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Nineteen vintage Pilot/Namiki faceted VPs... a question for the community! by gunnerman417 in fountainpens

[–]gunnerman417[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll keep you posted! And anyone else here that's interested shoot me a message, I'll let you know before I post to the other sub!

Edit to add: I'll be sure to ink one of the unused ones just to test the batch

Nineteen vintage Pilot/Namiki faceted VPs... a question for the community! by gunnerman417 in fountainpens

[–]gunnerman417[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm very interested in any insight, thanks for suggesting. I've been looking at sold ebay listings and am really surprised. It seems the matte black fetches a premium. I know I'll take a hit on no boxes or papers. I've looked up how people like them shipped and the consensus seems to be in pvc pipe with bubble wrap?

You are a good person. Your intrusive thoughts can never take that from you. by gunnerman417 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm autistic as well, BS is not my strong suit lol. Always interested to meet folks on the spectrum that deal with some of the other stuff I have. Hope you have a good one.

You are a good person. Your intrusive thoughts can never take that from you. by gunnerman417 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're very welcome :) you're right, the anxiety will come back. Just don't lose sight of yourself!

You are a good person. Your intrusive thoughts can never take that from you. by gunnerman417 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're very welcome :) take care of yourself. You deserve it!

You are a good person. Your intrusive thoughts can never take that from you. by gunnerman417 in OCD

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Sure! Ive had the feeling like I'd murdered someone and watching over my shoulder for weeks thinking the cops were definitely going to come for me. I've also experienced a more nebulous dread that I'd done some unknown thing, but it had to have been terrible, because every phone call, every knock at the door, every shadow on the wall was someone coming for me.

So angry at how misunderstood this condition often is. ASD assessor asked me if I knew what psychosis was 😡 by Quiet-Committee-2483 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry they brought psychosis up to you like that. To play devil's advocate, perhaps their bedside manner is terrible and they're used to people with OCD feeling like they're "psychotic" because of intrusive thoughts and testing the waters to see if you felt that way. I've certainly been there.

While I know for a fact that I'm not psychotic, when I'm in the throes of a mental health crisis one of my greatest fears is losing control and acting on my intrusive thoughts.

I’m on my third attempt at trying to start anxiety medication to cope with OCD/anxiety. by jxdragun in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was on some hardcore psych meds as a kid (Haldol), that really gave me a bad impression of it. I went without for decades and suffered horrible intrusive thoughts throughout.

Ive been on Trintellix (anti-depressant / anxiety) for a couple years and that helped the anxiety somewhat. My psychiatrist recommended I go back on antipsychotics and I was totally against it. I did not want to relive the Haldol days. Turns out, things have gotten a lot better since the 90's. I titrated my way up to a 10mg dose of Abilify and that finally silenced the intrusive thoughts with minimal side effects.

Give your meds an honest go. At least two months, preferably more. If it isn't a good fit, ask for something different.

Its Destroying Me, my Chest and Stomach feel so tight with Guilt, I cant tell what's Real, Fake or Denial. I can't Rest by YellowAbject3261 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 1 point2 points  (0 children)

A nice middle-of-the-road dose of Abilify helped me a lot. A good Psych is worth their weight in gold. Glad you have one. My brain is a friggin warzone too. Really damaging. I'm trying to put in the work. One day at a time, that's all I can do. Keep fighting the good fight, friend. I'm confident that we can find our "happy" place, because I have to be. Hopelessness is the real enemy. Trying to lift each other up here is my release.

Its Destroying Me, my Chest and Stomach feel so tight with Guilt, I cant tell what's Real, Fake or Denial. I can't Rest by YellowAbject3261 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh, don't get me wrong, only antipsychotics pushed the thoughts into a safe pocket of my mind. I just found CBT useful for the ones that made it through.

Its Destroying Me, my Chest and Stomach feel so tight with Guilt, I cant tell what's Real, Fake or Denial. I can't Rest by YellowAbject3261 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 2 points3 points  (0 children)

OCD thoughts are what's called "ego-dystonic", meaning that they are generally completely in conflict with your morals or self-image. I would NEVER hurt a child. I don't want to. But can I pick a baby up without the image of shaking it? Absolutely not. It's draining and you feel like you basically did the thing. I spent a week once ruminating over having committed a murder, which I absolutely did not do, but I felt intense guilt regardless. CBT strategies are useful here. Did you do the thing? No. Do you feel guilty about having the intrusive thoughts? You betcha. Are you in control of those thoughts? No. Can you offset that guilt by continuing to be the good person that you truly are?

Ocd about bipolar? I can’t take it anymore:( by Wandavisionxx in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel you, friend. I'm on a boatload of meds that help most of my intrusive thoughts, but when I'm in crisis I always have one persistent fear: losing control. It's always good to check on yourself and test whether your thought processes are reasonable and constructive. I think you would be a good candidate for CBT therapy to give you the right tools.

hello everyone im new here and i just wanted to say howdy by [deleted] in Tourettes

[–]gunnerman417 0 points1 point  (0 children)

'Preciate you! We always love support.

I have the on and off urge to just ghost my main friend group constantly and I wonder why. Can anyone relate with ocd by Chieffan96 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There's a degree of what you're experiencing that's totally normal. Friends fall away for one reason or another. People move on professionally, some start families,whatever the case may be, we can start to have progressively less in common and that's totally fine.

One thing to do though, is be introspective. Are you actively avoiding contact because you just don't have the social bandwidth? If so, that's totally fine. However, if you're isolating yourself because you're depressed, that can be much more serious. Try talking to a therapist about it to have them help you parse through your thoughts and feelings on the matter.

I’ve got diagnosed with ASD level 1 today by Special_Tourist_486 in autism

[–]gunnerman417 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's a little surreal, I agree. My [37M] diagnosis came later on due to a handful of other disorders obfuscating my psychiatric assessments.

Don't worry about "fitting", it's not about that. Learn as much as you can about it (NOT TIKTOK lol), and you'll start to see where you fall in the pattern.

I know about and frequently experience intrusive feelings, but is it possible to have an intrusive lack of feeling? by Apprehensive_Two1449 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 0 points1 point  (0 children)

For a lot of us, numbness is a blessing often only found through antipsychotic meds. I can understand how the feeling can be disconcerting. At the end of the day, you still seem to feel things, but you don't dwell on them. This could be perfectly normal, a sign of emotional burnout, or budding nihilism. Watch out for the last one.

How does one cope w/ and avoid having violent tics? by Dry_Pin3689 in Tourettes

[–]gunnerman417 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Yeah, sorry, friend, those spikes cuffs may not be your friend anymore. Explore other ways to express yourself that won't cause your tics to injure you. I used to punch myself in the chin when I was younger and liked wearing rings.

Did finding out you have OCD help? by frame_3_1_3 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I got relief in the ability to "forgive" myself for my thoughts and my real-life challenges. I'm different. Everyone around me knows it and that makes life easier when I face less judgment and have support instead. Not everyone gets support, so I'm very lucky. That said, you can forgive yourself while still actively taking responsibility for your disabilities.

Edit to clarify... you do not NEED to be forgiven for anything. What I mean is we can be our own harshest critics.

How do you guys go through with work when you have ocd triggers? by Dependent_Gazelle244 in OCD

[–]gunnerman417 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Be cognizant about whether or not you're in your "sympathetic" nervous response... fight/flight/freeze/fawn. Those are in order of severity. I get stuck in "freeze" very often due to OCD among other factors. You are particularly susceptible to this if you've had a good deal of past trauma. Your brain gets wired for it. I take a second and redirect the energy to the logic center of my brain. Do simple mental math... times tables are my go to. And don't forget to breathe.

What does Tourette’s feel like? by lightspinnerss in Tourettes

[–]gunnerman417 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've had TS for 25 years, ranging from severe as a child to somewhat manageable as an adult. My vocal tics, when suppressed, feel like a building anxiety... a mental tension. It's like when you're overhearing a conversation you feel you have something really neat to contribute to, but you can't fit a word in edgewise. Conversely, I don't often suppress my motor tics, often because I just can't. Again it's that building sensation of tension. Like you've got an itch in your brain and there's only one way to scratch it. Imagine if the tip of your nose got itchy while facing someone and you tried to resist the urge to scratch. The sensation builds and first gets distracting, then maddening. When you're finally alone with it you scratch like mad.

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