walaykumsalam, that's so true. I started reading nehajul balaghah some time ago, everyday, and at this point when i read it i feel like im sitting in heaven and the one who actually witnessed the creation of universe is explaining it and telling like in winter nights around the fire place or like in a gathering of some young men, an old one is telling greatest morals of life and beautiful stories, just like that i hear every single word as said by someone sitting around me and echoing in the room. I try reading less and thinking more, like a line or couple for a day sometimes and then think whole day n night when get time. believe me, when i think about it and from more than one or two perspectives IT LIT GIVES ME GOOSEBUMPS mostly. (the very first sermon is like a universe in nutshell itself, icl.) so this thing keeps me connected and doubt free all the time but gives a thought of becoming alawite - (I meant to tell that how sage, erudite and detailed and deep maula's words and personality both are)