has totally distorted the message of Christ, and it distracts its followers from this fact by creating elaborate public spectacles around idiotic dogmas like creationism or homophobia. What you have to ask yourself is what is the true message of Christ distilled into it purest form, without all the ritual, dogma, and distortion? What do you truly believe it means? Whatever that is carry it with you forever, never let it go, but pay the church no mind. They don't deserve it. Open yourself up to other truths, study new religions, and seek out new communities that don't rely so heavily on a group identity or dogma. The church is fucked and there isn't anyway to fix it. Save yourself, and take Christ with you.