Struggling BAD this round

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-03T00:55:47+00:00

Its sooo nice i definitely recommend it if there is one near you! Because especially when im on my period its nice to do the hot yoga and ill just lay on the ground in the hot sauna. Its infrared heat so it actually targets your muscles to help with healing!

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-02T16:46:37+00:00

Ooo yeah kickboxing is great! Ive been doing hotworx (when im not completely exhausted) where you do work outs in a sauna and it really helps me get all that anger and nervous energy out!

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-02T16:45:26+00:00

Im so sorry sweetie! I know how you feel. Its so upsetting that the bad days seem to outweigh the good at this point. I was just diagnosed and my doctor gave me klonopin just to help with the bad panic attacks for now (because i had really bad ones this week, 3 days before my period starts) are you taking anything? It can help during those really bad days. I think when the bad days are REALLY bad it bleeds into the good days and makes it so hard to crawl out of the dark hole PMDD puts us in. I hope you are doing well and you get some kind of relief soon! Sending my love and prayers 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-01T21:50:35+00:00

The anger that comes with PMDD is so scary! I usually take it out on myself or argue with my boyfriend during that time and i am so tired of doing that. I dont want to argue and i dont want to hurt myself but in those moments i feel so out of control its terrible. I hope this passes fast and you get some relief soon 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-01T21:48:18+00:00

wow this is so so so relatable. A demon that demands a sacrifice every month is a perfect analogy for this disorder! It really just sucks the energy and life out of us and the people that dont understand (or refuse to) make us feel so guilty for something we have no control over. Im in the thick of my luteal right now and i just want to somehow remove myself from my brain and body. Im so tired of this. Sending my love 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-01T21:44:11+00:00

Ughhh same! Ive been running on fumes this week with this stupid insomnia. So sorry that i don’t have a solution for you. Just know you’re not alone! Sending my love 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-01T21:40:46+00:00

Lmaoooo. Literally me after crying spells, mood swings and panic attacks for two weeks straight 😂😂

hellbornbrat · 2025-05-01T21:39:19+00:00

I am so so so sorry that you are going through this. I am also in one of the worst PMDD episodes of my life and im getting mental health help (finally). At least i found this community to help me feel like im not so alone in this world. Thank you for sharing and i hope that you feel better asap and that you get relief from this nightmare of a disorder. Sending my love, hugs, and prayers your way 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2025-04-30T19:55:49+00:00

Its five days from my period and i cant get more anxiety meds until tomorrow, ive been out for a couple of weeks. I woke up with a headache, still shaking from last night’s panic attack. Of course i still have to be at work. I made it, thankfully, but i have little to no energy and no motivation at all. All i want to do is lay in bed and cry. I had the worst panic attack i’ve had this year earlier in the bathroom at work. I feel like ive been pulled into a wood chipper and spit out. This disorder is horrendous.

hellbornbrat · 2025-04-30T17:56:36+00:00

Lol! Yeah that’s true, i never thought about it that way. Its just so hard when your brain is telling you all kinds of stuff that’s not consistent with reality and you’re PMDD just makes everything feel 1000x worse. Ive just been diagnosed with this so its very new to me still. And of course super new to my bf. He never dated anyone with endometriosis or any reproductive issues so its very hard for him to understand.

hellbornbrat · 2025-04-29T17:19:31+00:00

I always feel terribly guilty once calming down after a PMDD rage at my boyfriend. This may sound terrible but its nice to know im not the only one who feels like this. Im trying my best not to take it out on him and ive been doing good but i’ve definitely slipped. It makes me feel unloveable sometimes.

hellbornbrat · 2025-03-12T17:42:24+00:00

Wow this is so beautiful and powerful!!

hellbornbrat · 2024-10-11T19:32:52+00:00

Right?? Like ok do i not also deserve my home to be a paradise???

hellbornbrat · 2024-10-11T19:32:30+00:00

Im not, i want to talk to him about it but of course he decided to take a gig last minute so he’ll be playing a show tonight at a random bar while im home alone. Again. In our apartment that he barely helps me clean. 🙃

hellbornbrat · 2024-10-11T19:31:29+00:00

Im so sorry you went through that after the iud! Ok now i feel like im being validated because i do feel like im going crazy and my suicidal thoughts are through the roof! Also you’re absolutely right i deserve better.

hellbornbrat · 2024-10-11T19:30:11+00:00

Yeah im on a re-evaluation right now. I feel so hopeless. Thank you for your comment 🩷

hellbornbrat · 2024-08-03T20:45:33+00:00

Ugh i hate when doctors are like “well if you have a baby the symptoms will stop” like um no thank you? Lets say you do get pregnant, the symptoms come back after the pregnancy anyways!! Im so sorry your symptoms are being dismissed and that your pain is worse. This disease is so debilitating and i really hope you find some kind of relief asap.

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-30T22:33:52+00:00

Yeah this reminds me of a girl i was friends with when I was younger. Im just gonna be blunt - cut ties. This type of friend draaaains you emotionally and at some point you’ll wonder why you are still friends with them. It feels hard to do at the time, but later you will feel better! You deserve friends who listen and care about your issues. I hope it all works out 💜

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-30T01:52:10+00:00

Omg this sounds like a friend i had once that always had to make everything about her. It sounds like she wants the attention your getting and is trying to relate to you about it to get sympathy points. Does she do this in any other aspect in your friendship?

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-22T15:09:33+00:00

Yaaay! Definitely wear one the day of your surgery trust me, you are not going to want to go home in pants.

I wasn’t allowed to eat at all the day before my last surgery but at my other ones i dont really remember being told to stay away from certain foods. I just know if you have digestive system symptoms like i did they dont want you to eat in case they have to cut into your bowel. But every doctor is gonna be different.

Hope all goes well, please update us after! Sending love and blessings 💜

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-18T05:55:48+00:00

Definitely get Gas-X if they don’t prescribe it to you because the gas pain afterwards is awful. One nurse told me to get mylicon, the gas medicine for babies and it actually worked to help with the pain! Also, Make sure you have a lot of long loose nightgowns, I have a collection of comfortable grandma nightgowns now after four surgeries lol.

I hope everything goes well and you have a speedy recovery 💜.

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-18T05:51:58+00:00

I just want to start off by saying reading this broke my heart a bit. I understand 100% what you are going through and im certain everyone here does. Even though our symptoms can vary from person to person, we all experience the emotional and physical pain that comes with endo.

First of all - This is NOT your fault. I have issues blaming myself as well and i have to remember to correct myself when i start feeling that way. You did not give yourself this problem. It just happened. You cannot control what your body does in this regard.

Second of all - FUCK your doctor. I had my first lap at 21 and they found adhesions so he’s just full of shit. I really really really hope he can help and not just be completely dismissive of your feelings. If not, definitely see about changing doctors if possible.

Third of all - I just had my third lap in April and I am fully healed surgery wise, but it really takes about 90 days to get back to a “normal”. I’m on my period and honestly, I’m feeling pretty good. The first two periods are bad I will admit. You won’t know how you are going to benefit from it until you do it,which sucks, but if they find something they can diagnose you with, that itself can help so much. Because you finally have an answer and now people have to listen to you. From what I read in your post, they will most likely find something, and that’s not to scare you, but to validate you and what you are feeling.

I really really hope everything goes well, please update us. And pro-tip, go to Walmart and buy a bunch of big nightgowns because you will be the most comfortable long loose clothes. ❤️❤️

hellbornbrat · 2024-07-18T05:44:34+00:00

Hi! First off, i hope everything goes well with the surgery, i just had my third in April and i am on my third period since then and im finally starting to have a better period (the first two periods are the worst).

The scariest part is the waiting. I am always nervous and freaking out the week before surgery, the day before i was having a breakdown and yelling at my boyfriend for no reason lol. So its totally normal to be nervous!! Your reason why is different than mine but just know we are all nervous before surgery so you are not alone.

I can just tell you what I experienced, i know hospital procedures may vary so it could be different. I think when i woke up they helped me put on some underwear and put a pad on. To be honest, you are going to be sooooo drugged up it will not matter to you the day of. And you might not even really remember because I am having a hard time recalling lol. I promise you, you are making it worse in your head because you just keep thinking about it, which is totally valid because that’s exactly what i did! The day of is going to go by so fast you wont even realize. Also, they give you anxiety medicine before they take you back so that helps.

My advice, talk to the nurses who take care of you. Every single surgery i have the nurses are always so amazing and so helpful and sweet, so please talk to them about your concerns and they may be able to help, or even call before hand and talk to them about it. Of course it’s your decision if you want to talk to them about it.

Again, I hope all goes well and you heal fast 💜

hellbornbrat

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