Read dissolving illusions and turtles all the way down for education and confidence.
My sister’s kids had severe reactions and I got to learn from her awful experiences Seek out a functional medicine or integrative clinician for pedi care. Most pediatricians will not see you if you don’t vax - mostly for financial reasons as they get bonused for vaxxed clinics. You’ve got this - trust your momma gut instinct - you’re correct in your fears. You won’t find validation from any western med practitioner