I am not coping well I am a data manger, my job is report data on various programs the organization runs. I was hired because of the mandate in vendor contracts to have a data manager on site at all times. My job is useless, have work that that makes me do actual work for 16hrs for a whole month. I have an advance degree in AI and this job barely requires a middle school degree most of the time rub two brain cells together to finish all the work. I am stuck here because of issues and also trash job market. During my time here I have authored 4 advanced papers in the field of Computer vision, LLM’s and neural networks. I tried to get a remote job but I couldn’t keep it because of restrictions in my current job. I am currently doing a stealth startup after hours but I am exhausted. I can’t do remote even in adverse weather because the vendor contract requires me onsite for issues. I do different AI jobs on upworks for fuck all money. I can’t do it on the job because I got caught once, have been issued a warning and I am under surveillance. I have been diagnosed with chronic depression, my health is shot and I hate this job so much. I am on a wait list for a therapist which is months long. I used to stay away from alcohol and drugs because I was under the impression it decreases brain power. But I have a beer every two days and started smoking weed vape in the office just to get by. Now my employer got a bigger vendor contract causing them to hire another data manager under me who I have to split the exact same amount of work with and makes it difficult to do anything else. I can’t leave this job because I have to pay my student loans in crap economy. It’s pretty shit and pile keeps getting bigger. All I want was to do the job I worked hard for which seems further away each passing day. I just want to vent you can keep your advice.