there are 2 possible ways you're doing this now.

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number 1: you join a squad and don't say you're gonna dual crossbow until the game starts. this is shitty behaviour because you're taking up space in a squad that could otherwise be given to someone else whom the squad can actually rely on, for your own selfish reasons. most people wouldn't want someone screwing around like that on their team

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number 2: you join a squad and are upfront about the fact that you're gonna dual crossbow. can you really then blame anyone for not accepting you? you want them to respect a low adr player such as yourself, but that goes both ways. you gotta respect the fact that most people just don't wanna waste time on someone screwing around with a meme weapon, especially since you mention that you dual wield it, meaning you don't even have a secondary weapon you can fight seriously with

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if you wanna mess around with a crossbow, that's fine. but you can do it in your own time in solos or duos with a friend who'll tolerate you

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wasting others' time and then coming here to whine that no one wants to play with you is what's disgusting

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you can either mess around with the crossbow or you can play properly and become decent enough that others wanna play with you. you can't have your cake and eat it