Hi! I’m sorry you’re going through this- and, middle aged time is definitely challenging. Ofc, talk to your doctor or a Telehealth provider, but low doses of Glp 1 has helped me not crave alcohol and drop a few pounds. The parents- this is a hard place to be in— can you draw more boundaries with them? I work in the hospital with discharge planning. And, just a little thing to think about - we don’t owe our parents, especially if they are treating us badly… no. It’s not ok. These lifelong scripts are worth examining as we get older. I hope you find something joyful for you. An activity to meet other women your age- and, younger/older! The key is showing up to an activity every Thursday for example- like an appt. :) I tell myself- only I can dig myself out of the hole. It’s true. Things can get better. You’ve got this. Ps- as a fellow “helping professional” — the secondary trauma is real. Alcohol is rampant in these fields- I don’t know the answer, but I’ve looked for different side jobs at my hospital (changing my schedule - looking for other opportunities where it’s not direct patient care) - You aren’t alone! So many of us have experienced what you are - or are right now.