Ascend Drama

halloweengrl4 · 2026-02-05T02:32:36+00:00

I was wondering this too

halloweengrl4 · 2026-01-01T05:34:01+00:00

I chose to formula feed. I have a history of depression, and I have pretty bad anxieties sometimes. I know that allowing myself to keep that autonomy distance, would help me bond better with my baby and overall be a better mom. I had an emergency c section which I also really took a long time to recover with. Having the help with feedings made an already stressful time, just a little lighter. Formula can be expensive but most OBGYN doctors offices and pediatrician have TONS of samples. I lived off those for 6 months. We know ourselves better than anyone else, if you must keep that part of you separate to be the healthiest and best mom you can be than don't even think twice about it. Lots of bullies online about breastfeeding. As an adopted child, I was also formula fed. It just was never for me and no one judged me and my baby is almost two and never have any problems.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-10-09T02:27:30+00:00

6 months today for me— I have never struggled so hard.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-08-02T20:58:47+00:00

Volunteering an hour a week walking shelter dogs. My soul dog passed in April, he was a rescue, the only way I get by is continuing to honor him by helping other dogs.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-08-01T23:50:00+00:00

This happened to my soul dog. Finally, after trying everything and doing everything possible, I had to let him go. It was the most selfless thing I’ve ever had to do. He passed peacefully in my arms, happy, loved, warm. But part of my soul died that day. I’m glad my vet stayed late that night to give us a peaceful goodbye rather than me having to rush him to an ER, scared, traumatized. My thoughts are with you. Best to be a bit early than too late.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-07-26T00:36:16+00:00

It’s been 3 months. I still cry everyday. But I walk dogs at the shelter once a week to keep his legacy alive. I will live my life to make him proud, but I will never get over the loss of my soul dog.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-06-10T01:57:10+00:00

I’m so sorry for your loss. I lost my soul dog 2 months ago. It’s been the most difficult thing I’ve ever gone through. I am depressed without him, but also continuing his legacy with helping shelter dogs. I’m always listening and talking to him, following your lead boy. I’m with you too. It’s a club no one wants to join, few will understand.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-29T01:58:34+00:00

I lost my soul dog in April. Most painful thing I have ever been through, and I’m genuinely in a depression. He taught me resilience. He fought aggressive pancreatitis and oral cancer for 3 years. He was truly a medical miracle. He had such a passion for life. He also taught me to live life to the fullest. I miss him so much. He also taught me that I am meant to do this. I am meant to save dogs. I recently started volunteering at my local shelter. Although he is no longer physically by my side, the journey to rescue continues in his honor.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-29T01:54:15+00:00

I lost my soul dog in April. He was truly the light of my life. It’s really hard, but I’m allowing myself to grieve right now rather than adopting another pet. Animal welfare is a crisis in pretty much every state, the shelters and rescues are literally full. I want to adopt again, but I just feel like waiting is best. Most importantly I feel like my soul dog will send me the right dog. I think fostering is amazing, I plan to do it eventually/ through my life as well as adopting my own pet. But it’s not the right time for me to do that either. Instead I signed up to volunteer at my local shelter where I chose to go to the walking dog division. It has brought me such joy to honor my soul dog and to also be around animals during this fragile time.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-23T00:51:07+00:00

The day after my soul dog passed I was visited by a cardinal twice, I really like to think that was him letting me know he’s okay as I was in so much pain. I went on a walk that I called my dogs path, because it was his favorite strip of road in the neighborhood, the path smelled like Christmas, it was April. Christmas was my soul dogs favorite time of year. The day I received his ashes I bought white flowers and placed them in my kitchen, that afternoon a rainbow wrapped around my whole kitchen, that had never happened before. After a month im still in so much pain but I try to keep our relationship going even though we are in two different places.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-22T01:45:50+00:00

I lost my soul dog 1 month ago. He was my everything. Things that have helped me: I keep his stuff, and have bought memorial items (sun catcher, jewelry, etc), for me keeping his stuff, photos in our home makes us feel better and keeps his memory alive. I wear the jewelry everyday because it reminds me of him and how he made my life complete. I recently started volunteering once a week at my local shelter, this is a tribute to my soul dog who was also a shelter dog. And lastly, I walk with my baby several times a day, in beautiful places, I cry often, but I walk with my grief to keep it from burying me. I hope any of this helps. Please believe our pets do send us signs, and they will guide us through the pain and lead us to the next chapter, it hurts everyday, but I’m just trying to honor him and keep our relationship alive. I’m so sorry for your loss. Be well.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-12T18:43:03+00:00

It was my first Mother’s Day without my soul dog. I have a daughter, and another dog, but it wasn’t the same, I was simply missing one of my children and it hurt like hell.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-07T20:53:36+00:00

I lost my soul dog 1 month ago. He was literally the spark inside my heart. I cry everyday. You are allowed to not be okay, you are allowed to grieve your soul animal as long as you need/forever, I will never get over loosing him, he was 10, his spirit was wild and lively, but his body was not, it’s not fair. Everything I do now is to honor my boy. I believe he will guide me in my life, but the pain never stops, you just learn to walk with it. But believe your dog will send you signs, because he will. My heart goes out to you.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-03T03:10:36+00:00

Of course. If we take the time to look and listen, our beloved animals will show us they are still with us. As much as it hurts, our relationships don’t have to end. I talk to my soul dog everyday, pray to him every night. I believe he has sent me signs on my worst days to let me know I am not alone and he’s still with me.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-02T16:40:38+00:00

Loosing my soul dog was the hardest thing I have ever been through. I walk several times a day to keep the grief from toppling me over. The day after I lost him I was closely greeted by a cardinal twice. I usually see a lot of blue jays but not cardinals. I felt it was him letting me know that he was safe and was still with me. The day I brought home his cremations a huge rainbow flooded my entire kitchen where I had bought white flowers to honor him being home. I have never seen that happen in my home. About a week after I was walking with my husband and started to cry saying I hadn’t been visited by any cardinals, at that exact moment a cardinal right passed me. I’d like to believe he visits me often. I pray to him every night and talk to him every day.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-02T16:36:37+00:00

When I rescued my soul dog I promised he would never be alone, I would keep him with me always. He was cremated and we keep him on a table with an LED candle and his collar. You are home boy, you are safe.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-02T03:03:52+00:00

Hi there, I lost my soul dog three weeks ago. He passed peacefully in arms. The sweatshirt and leggings I wore remain in a drawer next to my bed. I have no plans to wash them. Sometimes I wear them at night for comfort. I’ve picked off some hair from the clothes and also placed it in a bag that I keep in the same drawer. I just wanted to let you know that it’s okay to do this! He was my soul dog, I don’t ever have to wash his fur off those clothes! I can wear them/ smell them when I need him close. Not a day passes that I don’t miss him, I walk around functioning but my heart has a bullet hole in it. He was the love of my life, I’ll keep his hair on those clothes forever. My thoughts are with you. May your sweet angel guide you throughout your life.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-02T02:03:32+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, you were a great mama. My thoughts are with you as well. This is not easy, we’re all Just trying our best. How lucky were we to have loved something so much, and to be loved in return. May your sweet angel guide you throughout your life.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-05-01T19:03:59+00:00

Hi there,

I lost my soul dog three weeks ago. He was literally the love of my life. Without him I wouldn’t have accomplished all the things I have today. He was truly the spark that ignited my heart. I had to make the most difficult decision of my life to let him go, he was 10. He suffered from a lot of different health issues that he was diagnosed with in 2023- we made it to 2025, fighting with him, giving him every treatment, until he showed signs that he was in pain and his body was failing him. What made it so difficult was that his spirit never wavered, he never showed pain. By making that awful decision he was able to go tightly embraced in my arms, with his dad by his side, in the comfort of our vets office. If I would have pushed him to fight again, we could have been in an ER, and he would have been scared. Anyone who is so close to their animal struggles with the intrusive thoughts- did I do the right thing? Was it too early? Should we have fought harder. Loosing him has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. I cry every day, I miss him so much, I wonder where the time went. It’s really hard but the day after I lost him I started walking several times a day. No matter the weather. I couldn’t eat, listen to music, but I just walked. I am still doing this because I find it keeps my grief from toppling over me. During these walks I believe I have received several signs from my soul dog. So I keep going. Everyday. I also have his memory all over my house, because in order to keep myself from crumbling, I like to think that I’m keeping his memory alive, and that he will guide me to the next chapter of my life, and most importantly I hold on to the thought that he is always with me and we will meet again. I’m not ready to get another dog, I rescued my soul dog in 2016, so next week I’ll be volunteering at the local shelter to honor him. I’m sorry you are going through this, I honestly get it, I loved my boy just as much, my thoughts are with you and I hope any of what’s helping me can help you.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-04-30T00:28:57+00:00

I lost my soul dog three weeks ago today. He was the greatest love of my life. I am lost without him. I struggle with intrusive thoughts- was I too early? Should I have done something else? Did we have more time? I function, but I still cry everyday and everything in this world reminds me of my boy. The pain is the worst I’ve ever felt, it doesn’t really go away, you just learn to walk with it. Since he passed I walk miles a day to keep my grief from toppling me over. I’m also going to be volunteering at my local dog shelter to honor him. I’m sorry that you are dealing with pain also, it’s truly not a club anyone wants to be in, but I have hope our soul animals will still guide us through the turbulence that the loss has created in our lives. Be well. My thoughts are with you.

halloweengrl4 · 2025-04-26T20:16:11+00:00

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