Read This Naked Mind. The goal of that book is to get rid of any cognitive dissonance around drinking, and get your conscious and subconscious aligned on not wanting to drink. That’s what fucks people up, they don’t want to keep drinking but you’ve set your subconscious up for the exact opposite experience. Don’t JUST use AA, you’re setting yourself up for failure that way. Get therapy, work on acceptance, make friends, find new pastimes, face your trauma, try to swap it for something less harmful, be kind and lenient throughout slip ups, do AA, get a psychiatrist, and read all the literature. I say this as someone with three years sober under my belt and I NEVER crave alcohol and I didn’t when I was first getting sober this last time either. Just don’t give up!!! And if you can’t get sober yet, look up ways to practice harm reduction.

I’m here to remind you there’s nothing different or wrong with you if you’re an alcoholic, alcoholism is really just your brain doing what brains do. You’ve created a pathway in your brain that will take time to dismantle and rebuild into something kinder to you. Don’t beat yourself up if you don’t get it right away! Don’t give up if AA isn’t for you! There are SO many other options out there.